"What on earth am I...doing."

Wandering on the city streets at night, Zhuge suddenly lost his goal. Go back? Or not go back? This question has been lingering in his mind.

Zhuge walked aimlessly to a nearby commercial street, sat on a bench where customers were resting, and habitually took out his cell phone.

After the game app was deleted by a colleague last time, he never downloaded it again and he felt that he was no longer weak.

But now, I am even more irritable.

You are logged into your account.

Although the game has been deleted, the software for the discussion platform of the game itself is still there. It is filled with diehard fans of this game. Originally, he himself was also a member of this discussion platform.

The game will be updated and maintained with a new version next week. Players are advised to be prepared to save data and log out early. This update will add a new character, Monster Girl...

At the top is a content about game updates, and below are lines of extremely excited comments.

Monster girl??Ahhhh!! I’m going to die!

I want to pinch a slime girl!!!

After Zhuge pulled the slider down a few times, he suddenly lost interest and suddenly became disgusted, "To put it nicely... Monster Girl, if she really appears in front of you... After all, reality is still reality, no matter how cute it is.

When the two dimensions become three dimensions, it becomes terrifying."

But... if it were before today, maybe I would be one of those people showing happy expressions, right?

Zhuge smiled mockingly to himself, sitting alone like this in a daze, until the commercial street became completely deserted. Except for the convenience store that was open 24 hours a day, there was no other business open.

shop.

Sure enough, there is no free lunch in the world.

Zhuge shook his head, hesitated, and finally hurried home... He came out in a hurry after returning home at noon. He didn't bring anything with him except his mobile phone. Even if he wanted to stay outside, he didn't have an ID card to register.

The only option was to bite the bullet and go back.

Thinking that although Nanako...but at least, she won't harm herself.

He silently returned to the downstairs of the rental house. When he reached his floor, he found that the door to his unit was only ajar.

Zhuge was stunned for a moment, then carefully opened the door without even turning on the light.

Zhuge swallowed and turned on the light in the room with a bang. The unit was small, so he could basically see everything clearly at once.

But...Nanako is not here.

Not in the shower room, not on the small balcony, not in the small kitchen. Nanako is no longer here.

Zhuge sat numbly on the floor, his head lowered. He was not happy or disappointed in his heart, but felt a void. He tried hard to recall the scene when he slapped Nanako's palm away...the scene when he left her sight.

Zhuge looked at this, looked at that, looked at the door, looked at it, suddenly stretched out his hand to wipe his face, and then continued to look at this, looked at that, looked at the door, his dull expression suddenly twitched

Got up.

His shoulders were shaking slightly, and for some reason, he felt as if Nanako was about to disappear from his life.

Maybe it's better this way... I can no longer show how I looked at Nanako the way I did at the beginning.

Maybe this is better... Nanako must have become sad because of her actions, right?

Looking back, when he ran down the stairs, the call of his name that he heard was clearly anxious, hesitant, and frightened...

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Didi, didi, didi.

Zhuge opened his eyes with a headache and subconsciously turned off the alarm on his phone. His head was dizzy, and his whole body was sore and uncomfortable. It turned out that he slept on the floor like that, and a night passed unknowingly.

.

Zhuge subconsciously looked towards the door, and found that it was still ajar, and felt a little disappointed.

He didn't know what he was expecting.

Maybe, after waking up from the dream, I have to go back to reality again?

After that day, Zhuge never saw Nanako again. As usual, he got up in a hurry in the morning and failed to catch the first bus. He could only rush to the office in time and was the last one.

middle.

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"Zhu Ge! The ink cartridge for the copy is gone. Go to the warehouse to get one!"

I repeat the same work every day and am so busy that I don’t even know what I am doing.

"Zhu Ge, please send this sample to the factory. It can be put into production next month."

He is just an ordinary errand boy in the office, with no dreams, no future, and no friends.

"Let me tell you! I participated in the TV station's "Diamond 120 Seconds" and was shortlisted. I will perform in two days! Remember to watch TV and cheer me up! It's such a popular show. How can you not watch it?! Come on.

Come, I still have tickets for the family and friends group here!"

Listening to that...the man who once deleted his own game was feeling proud, and he just felt like 'Oh, that's it'. There was nothing to be happy about, and nothing to be unhappy about. It wasn't his own anyway.

matter.

Anyway, this kind of thing will not happen to me.

"Zhuge, it's almost time for you to lose weight! If you continue to gain weight, we won't have enough space to sit."

I have always been the target of ridicule. It was like this in the past, and it will probably be like this in the future... Anyway, you are used to it, right?

Anyway, I'm used to it.

"There's no room for sitting here. If you insist on sitting down, are you planning to take advantage of it? Disgusting!"

I could only stand and squeeze in. I don’t know when, I walked out of the subway in a daze and bought some simple ready-to-eat food at a nearby convenience store.

Anyway, I’m alone for dinner, so I can eat whatever I want.

"Zhuge, you're old enough. You should think about your future, right? When you come back, I'll make some arrangements for you. Our family knows its own affairs, and I don't have any requirements. Those who can manage the family and live a good life will be able to make do with it.

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I still receive a call from my hometown once a month and listen to the nagging words that I have memorized long ago.

Next month it will still be like this.

"I am the man who wants to become the King of Aviation!", "This is my... Tao!!", "I will protect this smile!"

Going back to the past, I turned off the lights and turned on the screen. I thought time would go faster this way. I thought the guy with the straw hat was handsome. I thought this life of enduring was really long and smelly, but it still worked.

Waiting unconsciously.

Log in to your account, from cf to lol to ow, from late night to dawn.

"Hey!! Are all my teammates mentally retarded?" He hit his mouse hard and cursed for meeting his pig teammates.

but……

"Damn! Can you beat the mid laner? Where are the others? Did your house explode?" He scolded him very vigorously.

but.

"Fuck you! Report it! Report it!" I will be angry because of this.

But. But.

"Dragon! Devour my enemies!!" When he is excited, he can even shout excitedly.

but.

but.

But why, I don't feel the slightest bit happy.

But...why does time feel longer than before?

Why, it's not daylight yet.

I can’t remember how long it has been since I looked in the mirror... Two days? Three days? Four days?

Day by day.

Day by day, day by day, I long for being able to go out and hear "Be careful on the road."

Day by day, when I longed to come back, I heard "I'm lucky today"

But day by day, I climb the dim stairs and walk into the empty rental house?

Even...now, I don't even want to go back. Once I go back, there is no way to make myself...happy.

Although short-lived.

Although short-lived.

"Although it was short-lived..." Zhuge found that he had completely lost the strength to climb the stairs.
To be continued...