The three green brick and tile houses are a bit old. They are either two-story buildings or bungalows around them. The three old tile houses are a bit eye-catching. More than 20 years ago, the three tile houses in the village were said to be rarer than the current buildings.

However, after my father passed away, the burden of the family fell on my mother's shoulders, and the tiled house was repaired and the people could still live in it.

Two sycamore trees were planted in the yard. Just now, the leaves on the trees were sparsely falling down.

On the wheelchair, Zhang Daoran's cheeks were even thinner, leaving only a layer of skin wrapped around his face, his eyes were dull. In the yard, his mother Hao Guiqin was cooking, and she looked at Zhang Daoran with concern from time to time. On her face full of vicissitudes, she was a little worried and complicated.

In a blink of an eye, three months have expired, and several of Zhang Daoran's fractures have healed. However, his condition is getting worse and worse. Now he can still do some simple movements, and it is difficult to stand up and walk.

After cooking, my mother took the meal and carefully fed Zhang Daoran. Zhang Daoran's heart was shocked, as if she was back when she was childhood, her mother fed herself. Her mother's face was calm, and there was a kind of pity in her eyes. Zhang Daoran knew that her mother must be very uncomfortable, even desperate at this time.

What does it mean to be that unsparing reluctance in my mother's eyes?

Zhang Daoran remained silent. Now Zhang Daoran is like a useless man, a big baby in his twenties and a parasite. He feels guilty and unwilling to do anything in his heart, but he doesn't want to implicate his mother, but he just has his bones healed two days ago and after removing the stitches and removing the plaster, his muscles have atrophy. Zhang Daoran can't even commit suicide.

The two sisters have not come these days. The eldest sister has married a province thousands of miles away. The second sister has just gotten married and the child is only a few months old. Fortunately, the two sisters know that their mother is hard and are not diligent. They will give their mother hundreds of dollars a month to live.

Zhang Daoran’s money for college was saved by his two sisters.

Professor Liao came once two days ago and comforted Zhang Daoran and left a few words. His most proud disciple fell into this situation. Before leaving, Professor Liao left, his gloomy eyes were unconcealed.

......

Winter goes and spring comes, time flies, and nearly two years passes in a blink of an eye. Three months ago, when his mother passed away, Zhang Daoran realized that his mother had diabetes and a numb heart. She felt difficulty breathing for the first time and was almost exploding.

Zhang Daoran was not in human form at this time, only skin and bones were left. He was unable to move and could not take care of himself, so his second sister simply took Zhang Daoran to her home for convenience.

"Xiao Ran, do you want to go outside?"

Help Zhang Daoran take a shower and massage his whole body. The second brother-in-law who has never despised him before can understand Zhang Daoran's eyes or subtle movements. Zhang Daoran's muscles were atrophy, facial paralysis, and language function was affected. He has never said a word in the past two years.

Zhang Daoran kept looking out the window, his eyes never left, and his second brother-in-law instantly understood Zhang Daoran's thoughts.

"Spring is here, and it's time to go outside to see the spring scenery. Xiaoran, I'll take you there..."

My second brother-in-law is a rural teacher, kind-hearted and upright. This is what Zhang Daoran feels most at ease. After he leaves, his sister can be happy. The eldest sister is different. Life is full of misfortunes. Her husband often drinks heavily and beats people. Zhang Daoran is full of sympathy for his elder sister and is the least at ease.

Zhang Daoran is not very tall, but he also has a certain intimidation. In the past, when his elder sister was wronged, she would call Zhang Daoran, and Zhang Daoran would go to chat with her elder brother-in-law. Now, perhaps the person who can support her elder sister has become a useless person, and her elder brother-in-law is even more unscrupulous.

The house my second sister bought in a small town, and it only took a dozen minutes to go to the fields. It was said that it was a field, and it was surrounded by villages. To the north of the town, the surrounding villages were surrounded by hundreds of acres of fields. There was a small forest on the east side of the field, which was not large, but it was a place for the elderly to enjoy the cool air in summer.

"The grass on the Liliyuan withered and flourished every year. The wildfire cannot be burned, and the spring breeze grows again. Xiaoran, the grass has a tough will, and it takes root and sprouts every spring and never gives up. As wise creatures, as humans, we should understand this truth. Although people cannot overcome all difficulties, we cannot be depressed, bow to life, and bow to fate." The second brother-in-law looked up at the field and pointed to the flying butterfly: "Like a butterfly, before turning into a cocoon into a butterfly, it is just an ugly silkworm pupa. When it breaks out of the cocoon and becomes a butterfly, it flies into the sky to show its beauty..."

"We cannot ask for fairness in our destiny. And we are arranged by fate. If we want freedom, we need to struggle and break the shackles of destiny. All of this requires a strong heart. It is said that my destiny is by me and not by heaven. Man conquers heaven. I didn't believe it before, but now I believe that Xiaoran, you can do it!"

My second brother-in-law was chattering and kept saying words of encouragement.

Zhang Daoran's empty eyes slowly became a little agile. Looking at the frozen earth, the spring colors were everywhere, and the trees began to grow tender green. A group of ants climbed up the trees and surrounded a bug. Life was threatened, and the green worm twisted its body...

This is a link in the biological chain. Ants are called ants. They can be said to be fragile, but they hunt and survive through the power of unity. The life of the blue worm is threatened and twists its body. It is a struggle for life and a desire for life...

"Dried trees can be seen in spring, and ants live in secret. Life is fighting against disasters, diseases, and injustice. In the end, victory is success, and the true meaning of living."

My second brother-in-law also felt a little touched: "My family was originally poor, I was unwilling to give up. I wanted to make a name for myself. I studied hard, and finally went to college and became a teacher. Not to mention how rich life is, I can live a good life..."

Zhang Daoran heard it and his heart trembled slightly: "I have fought against fate... but unfortunately I failed..."

In my mind, I recalled the fact that I followed Professor Liao to go to archaeology, fell into the tomb pit, and after waking up, I was reborn in the Sanqing Temple. I practiced Taoism smoothly, my realm improved, my magical magic evolved, and I eventually became obsessed with it.

Whether this is a dream or not is no longer important, it is something I have experienced.

"Which old Taoist priest in Wudang Mountain is right? My Tao is my Tao." Once, he subconsciously believed that the existence of the way of heaven is supreme, insurmountable, irresistible, and needs to find balance and obey.

"Cultivate my path...Cultivate my path..."

Zhang Daoran had some insights at this moment, and this trace of insights disappeared in an instant.

"I am just a dying person, and practicing Taoism is too far away for me. Now... I am just waiting for death..."

After experiencing death, there was no feeling that time. At this time, the disease was plagued by illness, life passed through the body every day, and death was approaching every day. Zhang Daoran met the god of death face to face every day, and Zhang Daoran had some insights into life.

"Birth, old age, sickness and death are the laws of life development. If you cannot fight or defeat the arrangement of fate, you can only wait quietly for death!"

Is death scary?

Death is terrible, and everyone wants to live.

However, Zhang Daoran hoped that his death was a kind of relief for himself and a kind of relief for his sister's family.

"The meaning of survival lies in struggle. The meaning of death lies in liberation?"

Zhang Daoran was a little surprised, and a smile appeared in his eyes: "So, life is like this..."

“It’s time to go back…”

I stood here for a long time, and the spring breeze was a little cold. My second brother-in-law smiled and said, "Tomorrow is Sunday, I will bring you again..."

When I returned home, my second brother-in-law had not noticed it, but my second sister trembled and stretched out her hand, leaned under Zhang Daoran's nose, who had her eyes closed, and instantly collapsed on the ground. My second brother-in-law then came to her senses, stretched her head and looked at Zhang Daoran with her eyes closed, and tears fell: "Xiaoran is leaving..."
Chapter completed!