Perhaps it was Li Beifeng's words that woke her up.

She wants to be herself for once!

For Zhao Ying, she has lived under the identity of the eldest princess her whole life.

The eldest princess of Dazhao, who was only favored by the emperor, was inferior to one person and superior to ten thousand people, overwhelming the current prince. In the eyes of everyone, she was undoubtedly the luckiest person in the world.

However, for Zhao Ying, this favor has also become a constraint for her.

"Actually, I don't have any deep feelings for my father!"

Another bowl of strong wine was consumed. The strong wine stimulated Zhao Ying's internal organs. A hot breath slowly rose up, and there seemed to be a faint drunken red breath all over her body.

She looked out the window, her eyes wandering and a little confused.

In my mind, I vaguely recalled some past events.

When Li Beifeng heard her words, he was also slightly stunned.

No deep feelings?

In his mind, when Zhao Ying saw Emperor Zhao who had come back from the dead, Zhao Ying looked surprised and a little happy, but it seemed that she was not as surprised as he imagined?

Logically speaking, Zhao Ying should be particularly excited and excited that her relative, the Emperor, has come back from the dead, but her previous reaction was not like this.

At that time, Li Beifeng didn't take it to heart, just thinking that she was cold-tempered and not good at expressing emotions. Now when he heard her say that again, Li Beifeng felt something was wrong.

"How do you say this?"

"My mother died when I was very young!"

Zhao Ying looked out the window at the dark night in the distance, staring at the starry sky, as if muttering to herself: "After the death of my mother, my father's temperament also changed drastically..."

In her mind, the impression of her mother was even blurred. When her mother passed away, she had just remembered it. Now when she looks back, more than ten years have passed.

After her mother passed away, her father's temperament changed drastically, he abandoned the government and neglected her.

She, the eldest princess of Jozhao, seemed to have been forgotten by her father in the Harem of Jozhao.

"The struggle in the harem is more cruel than imagined..."

Recalling some memory, Zhao Ying's eyes were slightly moved, and the emotion on her face also changed.

Li Beifeng, who was listening quietly on the side, felt a little heavy in his heart.

He knew that Zhao Ying's mother died young, but he never knew that she had such a past. Li Beifeng found it hard to believe that a little princess who was only a few years old had her mother die young, her father neglected her, and she lost the care and care of all her relatives.

, how did you survive in the extremely cruel harem?

You must know that the struggles in the harem of past dynasties were actually no easier than the struggles in the court.

As we all know, being a prince in the past dynasties was an extremely dangerous profession. In addition, the princes and princesses in the palace faced survival crises no less than those of the princes.

The forces in the harem are entrenched, complicated and full of intrigues. A princess without any backer to protect her can easily be killed silently on a quiet night!

"It's the master who protects me!"

As if she remembered something, a hint of warmth appeared in Zhao Ying's eyes.

It was the appearance of the master that protected her, a princess who was forgotten in the palace at that time.

The master accepted her as his disciple, taught her martial arts, and frightened those young disciples who had ill intentions towards her... Without the master, she would definitely not be alive today.

"master?"

Li Beifeng frowned slightly. He knew that Zhao Ying had a master, but he had never seen his master appear.

Who is her master?

"Master has been with me for more than ten years, but my father... has almost never appeared in these ten years."

Zhao Ying's beautiful eyes were particularly calm: "It wasn't until a few years ago, when I became famous in Beijing, that my father finally noticed my daughter who had been forgotten in the corner..."

"He handed Qin Tiansi to me and gave me great power, letting everyone in the world know that I am his most favored daughter..."

Zhao Ying still spoke calmly, not knowing what her emotions were. But when she said this, she lowered her eyes slightly: "He handed over Qin Tiansi to me, in addition to asking me to rectify the world and recruit various sects. Another reason is to check and balance Zhao Jing..."

Li Beifeng watched her emotions: "You hate him?"

"Don't hate it!"

Zhao Ying shook her head, her eyes slightly dazed.

hatred?

Not to mention hate!

But how close is it? Not really.

She and her father are more like a cooperative relationship, but on top of the cooperative relationship, a layer of family affection is added.

Zhao Ying seemed to be a little drunk in her eyes, and when she looked back at Li Beifeng, she was a little dazed.

"But he is my father after all. The blood of the Jokhang royal family flows in my body. I still can't watch the Jokhang country be destroyed. This is my father's hard work, and also..."

Zhao Ying was silent for a moment and looked into the distance again: "It's also the master's obsession!"

…

Li Beifeng did not speak and looked at Zhao Ying in front of him quietly.

She's a little drunk!

Or maybe it's just emotional.

Otherwise, it would be absolutely impossible for her to say such things from her heart.

Li Beifeng felt a little heavy in her heart, and felt some unspeakable distress. She indeed carried too many people's hopes, too much responsibilities and pressure.

Everything she did was not for herself.

"Are you happy?"

Li Beifeng suddenly asked.

Zhao Ying seemed stunned for a moment.

happy?

It was a word she had never thought of.

Are you happy?

She savored the word carefully, and after a long time, she shook her head gently: "I don't know."

"But it doesn't matter anymore."

After saying these words from her heart, Zhao Ying looked much more relaxed.

These are words she buried in her heart and have never told anyone. For her, this is a secret and a past she is unwilling to face.

But tonight, perhaps under the stimulation of alcohol, she spoke her true feelings for the first time. After speaking, Zhao Ying felt an unprecedented sense of relaxation and comfort. She let go of the heavy burden in her heart and lost the burden and heaviness of the past. .

"That's fine!"

Seeing her relieved look, Li Beifeng felt relieved.

Perhaps for her, choosing to give up is not necessarily a bad thing.

She let go of her obsessions and became herself, which was far more important than being the eldest princess of Jozhao.

If possible, Li Beifeng would also like to be himself, but...

He had no choice.

"When do you plan to leave?"

Li Beifeng seemed to ask inadvertently.

"Just these two days!"

Zhao Ying's voice became much softer. She didn't have much to keep in mind in Beijing. It might be a good thing to leave here as soon as possible.

"Will you come back?"

For some reason, Li Beifeng felt an unspeakable emotion in his heart when he heard her words of relief.

Are you reluctant to give up?

Zhao Ying slowly turned her head, her indifferent eyes were still bright and dazzling.

"Not sure!"

Her voice revealed confusion and unknown emotions: "If I have the chance, I might come back. But..."

She shook her head slightly and did not continue.

But Li Beifeng had already understood from her eyes...she didn't want to come back.

The capital city no longer has any attraction for her.

"If the Dazhao River is stable and peaceful, there is no need for me to come back!"

Zhao Ying spoke softly.

After giving up Qin Tiansi and her identity, she felt relaxed.

A stable, peaceful and prosperous Dazhao Kingdom would not lack an eldest princess like her, and she would no longer have to travel for the Dazhao Kingdom.

She wants to be herself.
To be continued...