Have you ever complained?

It seems that I have never seriously considered this issue.

Eleven Niang thought for a while and muttered: I have never complained.

Xu Lingyi was quite surprised.

In fact, I haven't thought about this. Eleven Niang's eyes are calm and calm, because I know that complaining can never change my situation. And I have more important things to do than complain.

She has to work hard to practice as a female celebrity and integrate into society as soon as possible. She has to quietly show her importance in front of the eldest lady. She has to find a way to maintain a balance of expenses and ensure the quality of life to avoid being ridiculed by Wu Niang and others. How can she have so much time?

Sad for spring and pitiful for autumn.

This may be why people often say that poor people have no right to grieve.

Xu Lingyi looked at Eleven Niang's face that was as blooming as a gardenia, and suddenly felt a little sad.

She and Shiniang are the sisters closest in age. They were born together in Fujian, grew up in Yuhang, and married in Yanjing. Shiniang would rather bear the charge of unfilial piety than the eldest lady who collapsed on the bed in anger. Is it just because of Shiniang’s natural temperament?

Is it cool?

Xu Lingyi couldn't help but reach out and caress her cheek carefully.

The skin under the fingertips is as delicate as rose petals.

He remembered the night when he went to Miao territory for the first time and was defeated at Jiming Mountain.

The bright moonlight fell coldly on the sapphire blue brocade quilt, shining with a dark luster, pressing down on his body like solidified pool water, heavy and making him feel a little breathless. But he was sent by the emperor to protect him.

When Fan Weigang, who was worried about his safety, asked him, Lord Marquis, are you afraid in a trembling voice, his hands on the quilt were tightly clenched into fists, but his voice was as light as the wind: There are these times of fear,

It’s better to think about what to do tomorrow

It was a brave statement, but it shocked him.

He immediately got up and dressed, and asked Fan Weigang to call all the generals to discuss countermeasures. Only then did all the generals unite as one, and only then did the Miao border war turn around, and only then did today's great military exploits occur.

The answers of the two people were so similar.

Is the Eleven Niang at this time the same as him at that time? It’s not that she’s not afraid, it’s not that she doesn’t regret, it’s not that she doesn’t hesitate, it’s not that she has never thought about turning back, but she knows that she cannot be afraid of regret and hesitate to look back. There are high mountains ahead, retreat,

But it was a deep pool and ravine, and I could only think about nothing and move forward with all my heart.

Nowadays, it has been a long time since he experienced the tragic feeling of rustling wind and cold water.

But what about Eleven Niang, who only got her haircut ceremony in early summer?

Will he be like him at that time, asking himself in the dead of night what he would do if he were his father? What would he do if his second brother encountered such a thing?

Who will she ask?

Xu Lingyi thought of the eldest lady's merciless admonishment when she said goodbye when she returned home on the third day, and Wu Yiniang's evasive eyes made his heart prick like a needle.

Some things that he had deliberately suppressed in his heart came to his mind uncontrollably.

His fingers quickly retracted as if they were burned.

Mo Yan, he stared at her, have you been in poor health since you were a child, or have you been in poor health since you arrived in Yanjing?

Xu Lingyi is a bit strange today.

First, he teased her like an old friend who trusted her very much, asking her not to really make Shi Niang so angry, and then he was inexplicably concerned about whether she had complained about the eldest lady, and then he caressed her face lovingly, and finally

Then he asked about her body with a solemn expression.

Eleven Niang thought that she had been taking medicine these days.

Speaking of which, it has been more than a year since he got married. He is asking about the child, right?

Eleven Niang drooped her eyelids: She was ill once when she was a child. After recovering for more than half a year, she has not been ill since.

What is the disease? Xu Lingyi asked.

Eleven Niang hesitated for a moment and said: Sister Ten and I had an argument. The floor was slippery in the winter, and she accidentally hit her head on the floor pillar next to the corridor.

Xu Lingyi was stunned and speechless for a long time.

The Luo family is a prosperous family in the south of the Yangtze River, not a poor family. The young lady raised in a boudoir had an argument and no one stopped her. Instead, she hit her head on the floor pillar. What were the maids and mothers around her doing? If someone wasn't secretly conniving at it.

, why is this

His lips pressed into a tight line.

The atmosphere suddenly cooled down.

The eleventh mother is ashamed.

What Shiniang did was already shocking enough. Now Xu Lingyi is afraid that his impression of Shiniang will be even worse. If he had known about it, he would not have told him about it.

She smiled and adjusted the atmosphere: Fortunately, there was only a scar less than an inch long, and it was on the head.

But before he finished speaking, Xu Lingyi said: Show me

Eleven Niang was slightly startled.

Xu Lingyi's fingers were already groping on her head.

It turned out that I wanted to look at my scars.

Eleven Niang simply tilted her head and pointed to him openly: Here

Xu Lingyi carefully rubbed the scar. Thinking of the danger at that time, he couldn't help but ask: Were you afraid at that time?

Fear

Of course I'm afraid

When I opened my eyes, I was shocked to realize that I was alone in a different world. I was afraid that I would be seen as a flaw when getting along with others, and I was afraid that I would be seen as an alien if I behave inappropriately in a strange environment.

That feeling will never be forgotten in my life.

Thinking about it now makes my heart feel cold.

Can not remember

If you promised to forget, you should try your best to forget.

It's been too long, and she was young at the time, so she doesn't remember very clearly. When Eleven Niang recalled those happy times, she only remembered that she lay alone in bed for a long time. Every time she turned her face,

I can see the wisteria wrapped around the banana tree outside the window. It has small purple-white flowers, and when the wind blows, a faint fragrance floats in. But when I open the window, small bugs come in again. They can only wait until the sun rises.

When I open the window, the sun shines in, and the halo is round, shining with colorful rays of light, floating in the air, a bit dazzling, but very beautiful. In spring, two swallows flew over and made a nest under the eaves. I watched them.

Four little swallows hatched. When they are hungry, they open their mouths and stretch their necks to cry. Their mouths seem to be bright yellow.

Xu Lingyi listened quietly, with a trace of pity in his eyes that he was not even aware of.

For example, when he was sick, there were always many people around him. He just wanted to get rid of all these people quickly so he could sleep. He didn't pay attention to what kind of flowers were growing outside the window.

If you observe so carefully, you can see how lonely the days are.

He couldn't help but hug Eleven Niang tightly from behind.

Eleven Niang's waist is as slender and flexible as a spring willow.

She is of medium height, but has a slender waist, long legs, and small bones, so she looks particularly graceful and graceful. She also looks taller than her actual stature. Although she looks good-looking, she is not suitable for childbearing.

The thought flashed through Xu Lingyi's heart.

He thought for a moment, then whispered into her ear: When did you come to Chugui?

Eleven Niang was talking, but when she heard the words, she couldn't help but froze, and her face suddenly turned red to the roots of her ears.

Xu Lingyi asked softly again: When

After coming to Yanjing, Eleven Niang was embarrassed.

Yuhang is far away from Yanjing. Mr. Luo and Luo Zhenxing arrived first, and then the eldest wife brought the 18-year-old Wu Niang, the 15-year-old Shi Niang and the Eleven Niang who Chugui had not yet come. In the end, the one who married him was

Eleven Niang.

For someone as smart as Eleven Niang, has she ever thought carefully about the reasons for this?

Xu Lingyi looked at her red lotus-like face, the painful endurance of frowning on her wedding night, the patient comfort of speaking softly under the dim light, the joy and comfort of dancing with Brother Zhun, and the tenderness of telling Brother Ji how to read.

Kindness and calmness when faced with the unreasonable troubles of his aunts were like a revolving lantern, spinning in his mind.

The original decision to marry Eleven Niang was due to Yuan Niang's reason that Eleven Niang was still young, and also because he did not want to have a legitimate son too early. However, he changed his original intention early, and Eleven Niang and Ji were already four months old, but

There is still no movement. Is there any other reason?

As soon as he thought about it, his expression became a little weird.

Eleven Niang felt Xu Lingyi's silence and couldn't help but turn around and look at him with confusion.

Big almond eyes, black and white. They are as clear and transparent as a mountain stream. He can even see his own reflection.

Xu Lingyi avoided Eleven Niang's eyes.

Even if she knew, so what? Being a mother and a husband on one side is the most difficult position in the world. What's more, as she said since she entered the Xu family, because she knew that complaining could not change the situation, she always

She does more and talks less. Because she has more important things than complaining, she has always been tolerant, generous, gentle and kind.

He unconsciously pressed his face against the scar on her head.
To be continued...