She is Feng Shu. Feng Shu who had been resentful. Feng Shu who was ashamed. Feng Shu who wanted to kill someone and wanted to die again. Feng Shu whose soul was broken and his body had already been destroyed. Feng Shu who had already let go but could not return to the original state of innocent heart.

She is different from him.

He still has a beautiful yearning for marriage. He still has a surging passion for love. He has never experienced heartbreak, embarrassment and despair because of her. He also maintains the pure innocence of passion, sincere childlike in his relationship.

"It doesn't feel very good. Your mind goes to a place I can't reach, right?"

Junlin's observation of her was very meticulous, because she was the only opposite sex who continued to observe and guess so carefully that even if he didn't guess correctly every time, he could always quickly grasp her changes when the signs occurred.

“I was wondering what I wanted to do with you. You look much more stubborn than me.

My fate back then was not very good. If you collapse because of me in the future, Shengzhe and the others would not forgive me, right? Even if you don’t blame me, it will be difficult to get close to me again, right?

The Sage is so close to you, which shows that you have really spent a lot of effort to get close to him in the past. There is no doubt that you are a good father, and in the future, two young people will like you like Sage. If we have irreversible conflicts, once something happens, the children in the middle will probably be tortured."

Jun Lin bent his finger and banged at her forehead.

"Do you know you have a very bad habit?"

“I have a lot of bad habits.”

She always knew that she was a person with very obvious shortcomings.

“You always subconsciously think about things badly. Whether or not something really bad happens, you will instinctively think that things are likely to go to extreme negative directions.

Just like now, you don’t know what you think of, and suddenly you feel that our relationship will break down in the future, we will definitely fall apart, and our children will be in a dilemma and heartbroken.”

Junlin took her into his arms, but Feng Shu didn't resist and leaned on his shoulder.

"Think about the good things, in the month we just met, can you imagine that in decades, you and I would sit and chat so calmly? Can you imagine that we would disappear one after another, but even if we were separated for many years, we would still have a second child together? Can you imagine that one day you would make up your mind to live with me and die of old age?

Don’t say you can’t imagine that even if I confirm my feelings for you, I can’t imagine that these good things will happen to me.”

He began to wrap her hair around his fingers again as before, "Let it be careful next time and don't let your hair burn out. It's not difficult to grow, but it always takes time to grow."

"So it's hard for me to imagine what we will become in a hundred and two hundred years. Although the weather is calm now, it's like the sea, it's possible that the waves will surging at any time because of the coming of a storm.

Many of our ideas are different. We may not have touched deeper things yet, so there is no larger-scale confrontation. Now that we have decided to live like an ordinary couple, there will inevitably be no friction in the future.

Of course, we actually have many similarities.

I have a bad temper, you have a bad temper; I am impatient, you are also impatient; I hold grudges, you are also vengeful; I am stubborn, you are even a stubborn donkey, we are too similar in many aspects. It is precisely because there are so many similarities that sometimes looking at you, I feel like seeing myself.

I used to be stupid people, and I don't want to make the same mistake again. Even if that mistake happened to you, I would feel uncomfortable.

Jun Si, do you understand what I am talking about?"

It was because she died once that she had finally come back to life. It was only in the past few years that she had experienced the joy of being a human being again. Before she let go, she was full of resentment, body and mind, boredom, despair, and nothingness...

"Then don't repeat the same mistakes."

He touched her face, but did not go any further.

"Look, I have worked very hard to learn those old-fashioned cultures to understand you. Even if this effort may be a waste of effort, I feel that I have to do my best and learn as long as I can.

You are different from the people I know. I don’t know how to get close to you in a way that you feel suitable. But you can’t do nothing just because you don’t know the method. I can’t stand giving up on you if I don’t work hard.

I know you must have experienced a lot of struggles, including now, there may still be some kind of struggle in my heart that I will never understand. It doesn’t matter, Feng Shu. These are all okay. Some problems do not need to be solved. Let them stay in your heart. If you want to remember him, then remember him. If you don’t want to forget, then don’t forget people and things you don’t want to forget.

I should have had this kind of awareness many years ago. I may, no, never be able to compare with a certain person, or even a group of people. I don’t know which one I can rank in your heart, but I am happy no matter which one I am. Originally, I could not have been one of the people who approached you. Now that I have this opportunity, it is my luck.

I told you before? I should have said that? You are the biggest miracle in my life."

When it comes to the last sentence, it's almost whispering.

"So you see, although we have many similarities, there are also irreconcilable differences in other aspects. I just told you the risks we may face in the future, but you are emphasizing luck. The risks are real, but the luck is erratic. Jun Si, if you don't take the initiative, it will really be bad."

"What are you afraid of? Even if something is bad, we can face it together. Even if there is a situation, I can still live to death. You have come through such difficulties. What reason do I have to give up living when you encounter a so-called desperate situation that is far less difficult than you?"

Feng Shu looked up at him.

Junlin smiled slightly and touched her forehead, "Fengshu, you will never know what your appearance means to me."

“What does it mean?”

If it were the past, she would definitely not ask.

"It means another life, the possibility of regaining happiness, and the realization of dreams."

Feng Shu couldn't laugh or cry.

"I've said too much? Did I bring you such a great excitement?"

"Look, you're really not good at choosing vocabulary. Are you so ignorant of your importance?"

"No, I have no intention of self-deprecating. It's just that if a person regards the existence of another person as happiness, dreams, or even life, the greater the weight it takes, the more likely he will be to suffer a devastating blow because of the other person.

I really don't want you to give your heart like me casually, and finally want to take it all back, but find that there is no way to do anything, and it's too late."

Junlin's smile slightly constrained.

"But you have never regretted loving him until now, right? You still don't want to forget him, nor can you forget him. So what if you can't take it back? People can still have memories, whether it's sweet or bitter, beautiful or bad, they are all the footprints they have walked together.

I will not underestimate your nostalgia for him, but you should not underestimate my obsession with you. The past has passed and will never be able to reappear, but whether it is now or in the future, the person who is by your side is me."

"You are really confused about yourself."

"That was also given by you. Although I was determined to accept me before, I really didn't expect that I could get your promise at around 100 years old. Originally, I thought I might have to fight you to the end. At the earliest, I would have to let you go of your guards and at least three or four hundred years old. If both of us have improved our strength and exceeded our thousand years old, I suspect that you will have to pass the hurdle of five hundred years old before you will seriously consider me."

Feng Shu's eyes twitched.

He actually has this kind of idea?

"I have accepted you as my lifelong spouse now, but I have not accepted you as my partner."

"Don't emphasize the difference between the two. If you don't say it, I know you haven't fallen in love with me yet." Junlin hummed, "You are not only good at hitting yourself, but also good at hitting me.

Do you know that you are really used to self-abuse and are very soft-hearted towards other people. Like a good person, you always try every means to help others. Sometimes it is clearly not your business, and whether others' life or death is their own responsibility, but you always have to interfere and take all your lives and lives."

"How can I do this? I'm not soft-hearted, and you don't know me at all. It's normal for Sister Qi to think of me like this. After all, I don't know my past, but you understand a little bit, and you should know that if I'm really so soft-hearted, I won't live long.

The world is dangerous and never really peaceful. When I walk in the world, I never rely solely on the protection of my master or my luck. The most fundamental thing is strength, and I really use my sword to walk around the world."

"If you are not rude, can you save Brother Chongshu and others? If you just bring Brother Chongshu and Feng Xuan, it would be normal. After all, the interests are related, but no one else needs to pay attention to it.

You are just shameless. What does it have to do with them? You are not that you have enough strength and take huge risks. Once something goes wrong in a certain link, we will bury them. At the risk of the whole family dying together to help others, do you think you are not a good person?"

Feng Shu knew that this matter would never pass.

"Training one is to bring, and taking a group is also to bring. The risks taken are actually the same. And Dajiang and the others are really good. Although I don't like some of the others, there is not much difference in nature.

If I decided not to interfere at the beginning, I would not take any of them, and it would be fine once I left. But later, Sister Qi also came, and I couldn’t leave Brother Chongshu and Fengxuan, and I had to count Fengxuan’s lover Dahe. If Dahe included Dahe, I couldn’t miss Dahe’s brothers. This was a chain reaction.

You really can't blame me for this way of handling it. I also asked Mengmeng, and it also said that it would not bring any of them. If you want to take them, please persuade them to take them away to avoid any trouble.

Fortunately, we were lucky this time and successfully escaped, otherwise I would really feel bad. Saving a life is better than building a seven-level pagoda, but if saving a life becomes a killer, I will become an executioner."

Jun Lin bent his fingers and banged at her forehead a few times.

"It will hurt!"

Feng Shu glared at him.

"The same thing, it's not about relatives or not, what does it have to do with others? Even if someone dies in front of you, as long as it is not your killer, it has nothing to do with you. Why do you feel bad about your life? Why do you have to give up your safety and risk your life to save people?

Are you a relative? Are you a friend? Are you a stakeholder? Most of them have no connection with you and me, nor have they any connection with our family. They can be completely ignored. Why do you have to stand up and be a good person?

It is your master who wants you to do good deeds every day, so you have to take action when you see something beyond your ability? I don’t believe that he is the teacher who pushes students into the fire pit."

Feng Shu thought of Huishan's reaction and subconsciously shrank his neck, feeling the chills on his spine.

If Huishan knew that she was taking such a big risk to save a group of people who were not saved and would not be in danger of life, she would definitely beat her up and then teach her seriously not to meddle in other people's business in the future.

Yes, although Huishan always told her to do good deeds every day, she never asked her to take the risk to save people. He always taught her to always put the safety of her own life first, even if she had to save others in order to save herself, she would rather live the person than others.

"As long as you survive, I will care about them to die."

"Look, did I hit it? Master will definitely teach you a lesson, asking you not to risk your life to be a good person. If he was here today and heard about this, he might immediately confine you to the confinement of you."

"He would beat me up, but he would still be the kind of beating that hurts my bones but doesn't see any wounds on his face. It hurts so much that it hurts like he knocks out his bone marrow."

Feng Shu shuddered, and her description made Jun Lin feel a little chilled.

"So fierce?"

"Well, it's so fierce. Because I'm afraid I have a bad memory, I hope I will remember things that I will beat me up as long as I don't learn well. Senior brothers and others are also experienced people, and because they are men, the master thinks they are more capable than girls' homes."

"I might cry too if I hadn't done it."

"You are too old, and the master will not accept you as his disciple."

Once again, Junlin was not in a bad mood this time.

"It's okay, I can be considered half of his apprentice anyway. I am your man, and he is also considered my master."

This is a very quick climb. However, Feng Shu is really hard to refute this time.

She recognized him as her other half, and Huishan, who was like her father, was naturally his master.
Chapter completed!