She didn't know how to say what she thought.

Jiang Yingchu always knew that she liked Gu Xiuzhu very much, and even loved him very much. If she didn't stay with Gu Xiuzhu, she thought she wouldn't have someone else she liked.

But for her, she has never considered the marriage for the time being.

Although she knew it was a natural thing, when Jiang Yingchu was enjoying falling in love, she actually felt that as long as the two of them liked to be together, there was actually not much difference between being a boyfriend and a couple.

If one day I want to separate, my boyfriend and girlfriend will be faster, and the couple will be much more troublesome.

Of course, to put it bluntly, she just has fear of marriage. She doesn't want to be like her parents. She obviously has no feelings, but because she is still entangled with each other for several years, she will separate. The two of them have their own families and careers, leaving their children aside.

If she wants to get married and have children, then she must first make sure that she will never divorce in her life, will not ignore her children, and will not let her childhood lack fatherly and maternal love that should be given to him, as well as various family affection and happiness. She must make sure that she can give him, only then will she consider and do it.

If all these are not possible yet, she would not want to consider this matter at all, let alone do it.

So when Xu Yingru told her now, Chuchu’s first thought was, is it not good to fall in love? Why do you have to get married? You want to fall in love now and don’t want to consider what will happen in the future.

But Xu Yingru's thoughts must be different from her. As a veteran, her marriage is not happy, but she still hopes that her daughter's marriage will be happy. In fact, as Chuchu said, alone will be quite lonely.

She rejected Chuchu's proposal to find a stepfather yesterday because she didn't want to experience the failure of her marriage and didn't want to have another relationship. But Chuchu was different. She didn't have one, she hoped that her daughter could have it.

This is probably the biggest thought of a mother, and I hope that my daughter will be happy, safe and healthy in the future.

...

After hearing Chuchu's answer, Xu Yingru was stunned for a while before staring at her in surprise: "Chuchu."

"Yeah." She lowered her eyes, changed her shoes, went into the room, poured two glasses of water, and handed it to Xu Yingru.

Xu Yingru looked at her: "Are you a little scared of marriage because of your parents?"

Jiang Yingchu had a meal, holding the cup and drinking it in small sips, her eyelashes trembled: "A little."

"It's not just one." Xu Yingru observed her expression and said affirmatively: "We have caused a shadow on you, right?"

Jiang Yingchu didn't say anything and drank water quietly.

Xu Yingru looked at her for a while and sighed softly: "Sorry, we were so furious that we forgot to consider your feelings."

The scene back then is still vivid in my mind. From quarrels to divorce, they didn’t make a good fight when they separated, nor was it a peaceful divorce. They were all young and energetic at that time, and never gave up. They just wanted to make an effort to get a sigh of relief and completely ignored the children.

Jiang Yingchu listened and nodded softly: "It's all over."

But only she knew in her heart that there was no past.

She still remembers the day she was left behind no matter how long it took.

——

It was also a New Year. There were snowflakes in the sky. Xu Yingru insisted on leaving. Jiang's father also signed a divorce agreement. The two took their divorce certificates home. When Xu Yingru packed up his things, Jiang Yingchu kept crying, but it was useless.

No matter how she cried, she insisted on leaving.

Jiang's father couldn't suppress her at all, and he was annoyed by her crying. As soon as he answered the phone, Jiang Yingchu ran out with Xu Yingru, chased her car and ran for a long time, and finally fell into the snow.

In the middle of winter, snowflakes were falling, and she didn't get up for a long time after falling down. That coldness not only made her body cooler her heart.

Her chills were also caused by her problems at that time.

Jiang's father did not come out to find her in time, Xu Yingru did not turn around and hug her. She stayed alone in the middle of the road, one in front and one behind, and she didn't know how to choose. It was not until the cold that the aunt who came back from buying vegetables at home came out to find her and carried the person back. At that time, Jiang Yingchu had a high fever and it took a whole week to recover.

Later, she realized that Xu Yingru thought Jiang's father had come out to find her, but Jiang's father thought Xu Yingru had picked her up. But in fact, they didn't have any.

It was also because of that incident that she had a estrangement from her parents. This estrangement was not gradually eliminated until she grew up. The estrangement was eliminated, but she did not forget what happened.

Jiang Yingchu thought, but felt that her hands and feet became cold. She looked at Xu Yingru and said, "I'm going to sleep."

Xu Yingru rubbed Ru's eyebrows and said softly: "Go."

"Zhuchu."

"Um."

"sorry."

Jiang Yingchu bit her lip and agreed hoarsely: "It's okay, I forgot it."

After watching her go back to the room and close the door, Xu Yingru rubbed her eyebrows with a headache, and her eyes turned red.

They seemed to be too failed. In the past, they only felt that Chuchu didn't value her feelings and was relatively calm. Xu Yingru initially thought it was because of her personality, but she didn't expect that her failed marriage would have such a big impact on her.

Thinking of her serious appearance just now, Xu Yingru felt uncomfortable.

But now, it’s too late to say anything. As a doctor, she knew very well that it was not so easy to forget and let go, and it was even more so because she knew that Xu Yingru was even more sad.

...

After returning to the room, Chuchu brushed her teeth, washed her face, changed her clothes and fell asleep with the quilt rolled up.

But lying in the quilt, she couldn't sleep no matter what. In the dark quilt, she blinked carefully and sobbed quietly. Only when she was alone would she dare to cry because of these things.

I haven't remembered what happened at that time for a long time. Now when I think about it, I feel a little bit back to the past. Jiang Yingchu only feels so sad that she can't say.

She didn't deliberately not consider getting married, but she really couldn't think about it for the time being. She had a loving love after marriage and had always lived a happy and happy life, but that was not hers, nor her parents'.

She was afraid that she would repeat the same mistakes, and even more afraid that she would not be so strong to accept sudden changes.

After crying for a long time, Chuchu sent a message to Gu Xiuzhu and asked his own questions: [Do you want to get married?]

After sending it out, she felt it was inappropriate and withdrew it again.

After thinking for a few seconds, Chuchu thought that Gu Xiuzhu should be still on the plane, so she dared to be so arrogant: [I don’t want to, Gu Xiuzhu, I don’t want to get married. Do you think I’m weird?]

After continuing to withdraw, she posted several messages in a row, she felt that she felt much more comfortable and was not so uncomfortable.

Then she seriously asked Gu Xiuzhu about her itinerary, and then she went to watch the video. After about half an hour, she received Gu Xiuzhu's message: [I was late for a while and just got off the plane. Why did she withdraw so many messages? What did she send?]

Chuchu replied with a smile: [I said I miss you, but you didn’t reply in time, so I withdrew it.]

Gu Xiuzhu: [Well, I will definitely reply to our family in time next time.]

Chuchu laughed: [It's okay, you go back quickly, I'm going to sleep.]

Gu Xiuzhu: [Okay, have a good rest, get up and call me.]

Chuchu:【Yes.】

At this moment, she couldn't resist her sleepiness and fell asleep.

——

Gu Xiuzhu lowered her eyes and looked at the news on her phone. She was silent for a long time before she put away the phone.

After arriving at his grandfather's house, Gu's mother quickly came out and looked at the back of him on tiptoe: "Tsk, didn't you bring your girlfriend back?"

Gu Xiuzhu was amused and crying, "She is also going to celebrate the New Year at home, so how can I bring it here?"

Gu's mother looked at him disgustedly, "It's just that she is not charming enough. She is so old that she won't take her girlfriend home to see her."

Upon hearing this, Gu Xiuzhu quickly admitted his mistake: "Okay, okay, it's my fault. I will definitely bring it back to you next time."

"That's about the same." Gu's mother smiled and said, "Go in quickly. Your grandfather has come to you and keeps asking you why you haven't come yet. My mother, I'm a lie for you."

Gu Xiuzhu smiled: "No matter what, no matter how much you lie, my dad will cooperate with you."

Gu’s mother looked at him: “Don’t think that you can get through your grandfather’s level by coaxing me like this. Go in quickly, are you hungry?”

“Not hungry.”

"Okay, let's talk to your grandfather for a while, and then go to bed upstairs."

"good."

Gu Xiuzhu's grandfather has always been very good to him and attaches great importance to him. However, since he wanted to do business, he disagrees with him a little, but he has no choice. Gu Xiuzhu has had his own ideas since he was a child. After he made up his mind not to go into politics and did not want to do what Gu's father did, he basically decided.

But when he chose a major, everyone still had the last bit of expectations. Until recently, his company gradually started, everyone suddenly realized that there was no hope. Gu Xiuzhu only knew how to do business. He was interested in doing business. Although others can do well, interests and hobbies are still more important.

When Gu Xiuzhu entered, his relatives teased him.

"Azhu, we thought you were not here."

"How could it be?" Gu Xiuzhu smiled gently: "Where is grandpa?"

"I've been looking for you for a long time upstairs."

Gu Xiuzhu nodded: "Then I'll go see him."

"Go and go."

When Gu Xiuzhu went up, Grandpa was chatting with Gu’s father. He knocked on the door and went in after receiving a response.

"Grandpa."

"Here you come."

Gu Xiuzhu nodded and looked at Gu’s father: “Dad.”

Father Gu looked back and said, "Who came alone?"

Gu Xiuzhu: "...what did my mother say?"

His first reaction was what Gu's mother said to Gu's father... Otherwise, what would he look at behind him???

Father Gu smiled and said, "I didn't say anything. I'll go down and you can chat with your grandfather."
To be continued...