Tang Wan knew she was about to die.

Although everyone is concealing it in every way.

The imperial physician asked her to rest, and the empress dowager asked her to rest. Her son told her that she was actually overworked for half of her life, and now she is old this year and is in a bad mood.

But Tang Wan thought, she had been at peace for half her life, and what hard work had she done?

It’s just that everyone hides it from her, so Tang Wan thinks it’s rare to be confused.

She pretended not to see the embarrassment on the face of the imperial physician, the sadness on the queen and the queen, and also pretended not to see the tears shed on her back. She still had a soft and quiet smile on her face, pretended not to feel the weakness of her body, and lived her peaceful life on time.

Chenqi watched his son go to the palace to study and practice martial arts. At noon, he went outside to bask in the sun and waited for his son to come back.

Such quiet years made her unable to help but think of her first half of her life.

If the second half of her life was a stable and relaxed life, then the first half of her life without marriage was full of caution, restraint and fear, and the pain and humiliation of being let down.

Tang Wan leaned against the soft collapse and didn't care about her demeanor crouching into a ball when she was basking in the sun in the yard, thinking that maybe she was going to die, so she thought of the unhappiness of the first half of her life.

The hurts in her memory seemed to be blurred, but she seemed to be able to think of the midsummer of that year.

In the hot summer, she was in the laughter of the public, her heart was as cold as ice.

The fiancé, who had been engaged to her for five years, came to the Tang family and broke the engagement in person. Then he begged to look at him with a helpless look. He felt that the sky was broken and the earth was broken, begging her to let him go and ask him to have a lover with her cousin.

The handsome young man's begging eyes and desperate expression seemed to be still in front of him.

Thinking of what happened at that time, Tang Wan couldn't help but put the thin blanket on her body, thinking about how frightened and helpless she was at that time.

Everyone stood on the side of her cousin, as if she would not retreat from the marriage, and if she had fulfilled them, she would have committed a great rebellion and deserved death.

Even in her panic tears, no one felt how pitiful she was to be withdrawn from the bride. The five years of hard work she had put for him were also worth mentioning. They shed tears, nodded hard under the pressure of her grandmother and aunt to agree to withdraw from the bride, and all turned to flatter her shy cousin, wishing her to finally marry into the royal family.

Her fiancé, the boy who had been engaged to her, was the second prince of the dynasty.

Five years ago, when he got engaged with Tang Wan, he was just a concubine of a down-and-out official family. Without his father, only his mother took him to live a difficult life. Therefore, the Tang family looked down on him. When he came to the Tang family with the tokens that the two families had agreed to have a marriage, the Tang family threw Tang Wan, a little pitiful person who was born in a separate room, died early, and no one was in charge, to solve his problem.

Tang Wan thought of the down-and-out young man at that time, and couldn't help but sigh that even if his family had no money, no power or power, and had a strict mother, she seemed to be a life-saving straw for Tang Wan, who had nothing and had never been loved by the Tang family.

She didn't care about his poverty, nor did she care about him being a scholar who had not yet made a name for himself. She just thought that even if he had nothing, as long as he was kind to her, she would be willing to live with him well.

In order to support him in school, she worked so hard at that time. She secretly made needles and threads while avoiding her sisters, and asked her maid to sell it privately for money. She also saved up the monthly monthly silver and secretly asked her maid to take it out for him to study.

He also wrote letters to her with emotion, thanking her for her kindness to him, and then swearing that he would never let her down.

She believed him.

Then when the court made a case of a real and fake prince, when the concubine of the newly-successful lord cried about the old things that happened in the past and was frank about the new king when he was in a downturn, she secretly replaced the emperor's bloodline from the palace. The one who was raised in the palace was just a substitute for the loyal minister to take over the prince. After the truth was revealed, her fiancé transformed into one of the only two princes under the new king, and was in the limelight for a while.

At that time, Tang Wan was really happy for him, and felt that he had ended his hardships and had to return everything that belonged to him.

But the first thing the fiancé who became the second prince did when she turned around was to ask her to break the engagement.

In public, he asked her to break the engagement.

This time, he forgot everything.

Forgot his promise when he was poor and humble, and forgot his so-called touching, but he told her that he had long liked her cousin, but at that time he was inferior and knew that he was not worthy of her as the cousin of the marquis's legitimate daughter, so he settled for the second best.

Leave it second best.

Tang Wan was basking in the warm sunshine and felt her body become lighter. She also thought of the second prince's desperate appearance at that time, and she felt that she wanted to smile.

When he was poor and humble, he felt that he was not worthy of her cousin, but he felt that he could be worthy of her.

Thinking of this, Tang Wan couldn't help but smile and sigh.

The pains and hardships of the first half of life, the helplessness of the future, and the desperate situation. Now, it seems like something happened in the previous life.

"Mother." Just as she closed her eyes and basked in the sun, a careful call came from beside her. As soon as she opened her eyes, she saw a nervous boy sitting next to her soft collapse.

He stared at Tang Wan tightly, as if he was afraid that she would be out of breath in her sleep.

When Tang Wan opened her eyes and looked at him with a weak and loving look, he showed a sense of relief. Her face was full of gentleness. She held a bowl and said softly to Tang Wan, "Mother, it's time to take medicine. The imperial physician said that you have always had insomnia recently, so you have to drink more medicine to calm the mind."

He had a gentle voice and a careful manner. Tang Wan just nodded obediently after hearing this, raised her hand and patted the back of his hand gently.

On her wrist, a string of green jade beads that were very delicately rubbed shaking crystal light in the sun.

"Why did you come back so early today?"

The boy's eyes fell on the string of Buddhist beads for a long time, and then he smiled lightly and said, "The eldest princess is divorced today. Marquis of Nan'an is in a hurry to propose marriage, so he let me back early."

He fed Tang Wan a bite of the medicine. Tang Wan couldn't help but bent her eyes and smiled, "Let me go back and ask someone to prepare a gift for the eldest princess, congratulations on her finally getting divorced."

I have never heard of Heli in this world that it is a festive thing. The handsome young man couldn't help but smile a little more on his handsome face. Seeing that Tang Wan drank all the medicine without blinking, she whispered, "Mother is in such a good mood today."

"Yes. I thought of some things from the past." Tang Wan couldn't help but say to her son with more interest, "I don't know why. Now I always think of the past and the way I looked when I married into the royal palace."

There was a little softness in her eyebrows and eyes, and she shrank into a small ball on the soft collapse, looking a little more innocent and joyful.

However, a little sadness arose in the boy's eyes.

He turned his head and tried hard to hold back his tears, then turned his head and said with a smile, "But my son always thought of when his mother took her son's hand back to the palace." His smile was a little nostalgic, and his eyes looked at Tang Wan were full of gratitude and admiration. He obviously looked much more calm and solemn than Tang Wan, and he called Tang Wan more like a childish little girl, but he was still full of attachment and respect for Tang Wan.

Tang Wan looked at the childish boy in front of her, and raised her hand to touch his cheek.

"I remember, too." She said softly.

She is actually an incompetent person and can only rely on others to live.

The child came to her side but didn't really enjoy her happiness. Instead, he was always worried about her.

When his son was young, Tang Wan relied on the Empress Dowager and the Empress to live.

When her son grew up, she began to live with her son.

But he took on the burden of her, but never said anything, and gradually became young and mature.

"Mother's Mother..." The young man moved his mouth and lowered his head and said, "Marquis of Nan'an said...Marquis of Guangling rejected another marriage. Lord Guangling treats you... He has been waiting for Mother's Mother for so many years..."

"What did Marquis Nan'an say?" Tang Wan asked curiously, her son's voice was weak.

"Nothing." The boy smiled and shook his head and said softly.

Just as they were talking, there was a sudden noise and noise coming from outside. Tang Wan frowned slightly, but saw that the young man had already stood up suddenly, with a little anger in his eyes.

"Who is outside?" Tang Wan asked curiously when she saw him angry.

"It's not an important person." However, a man begging and calling out came from outside.

"Wanwan! Wanwan!"

This title called Tang Wan and her eyes became a little dazed.

This title has never been called again in the second half of her life.

The one who called her name like this was just a person in her not very pleasant first half of her life.

"Is the second prince outside?" Tang Wan saw that her son was so angry that she was trembling, but she was not angry.

"He dared to disturb his mother's rest!"

"Send him away." Tang Wan was not touched by the crying calls. She just felt a little cold... In the warm sunlight, she slowly tightened the blanket on her body, feeling that she was a little sleepy again, and said vaguely, "You don't have to care about him. For him... I am only glad that year, I didn't marry him."

She stretched out her hand and smiled at her son. Seeing the handsome young man sitting next to her with a calm face, she smiled and wanted to make him happy, "Don't pay attention to him, what's he? I'm glad he broke the engagement back then, and I'm glad to marry your father that year."

Even if she married the spiritual position of Prince Qingping, and even if she became a widow when she entered the door, she thought that the rest of her life she always seemed to be smiling.

But in the first half of her life when she had the second prince, she was always sad.

The difference is obvious immediately.

She was too lazy to see a stranger who intended to hurt her, but she felt that she was getting more and more sleepy, and she felt that her son's hand was particularly warm in her palm.

She lowered her eyes, and couldn't help but bent her eyes and smiled. She felt something in her heart. Her handsome young face was covered with tears. She slowly knelt beside her son's sob and whispered, "I have never regretted it, and I have always felt very happy."

yes.

She married his spiritual position when she was in a state of turmoil and was blessed by his half-life of relic and always grateful to him.

He saved her.

She turned the Buddhist beads in her hand with difficulty.

"I have been praying for your father for a long time, just to bless your father with peace and well-being if there is a next life." The hand holding the Buddhist beads slowly fell on the soft collapse. Tang Wan was really tired, slowly closed her eyes, but she couldn't help but murmuring to the young man, "You must be filial to the Queen Mother, follow the Nan'an Hou to practice hard in the army, and don't lose your father's reputation."

She has lived a pitiful life, a humble life, a glorious life, and a prominent life.

But at the end, all the memories of her life were gone, leaving only the last little unwillingness and regret.

Gods and Buddhas all over the sky, if there is a real life, he can live a hundred years and be safe and happy for a lifetime.
Chapter completed!