14 Depression
Ye Zi sat on the bed, and the room was pitch black. The rabbit was cleaning the scene outside, making gazi gazi and bang dong from time to time. Ye Zi didn't know what he did, and in fact, he was not interested.
There was a new email in the email address. I received the message from an old woman last night. It was as detailed as Jiang Wei's that time. Ye Zi sometimes clicked on the screen and sometimes turned it off, it was clear and dark.
Finally, he threw his phone aside, bent over, and his fingers penetrated deep into his hair.
Oh my God, what exactly happened.
what happened.
How great it would be if everything were just a dream.
Now, what should I do?
what to do?
I don't know how long it took, but the knock on the door rang out. Then, the door was opened, and the dizzy light leaked in and gradually expanded.
The rabbit, who had no blood on his body, walked towards Ye Zi step by step. His hair was still wet, and the water droplets fell down the hair and fell on the ground, drop after drop, with the fragrant fragrance of shampoo.
He asked worriedly: "A Zi, are you okay?"
Ye Zi still lowered her head, rubbed her hair with her fingers, and her voice was hoarse: "It's over."
“What’s over?”
"Everything is over, I'll be caught."
"Won't……"
Before the rabbit finished speaking, it was interrupted by Ye Zi. Ye Zi's voice gradually rose and his body shivered slightly: "The things in the camera are the exact evidence. She came to my house but did not leave. The doorman could also testify. Maybe, she met an acquaintance on the road, maybe, someone in the vegetable market would remember her, and the neighbors saw her. With the evidence, the police could search, and there would be blood on the ground and on the sofa..."
The rabbit squatted in front of Ye Zi, looked up at him, and whispered: "No. I have investigated that the camera on your apartment has been broken for several months but no one has repaired it. The doorman is new, and while watching the door and playing with his cell phone, he may not remember your girlfriend. She came very early, with few people, and the neighbors may not see her."
"Mobile! Mobile phone! Where is her phone? She sent me a message, and with a phone, you can locate it..." Ye Zi's eyes widened, and her body trembled even harder, "The camera on the street cannot be broken... She may have told her parents and friends about her movements... and... this time, no preparations were done..."
The rabbit grabbed Ye Zi's arms and raised his voice: "Calm down, A Zi! It's not you who killed the person, it's me. Even if I was caught, it was still me who was caught, and it had nothing to do with you."
"How could it have nothing to do with me..."
"You have to believe me!" Tu stared into Ye Zi's eyes and whispered, "No matter what, I won't let you get into trouble. I said, I will protect you. So, believe me, A Zi, you don't have to worry about anything, don't be afraid."
...
The case of Nie Haixia's disappearance caused a lot of controversy at school. Nie Haixia's parents made several fuss at the school gate, after all, their daughter disappeared when there was a class in the school.
Ye Zi continued to take exams at school and pretended to be calm. But in fact, he began to be afraid of the police. When he saw the police, he felt that those people were here to catch him. He had nightmares every night, the same nightmare.
Everything in the dream is pure white, and I can't feel my existence, as if everything has disappeared. Then, a bunch of tall black shadows walked in from the door through the window until they were surrounded by him, chattering and talking about something. Rubbing his eyes and looking carefully, he found that they were all rabbits, big rabbits, little rabbits, smiling rabbits, crying rabbits, and bleeding rabbits.
Ye Zi lost weight at a visible speed. One day, he accidentally looked in the mirror in the school bathroom and found that his skin had become extremely pale, with thick blackness at the moment, his hair was scattered, and his jaw was covered with slight stubble. He looked like a poor terminally ill patient.
Of course, the classmates also noticed his changes, and all believed that he was caused by his girlfriend's disappearance and was too sad. Many people comforted him and told him that his girlfriend would always come back. Adults sometimes suddenly escaped from the real world and went to distant places to relax. They all said that Nie Haixia would come back.
More than ten days later, the police began to investigate in the school. Ye Zi of course became the key investigator and asked him three times in total. A policeman even visited his apartment.
During the third interrogation, Ye Zi really wanted to give up everything that Rabbit taught him, and he wanted to confess everything.
Because he was indeed wrong.
He and the rabbit have already taken the lives of three people.
What's the point of living in depression like this?
However, his phone rang suddenly.
Mother's phone number.
Seeing the police officer opposite nodding, Ye Zi answered the call.
On the other end of the phone, my mother's voice was still so gentle: "A Zi, why haven't you come to my mother for dinner recently? There are also many specialties here, which I specially brought back for you. Will there be classes in the afternoon?"
"No."
"What's wrong? Why is the voice hoarse, have a cold?"
"without……"
"I bought beef, bamboo shoots and kelp bones today. They are all you like to eat. Come back to have a meal? Uncle and I... No, Dad has good news to tell you."
"Um……"
The phone call saved Ye Zi. The truth that was almost coming out of his throat was swallowed by him again.
Finally, he was let go by the police officers, and finally stepped into his mother and uncle's house. He saw the wind chime hanging at the door, smelling the seductive smell. He watched his mother walking towards him with red face, holding slippers for himself, watching his uncle put down the newspaper, nodding at him, and enthusiastically asked about his study status and physical condition. Several times, Ye Zi felt that he was about to cry.
At this moment, he really longed to go back to his childhood.
I caused trouble at school, and when I came back, my father scolded me and slapped me on the butt. As long as I apologize, I can be forgiven. If I want to cry, I can cry unscrupulously. I am the only child in the family and their baby. If I cry, they will be anxious and come to comfort myself. My father will pick up food for me and say, "Forget it, just don't do it again in the future." And my mother will bring her favorite ice bullying after the meal, and will take her out for a walk and talk in the evening...
How great it would be if you were the biological child of your parents.
If it were their own children, they would not be replaced;
If he was a biological child, he would not leave that home with his mother;
If it was a biological child, the mother would not have met that beast, she would not have killed that beast, she would not have killed another irrelevant person, she would not have murderous intentions to anyone, and would not make mistakes again and again...
"What are you thinking?" asked the uncle.
Ye Zi smiled: "No, I think the specialties you brought back are delicious."
"That's ginger candy. Your mother said that you like sweet food, so we bought more. If you go on a trip in the future, you should join us so that you can buy whatever you like."
"Okay, dad."
The man who heard the word "Dad" was surprised for a moment, and then laughed happily.
My mother brought a bunch of fruits over and said, "Why are you losing weight? Your face is not good? The food in the school is not good? Or do you stay up late at night? If the food is not good, you will come to our place to eat in the future. Your father rarely eats at home, so it's not interesting to eat alone."
"Well..." Ye Zi buried his head and took a deep breath.
God knows how hard he tried, so he didn't let tears flow out.
God knows how much he wants to become an unscrupulous child, grab the corner of his mother's clothes and cry.
But no, he is already an adult, he doesn't want them to worry.
After a while, Ye Zi looked up and looked calm. He whispered: "By the way, mom, you said you have good news to tell me, what is it?"
Mom's face turned red: "A Zi, you're almost having a sister."
Ye Zi was surprised: "Is it pregnant? How long has it been?"
"It's been four months!"
"That's great...congratulations."
Ye Zi was happy for her mother. Finally, her new family was complete, she had a new husband, and she would have a new daughter. How great. At the same time, he was a little sad for no reason.
He, the adopted child, was finally replaced by his own child again.
What else does he do?
Sure enough, no one will choose him, right?
The moment this dark emotion surged, Ye Zi forced them to disperse.
It's really selfish, myself.
This is very good. Very good.
In the future, even if he is really caught and shot, someone will take care of his mother.
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Ye Zi felt strongly that he needed to relax.
Ignoring the news on his phone, one weekend, he got on a bus, took the terminal, and went to his favorite place when he was a child. Helplessly, the place that once was a forest was now destroyed. Most of the mountains were dug by excavators, and the garbage filled the foot of the mountain. The farmland was bustling, like fish with most scales pulled out, slumping on the ground pitifully.
Ye Zi walked along the mountain road, with brown soil next to him, and occasionally saw a few peach trees. Pedestrians surrounded him and took photos, happily ripped off the branches, posed in charming positions in front of the camera, and threw the flowers on the side of the road at will.
Obviously, in my memory, it is full of trees.
Tall elm, laurel, acacia, and alantern tree. He likes to climb up the trunk and dig bird's nests; he likes to pull out the bamboo cores, and the nanny at home says to use the boiled water to clear the heat; he likes to collect cicada shells and catch all kinds of creatures, crickets, butterflies, scarabs, and snails. There will be many wild strawberries and mulberries along the way. After eating them, their mouths will turn purple, which looks very scary...
Finally, Ye Zi came to a place that had not been destroyed.
It's really beautiful, just like when I was a kid.
There are unknown flowers blooming on large areas of lawns, red, orange and golden. Beside the pond, purple wild flowers bloom on the slender grasses that are high and knee-high, with a wonderful fragrance. Tall trees, emerald green and soft shrubs, and large stones reflect their figures in the pond. As long as you look carefully, you can find dense green aquatic plants growing in the pond, and tiny swimming fish are bubbled.
Ye Zi sat on the lawn, the thin grass around her was floating in the wind, and it was cool when she put her hands on it.
He couldn't help but lay down and covered his eyes with the back of his hands.
After adapting for a while, he narrowed his eyes slightly and looked at the sky.
The sky is indigo blue, and the clouds are like creating patterns on blue painting paper. As soon as the water-filled brush fell, the white pigment spreads on the painting paper, blooming one milky white flower after another. Gently blow the water droplets on the canvas, and fibrous marks appear, like silk threads formed by pulling cotton.
The breeze blew, and hundreds of leaves were shaking, making rustling sounds.
Ye Zi sighed and said softly: "Come out, aren't you tired of standing there all the time?"
The rabbit, who had been standing secretly beside the big tree, walked out in surprise, squatting beside Ye Zi, a little embarrassed, thinking hard about what to say so that Ye Zi would not be unhappy and could comfort the other party.
Ye Zi turned sideways slightly, said only one sentence, and then closed his eyes: "Don't talk."
The rabbit quickly swallowed all the things he wanted to say into his throat. He stared at Ye Zi's side face in the breeze, with slightly messy black hair and cute-shaped auricles. He would never get tired of this look no matter how many times he looked at it.
Sleep with confidence, A Zi.
It doesn't matter whether you sleep until dusk, until night, or until tomorrow.
I will always be here to stay with you.
——Tobecontinued
Chapter completed!