"I love you."

In her sleep, she murmured softly, her voice full of love... and fatigue.

The sun shines through the curtains, and the faint fragrance of wine that has not yet dissipated is around.

With the faint morning light, I opened my eyes and listened to her light snoring again...

"Uh..." I rubbed my head and let out a moan that everyone who was drunk would make.

It was early morning after arriving at her house, and the first day... I was completely in the wine.

There is no way. I came to her hometown for the first time, and "wine" is something that I can't be left out no matter what.

It should be that sound that disturbed her, and the snoring stopped suddenly. She pulled the quilt in a daze and opened her eyes.

I looked at her...

Beautiful, confident, kind, careful...I am glad that I can marry such a woman. In my more than 20 years of life, this is undoubtedly love.

......

......

"I woke up very early..." she said to me.

"Well... I drank too much and woke up early." I said, picking up a glass of water at the head of the bed and drinking it.

She always prepares a glass of water at the head of the bed... As I said before, she is very attentive.

Suddenly, I felt a little weird!!

"Ahem..." I was so choked by this sudden consciousness that I coughed.

She sat up and patted me on the back.

"Slower......"

She said with some concern.

These two words exploded in my ears like thunder. I turned around and hesitated to pull open the curtains behind me...

A few seconds later, a sparrow flew past the window...

And my body trembled involuntarily!

Immediately... I put on my clothes and rushed out of the room.

She might have been frightened by my inexplicable behavior. She didn't say anything for a moment, just staring blankly on the bed!

I ran to the street in panic and saw the yellow Jetta car driving in front of me, the old lady chasing the bus, and the girl wearing over-the-knee bucket stockings...

My mind seemed to be blown up... No, it was like being bombed by continuous mortars!

No matter how hard I can't believe it, I have to believe this incredible situation.

All of this...is exactly the same as yesterday!

......

......

I live in a small city where I have to search for a long time on the map. I live a life that I don’t like and can’t escape every day. Three years ago, I met her and then fell into the river of love.

I am drinking at this moment. In the north, I always have to drink when I see my wife's family.

This is my 12th time...it may be my 13th time sitting in this position.

In the same environment, they say the same words, and even the wine tastes the same

I've experienced the same thing over and over again

The spicy liquid passed through my throat, and I was drunk again.

She took the cup for me again and drank it for me in a hurry amid the crowd's playfulness.

I know...she never drinks.

But she has drunk this glass of wine for me many times

......

In the room, I looked at her cheeks that were choked

She was like this yesterday...what would she say next?

I forgot...

Because I'm drunk at this time of day

“You look tired”

She stared at me worriedly and said.

"Uh..." I burped and didn't answer. She should have told me this yesterday. It must be like this. Anyway, nothing has changed. At this moment, I don't know why, but I don't have any desire to talk. Anyway, tomorrow, everything will return to the starting point...

She was still looking at me, as if she was still saying something? But I didn't hear... Alcohol confused my gaze, and her face gradually blurred. For a moment, I seemed to feel that there were many things in her eyes.

"You will never understand!"

I shouted drunk, pushing her away,

How I hope that tomorrow will be a new day, or maybe all this is a dream. "If it is a dream, let it end soon..." I prayed, fell on the bed and fell asleep.

......

......

"I love you......"

The same morning light, the same tone,

This is a more cruel declaration to me than death, which means that I will be imprisoned forever in this day!

There is no past, no future, only this endless cycle.

I went out like a ghost, the yellow Jetta car driving in front of me, the old lady chasing the bus, the girl wearing over-knee bucket stockings...

And I am just a lonely traveler. In the long river of time, I will always be alone... forever.

"Why don't you just kill me?" I felt a smile inexplicably, and after a moment of spread, I could no longer suppress it, laughing wildly on the street like a madman.

I smiled and laughed

The hammered the ground with his hand attracted the attention of countless pedestrians. They covered their mouths and looked at me with an idiot expression. "Come on, come on, haha." I could no longer suppress the helplessness and loneliness in my heart, and staggered in my mind again to find a strange street.

I am a lonely traveler.

Since then, my life has been wandering around the city without any matter. I don’t have to worry about my livelihood or worry about tomorrow’s hardship. If that’s the case, I’ll just be a ghost of time. I forgot how long it took, how many scenery I’ve seen, how many strangers I’ve passed by. Day after day, I’ve lost in a maze made of steel and concrete, wandering around, like a third party who has nothing to do with the world, watching the world grow and destroy in a day. I gradually feel that this eternity seems to have become my destination.

No, I can't be trapped like this

I can't stand it anymore

so

I decided to try death

......

———

I'm awake again

"I love you......"

She still said

I was stunned by the silence

Suddenly I thought... how many times has this been she said "love me"?

So I turned my head and looked at her.

And she slowly opened her eyes and looked at me,

This is still the gaze, and it has never changed.

"You seem to be very tired..." she said with some concern.

Suddenly, my heart was suddenly clenched.

"Yes, I'm very tired, the kind of tiredness you can't imagine......"

"The look of your eyes is right." She said with some concern: "Tell me."

"You won't believe it."

"I believe you..." She looked at me seriously

There was no sign of warning at all, and I didn't even notice anything, and a tear fell from my eyes. I wiped my eyes and looked at my palm in surprise.

It turns out that I am so eager to talk about this loneliness with others.

When I touched her concerned eyes, I felt like some emotion broke out in my heart and rushed out in a turbulent manner.
To be continued...