chapter43

In the quiet corridor late at night, Song Ran was lying in Li Zan's arms, and tears made the front of his camouflage uniform soaked.

Li Zan's eyes turned red, she hugged her shoulders, lowered her head and kept saying sorry in her ear. He touched the back of her head and comforted her softly.

Song Ran cried gradually and twitched his nose.

This month after her mother was sick, she kept holding on and was unwilling to act too weak in front of her mother. She refused to secretly wipe her tears even in the middle of the night. Now when she saw Li Zan, she vented all the fear, sadness and helplessness that had been suppressed in her heart for a month, as if she had emptied all her emotions.

After venting, she calmed a lot and her expression was empty.

Li Zan then asked: "How is the situation now?"

Song Ran looked at him with wet eyes, and he was still in a state of panic and could not come back to his senses.

On the side, He Shanran and Yan said, "Because of bacteria infected, they were infected with artificial lungs. When the bacteria were killed, there would be no problem. But when the specific time is still unclear."

Li Zan looked at him, looked inquiring slightly, and nodded politely.

He is obviously a doctor, but as an oncology doctor, he is too young.

Li Zan asked: "You are..."

He Shanran: "Aunt Ran and my mother are friends. I'm working here, so I'll take a look."

Li Zan nodded again: "Thank you."

"It should be." He Shanran looked at Song Ran and smiled, "Then I'll leave first. I'll find me if I have something to do."

Song Ran said: "Thank you. Dr. He."

When He Shanran left, Li Zan looked down at Song Ran, wiped the tears from her face, and then hugged her into her arms and pressed her sideburns tightly.

At night, my uncle came to change shifts and guarded me, asking Song Ran and Li Zan to go home to rest first and come back tomorrow morning.

Li Zan handed Song Ran to his uncle to watch, first visited the attending expert, and then took Song Ran home.

My aunt warmed up the food, but Song Ran couldn't eat anything. Li Zan kept persuading her for a long time before she barely ate a bowl.

Before going to bed at night, Song Ran secretly took antidepressants and sleeping pills in the bathroom of Ran Yuwei's bedroom. During this period, her mood began to lose control again and her insomnia was also severe.

She returned to her room, climbed onto the bed and hugged Li Zan tightly, like a helpless child holding an adult who could give her a sense of security.

Li Zan knew that she hadn't had a good sleep this month, so she patted her back and slowly coaxed her to fall asleep.

But she couldn't sleep, her eyes wide open, and she was just staring blankly.

He then tried to make her chat: "What are you thinking?"

She stayed for a while and said, "I'll have no mother if something happens to her."

Li Zan said: "The result has not yet arrived, don't scare yourself first. Your mother's treatment team is the best, and the targeted drugs used are also the best. It's just that the accidental infection is in the middle of the process, and the chance of recovery is high."

Her eyes raised: "But what if it doesn't pass?"

“The chance is not high.”

"What if?" she stubbornly said.

Li Zan was silent for a moment and said, "Then we can only part."

Song Ran sucked in anger and choked: "I don't want to be separated from her yet."

"I know." He approached, rubbing his lips against her eyes.

"Azan, do you miss your mother?"

"I thought. But I'm used to it." Li Zan said, "My father thought I was young at that time and I didn't remember anything. But actually I remember it.

I remember the morning on the day she passed away, it was autumn. The leaves outside the window were all yellow and the sun was golden. She was very beautiful and laughing. She touched my head and said, 'My Ah Zan is still so young.' At that time, she laughed and she cried. I didn't understand why she cried, so I climbed onto the bed to wipe her tears. Later, she disappeared."

"And what, what's the difference in life after that?"

"It's no different. It's just that when I think about it, my heart hurts. When I get the results and get commended, I'm very sorry. It would be great if she could see it.

Sometimes when I feel it is hard to do it alone, I will be fine if she is here, I can lose my temper or even cry. With her here, I am still a child; without her, I am an adult."

But he has been an adult for twenty years and is used to it.

Song Ran was very sad, but calmed down a little. She buried her head in his arms.

The worst possible is that her heart will always be empty. But she still looks forward to a miracle.

As for the moment, having him accompany her and giving her strength to not face all this alone is the greatest comfort.

That night, the two of them chatted together, and Song Ran's sleeping pills worked, and she finally fell asleep early, but she still had many tired dreams in pieces.

Li Zan, like the past few dozen days, cannot sleep.

Recently, the family began to appear frequently in his dreams again. They were still standing side by side in a white area, their faces were pale, only those pairs of big black hole-like eyes staring at him, and their faces were staring at him without any expression.

When Li Zan woke up in the middle of the night, Song Ran beside him frowned slightly in his sleep. He stroked his fingers between her eyebrows, and suddenly felt full of guilt, but he didn't know how to tell her now.

In the past two months of actual combat, he has not encountered bomb disposal, all of which were assault and blasting tasks; and in the past month of training, he knew very well that the bomb disposal he encountered was fake. His identity as a blaster, not a bomb disposal force. It was just that the blaster task was more dangerous to some extent.

His heart was so irritating that he couldn't sleep. It was not until dawn that he fell asleep in a daze.

The next morning, the phone rings woke the two of them up.

Song Ran touched the phone and found it was his uncle. She looked pale and didn't dare to answer it, so she forced it to Li Zan.

Li Zan's face was also serious, but he quickly answered the phone: "Hey, uncle?"

There was a long list of words on the other side, and Li Zan looked at Song Ran, and her expression was nervous.

"Okay. Let's come right away." Li Zan put down his phone and said quickly, "Your mother is out of danger."

...

The two rushed to the hospital, and the doctor said that the infected bacteria had been completely removed. Although the patient was still weak, he was in danger of life. After he was well recuperated for a period of time and continued targeted treatment, the situation would improve.

The doctor said: "The most difficult time has passed."

My uncle was so excited that he burst into tears. Li Zan comforted him for a long time before he persuaded him to go back and rest and replenish his energy.

Song Ran had to wait in the hospital for her mother to wake up.

Li Zan was with her. Because he was too hasty when he came and didn't bring anything, he went out today and wore Ran Chi's white T-shirt and jeans.

At noon, Ran Yuwei woke up and was inconvenient to visit him. Li Zan and Song Ran just stood outside the ICU ward and watched from a distance. Song Ran also waved to Ran Yuwei.

That night, Song Ran finally had a good night's sleep.

But Li Zan was not very stable. He frequently called before going to bed and kept using his cell phone.

Song Ran said: "Do you should set out to the Eastern Kingdom?"

"Yeah." Li Zan said, "There are four or five days left. Because the situation is special, I'll find the team to take a longer vacation."

"You can go with peace of mind." Song Ran said, "I'm fine."

Li Zan smiled and didn't say anything.

She suddenly asked again: "By the way, tell me your number. If my mother's condition is stable and I want to go to Dongguo, I can still find you."

"……good."

...

After the situation stabilized, Ran Yuwei transferred to the general ward and began to recuperate. Her uncle and his family also left the imperial city.

Song Ran stayed in the hospital all day long.

When people are sick, Ran Yuwei is much weaker than usual, but she is not in good health and has a bad temper and often gets angry. Song Ran is worried that she is a patient and asked her to go.

That day, Ran Yuwei felt that the food from the hospital canteen was unpalatable, so Song Ran went home to cook for her. Only Li Zan was guarding the ward.

Li Zan thought Ran Yuwei was sleeping, so he took the book and opened it to read it.

Halfway through, Ran Yuwei said, "Ran Ran said, do you still want to take the postgraduate entrance examination or something?"

Li Zan looked up and saw Ran Yuwei lying on the hospital bed, looking at him calmly.

"I have this plan, but it should be next year."

Ran Yuwei calculated the time in his heart.

"Auntie." He put down the book and was about to get up, "Do you want to drink water?"

"No need now. You sit down. I'll talk to you for a while."

Li Zan sat down: "Hey. You said."

"What do you like Ranran?" Ran Yu asked softly.

Li Zan was stunned for a moment and said slowly: "I never thought about it. I just like being with her very much."

When she is happy, he will be happy; when she is sad, he will feel pain in his heart. It is uncontrollable.

"There must be some specific reasons."

"She is very good. She is good everywhere."

Ran Yuwei: "I think her problems are too fragile and sensitive, but sometimes she has an inexplicable stubborn temper and is very stubborn."
To be continued...