The moment Yu Fengcheng woke up in the hospital, he judged from the degree of stiffness of his body that he had been in a coma for at least five days.

Memories poured into my brain like a turbulent sea. The scenes that happened on the snow-white Kunlun Mountain seemed to be happening a second ago. Huo Qiao would die at any time. Bai Xinyu's blood was flowing all over the ground, alternating like a nightmare, making him almost unable to breathe.

Is his uncle still alive? He only remembers that when he carried Huo Qiao to the hospital, Huo Qiao was completely shocked due to pulmonary edema. What about Xinyu? How is Xinyu? He recalled Bai Xinyu's last glance, the last glance when the two of them met, and the eyes were filled with despair and pain, which made him know for the first time in his life, what is heartbroken.

He clenched his fists and pounded the bed hard.

The voice caught the nurse's attention. The nurse ran over and said happily: "You are awake."

Yu Fengcheng said in an extremely hoarse voice: "He...they..." His throat was so painful that he could hardly pronounce it.

The nurse knew what he wanted to ask and immediately said, "Don't worry, every comrade-in-arms sent to the hospital is alive. Except for your captain, everyone else is awake and there is no disability or trauma."

Yu Fengcheng took a deep breath, his eyes became sore, and his vision blurred instantly.

All are alive...all are alive...

"Hey, you can't get up yet. Do you know that you almost ran out of your organs? Fortunately, you are young."

At this time, the door of the ward opened and Chen Jing walked in, "Fengcheng, are you awake?"

"Squad leader..."

Chen Jing immediately walked over and pressed his shoulder, and said in an orderly tone: "The situation of the deputy team is very stable and is out of danger of life. Your task now is to rest."

Yu Fengcheng put down a big stone in his heart, and he said hoarsely: "Where is Xinyu...?"

"Xinyu..." Chen Jing looked a little sad, and he said to the nurse: "Comrade, can I say a few words to him alone?"

Yu Fengcheng's face changed, and his hand that should have been weak suddenly clenched Chen Jing's wrist, clenching Chen Jing's wrist bones in pain, "What's wrong with him?" Bai Xinyu's pale face and red eyes appeared in front of him again, and he felt his heart being grabbed.

"Don't be nervous, Xinyu is awake." Chen Jing lowered his eyes and covered the pain in his eyes. "He has a shoulder injury, which will affect shooting even if he recovers. Moreover, his family is here and insists on letting him be discharged from the army. After Xinyu's injury is healed, he will return to Beijing."

Yu Fengcheng took a deep breath, closed his eyes and fell back to the bed. His shoulder was injured... The bullet that he had been hit for him penetrated Bai Xinyu's shoulder and shattered his dream of becoming a sniper. The blood flowing out of his body dyed the blood of Kunlun Mountain, so red and so red.

Yu Fengcheng knew that he would never forget Hong at that time in his life because he left Bai Xinyu who was bleeding, and left Bai Xinyu who was injured for himself and grabbed his hand and did not want to let go. He covered his eyes with his hands, his heart hurt so much that his heart could hardly breathe. The most difficult choice he encountered in his life forced him to make a decision in the blink of an eye. His choice had nothing to do with right or wrong, he only knew that he had injured Bai Xinyu.

Chen Jing sighed: "Fengcheng, actually... I know your relationship with Xinyu."

Yu Fengcheng said "um" in a low voice. In fact, he didn't care that anyone knew, including his uncle.

"I can't comfort you, I just hope that all of you will get better soon."

Yu Fengcheng murmured: "He must hate me."

Chen Jing pursed his lips and was speechless.

Yu Fengcheng turned around and didn't want to talk anymore, so Chen Jing had to leave silently.

After lying in bed for two days, Yu Fengcheng could get out of bed and move around. But he felt as if he had lost his soul, his eyes were empty, and he sat on the bed without moving or talking.

Several comrades came to see him twice, but were scared by his condition.

One day in the middle of the night, Yu Fengcheng couldn't help it and walked out of his ward. He knew where Bai Xinyu's ward was, only twenty or thirty meters away from him, but those few steps were like the muddy deep swamp in the world. Every step he took would take twelve points of strength.

After finally walking outside Bai Xinyu's ward, he leaned against the door, took a deep breath, and tried to look in through the window, but it was pitch black inside, and he could barely see the figure lying on the bed from the dim light of the night light. His heart was beating wildly, and he wanted to just push the door open and see what happened to Bai Xinyu, but he didn't dare. He was afraid to see Bai Xinyu's eyes. He didn't know what kind of emotions would appear in those eyes, anger, resentment, and indifference. This was the first time in his life, he was afraid of a person's attitude towards him, and was so scared that he was panicked.

In the end, he did nothing and returned to the room silently.

Maybe he slept for too long when he was in a coma, or maybe he was repeatedly staged in his mind, and he had been unable to fall asleep normally for several days.

He thought about his little things about Bai Xinyu, from the time they met, until now.

When did it start? His originally playing mentality of Bai Xinyu holding Bai Xinyu has changed beyond his control? Maybe it started from the first time Bai Xinyu pointed at his nose and said he wanted to beat him. Maybe it was the two of them in the big night, holding hands and watching the fireworks all over the sky. Maybe even earlier, Bai Xinyu's position in his mind had exceeded his imagination.

He had once been entangled and hesitated about his feelings for Huo Qiao. Huo Qiao was his idol and his goal. He set himself as a benchmark in his childhood. When he was very young, Huo Qiao established the image of a "real man" in his mind, so he followed Huo Qiao all the way. When he suddenly realized that he was gay, he began to be unable to tell what his admiration and appreciation of Huo Qiao was. At that time, he only knew that no one in the world was more important than his uncle except his parents.

But Bai Xinyu appeared... It was obviously not like this at the beginning. He shouldn't have fallen too deep, brought Bai Xinyu into the Snow Leopard Team, and did not have done several stupid things because of jealousy, but so many things should not have stopped him and Bai Xinyu from getting to where they are today.

He clearly remembered that when Bai Xinyu asked him if he liked Huo Qiao, he felt panic and angry in his heart. The panic was because he couldn't even explain it clearly, and the anger was because... Maybe deep in his heart, he felt that Bai Xinyu misunderstood him.

It was not until he was on Kunlun Mountain that he looked directly at Bai Xinyu's dependent gaze, but forced his hand to open and felt the feeling of his heart bleeding and his body collapse that he was sure that Huo Qiao and Bai Xinyu were completely different. It was at that moment that he realized that he was willing to exchange his life for Bai Xinyu and stood in front of him.

He knew that one day he would have an aunt, and he only hoped that woman was good enough to be worthy of his uncle; but he couldn't imagine that Bai Xinyu was kind to others, and he could really do anything. He never thought about what happened to Huo Qiao, that was his uncle. If he thought deeply, he would feel awkward and even disgusting in morality, but Bai Xinyu...he just wants to hold him tightly now and never let go.

He hoped to return to the day when Bai Xinyu questioned him countless times, and he would tell Bai Xinyu happily: I like you, from beginning to end, only you.

After Huo Qiao woke up, he and Bai Xinyu met the first person behind Kunlun Mountain in Huo Qiao's ward. When Bai Xinyu pushed the door open, he couldn't help but tremble. The two of them met with each other. He saw the frost in Bai Xinyu's eyes without any surprise. Even though he had known this, he seemed to have heard the broken sound from inside his body.

When he was tough and fought for the opportunity to be alone with Bai Xinyu, he actually didn't know what to say. Any words were pale and shaky in front of Bai Xinyu's injured shoulder. Really, what could he say? It was said that only he was still physically strong at that time, and Huo Qiao was about to die? He believed that Bai Xinyu also knew the situation at that time, but... he just left Bai Xinyu, and for any reason, he left Bai Xinyu.

In Bai Xinyu's heart, no matter how many feelings they had before, they all died on Kunlun Mountain, but for him, they became more and more intense.

He watched Bai Xinyu return to Beijing, while he and the others return to Urumqi to continue recuperation.

It is not an exaggeration to say that those days were the darkest time in his life.

The dormitory where he and Bai Xinyu used to live together was now empty and he was left alone. Bai Xinyu walked in a hurry and left a lot of things. He tried to put those things in their former position. In this way, when he dreamed at midnight, he would feel that Bai Xinyu was still sleeping beside him, but the empty position around him would instantly empty his heart.

He repeatedly thought about the little things about the two of them, thinking about Bai Xinyu's smile, crying, angry, and fascinated. He remembered every expression of Bai Xinyu clearly. The man who sometimes showed his pride and sometimes acted coquettishly occupied all his mind, but he didn't even dare to make a phone call easily, just because he was afraid of hearing the voice of rejection.

He knew that Yan Shaozhen was going to be transferred back to Beijing, and he was so jealous that he had toothache.

Bai Xinyu might not be able to see it, but he knew that he knew how unusual Yan Shaozhen looked at Bai Xinyu, which made him angry because he was familiar with the look, which was longing, hoping, and wanting to possess. He knew that he was looking at Bai Xinyu that way.

He could no longer bear this torture, so he mustered up the courage to call Bai Xinyu. He tried to pretend to be calm. Although every word Bai Xinyu said was like a knife stabbed into his heart, he still had to calm down, because if he could not keep this calm, he would instantly throw away his armor and reveal his weakest and ugly side in front of Bai Xinyu. That was not the Yu Fengcheng that Bai Xinyu liked. He would not allow such a person to appear in front of Bai Xinyu.

That night, he made a decision that his whole family could not convince him to make - leaving the Snow Leopard Brigade one year early and returning to Beijing to study for a military academy.

He likes Bai Xinyu and will never let go. He will never want to like Bai Xinyu like others like that in his life, because the man began to eat his heart bit by bit since the day he entered his sight. Until now, this most important organ in his body can no longer tolerate others.
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