Qu Dan's private diary

June 28

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At 12:00 in the middle of the night, I opened this diary again.

I don't know what to say, but I always want to make a summary of everything today.

Everything was very good today, and my colleagues got along well as always. The boy downstairs was sending milk tea as usual, saying that autumn was coming.

But, this is not what I want.

Every midnight, I always think of him unconsciously-

The first time I met you was under the starry night sky.

At that time, I didn’t know who you were or what you were called.

You are just wearing a black cloak, just like the impression you always have given everyone.

Mysterious, and powerful.

But you are so gentle.

In front of the secret door, you reminded us to pay attention to our feet.

You said you can protect me for a while, but you can't protect me for the rest of your life.

In that long dark secret passage, I followed you, thinking that I could just walk on like this for the rest of my life.

On the way, you even joked with me, saying that the blood sacrifice could produce gold clothes.

I rarely believe in others and believe in you in an instant.

If possible, I would like to sacrifice blood for you all my life.

Later, you really need me.

When those arrows were inserted into me, I didn't feel the pain, the blood, and I didn't know that my life was passing quietly.

Some... are only full of joy.

Later, someone in the team recognized you.

At that time, I knew your name for the first time.

Of course, that's not your name either.

But all of them call you that, and I call you that too.

It seems that when I disguise myself with everyone, I can hide the excitement in my heart.

You also assigned me the Legion position, and I know, you are just out of courtesy.

When you say "The Burning Legion", I know that you are joking.

You, even rejection, seem so gentle.

And I deceiving myself wishfully and believed in you.

It seems that I have some close connection with you.

Later, you clicked my name alone.

In my heart, I was both joy and panic.

I was afraid that you would see through my little thoughts, and I was surprised that my shadow finally appeared in your eyes.

Perhaps to you, I am just a passerby in your life.

And to me, you are the star of enlightenment in heaven.

You patiently teach me how to face those vicious bad people and how to face the situation without you alone.

You said you wanted me to read my skills introduction yourself, but no one told you that I am the most powerful thief in our company.

I know my skills, I just want to listen to you to me.

Later, you were afraid that I would be hurt and kept me away from the bad guys.

But, you don’t know, I want to sacrifice you blood again.

Fortunately, the bad guy heard my prayer.

When the dagger stabbed into my body, I saw you running towards me frantically.

finally……

You chased me ~

But I am leaving you.

When my world fell into gray, I could only see you taking revenge on the bad guy for the sake of leaving you.

I am both relieved and unable to bear it.

At the end of that encounter, you said that the future is long, and from then on, I have been waiting happily.

Later, I always inadvertently heard and saw you in other people's mouths and videos.

I know you're doing well.

But……

Do you know that there is someone who has been silently blessing you in secret?

Later, our second encounter came unexpectedly.

I never thought we would meet in that way.

You don't know me, and I didn't know you at first.

Just like the day we first met.

We greeted each other and chatted like strangers.

I sat on your left, like a galaxy across.

If there weren't those strange quadplugs, I thought...

We may miss it again.

Later I often thought that if I could avoid the violent joy, I would probably not have the invasion of sadness.

Of course you don’t know how excited I was when I recognized you.

All waiting has results.

All expectations have a future.

When I knew you were my blind date, I was so happy that I was about to go crazy.

But no one knows.

The lively scene that day would end so quickly, and what kind of love does a slow-warm person like me have?

If everything happens again, I still won't regret it.

Some things are more than to repeat the same mistake than to miss them.

After I got home that day, I posted a message on my Moments.

You should have seen it.

I have never expressed my feelings like that.

You are the first time I have blatant partiality and well-known selfishness.

Unfortunately, you just silently gave a thumbs up and didn't say a word.

The third time I met, I brought you your figure.

I once fantasized like every little girl would imagine that my lover and my hero are the same person.

pity……

My lover's lover's lover is not me.

I feel your alienation-

You hide the distance under politeness.

When your sister made it clear to me, I thought...that's when I left you.

The story always comes in full force, but ends in vain.

The story between us is time to end.

But I know...

You are a disaster in my heart that I will never get around.

Even though we were facing each other, we were only 2.5 cm apart, we still missed it in the end.
To be continued...