Chapter 189 In this life, I, Ye Nanxian, must be you

Chen Mange let go, but there was not much joy for Ye Nanxian. He could feel the resistance in Chen Mange's heart, but for him, she was compromising.

This kind of Shen Mange is very similar to her five years ago. She has no self at all and lives all based on Ye Nanxian's preferences. Ye Nanxian once enjoyed such a time and felt that being loved by a woman like this was a kind of glory. But now he has also fallen in love with her and realized how powerless and sad it is to lose herself for the person she loves.

Ye Nanxian stood in front of the bed without moving, and Chen Mange was a little surprised.

"What's wrong?"

"Don't take care of me, you can do whatever you want. What I want is my wife, a completely complete you, not you who give up on yourself for me. No matter what you want to do, I will be with you."

Ye Nanxian's voice was not loud, even with a hint of depression and hoarseness, but Chen Mange was extremely moved.

She suddenly realized that her efforts five years ago might not be as great as she thought.

At that time, she had been following Ye Nanxian, looking at his back, fantasizing about when Ye Nanxian could stop and look at the humble one, but she never realized that this kind of love was perverted, a kind of humble one to the bone.

If you want someone to fall in love with you, you have to let him see your goodness, rather than completely losing himself for him.

Chen Mange, five years ago, was a puppet doll, without souls and thoughts. Everything he did and thought was for Ye Nanxian to be able to look at her, even a trace of pity.

Once upon a time, she was also a noble pride of heaven. In the whole school and in the department, she was also a member of the class of storms, but since she met Ye Nanxian and fell in love with her, she had completely lost herself.

In the past eight years, looking back now, there seem to be very few fragments that are truly worth remembering.

Instead of actively strengthening herself, improving herself, and trying to make herself worthy of Ye Nanxian and keeping up with Ye Nanxian's footsteps, she has been wasting her time and herself in the name of love.

How can she be worthy of Ye Nanxian like this?

How could she be worthy of standing with him like this? Just rightly said that she is Ye Nanxian’s wife?

Ye Nanxian was born with a golden spoon in his mouth since childhood. What kind of woman do you want? Is it because she loves him that Ye Nanxian should pay for her love?

No!

She has no capital to let Ye Nanxian stay for her!

God has mercy on her. Ye Nanxian is now moved by her. Whether it is guilt or true love, Chen Mange doesn't want to think about these useless things. She only knows that she is now with Ye Nanxian.

No matter how unbearable she used to be, no matter what she had missed, now she has a great chance to start over with Ye Nanxian.

After Chen Mange figured out all this, he suddenly felt how self-contained she had been. If she had figured out these earlier, wouldn’t she and Ye Nanxian be like this today?

She wanted to be grateful for the fire five years ago, at least she did not lose the man Ye Nanxian. She was also grateful to herself. Five years have passed, and her feelings for Ye Nanxian are still as solid as a rock. She was even more grateful for the current disaster, because this made her truly realize how rare Ye Nanxian is, and she is a partner who deserves her sincere heart for the rest of her life and will work with her for the rest of her life.

Chen Mange never understood what he needed as much as he was now.

She wants the man in front of her!

Not only do she want him to be by her side, she also wants his heart, his love, his life!

But she is not asking for it. On the long road of life, no one can give for others for no reason, even if that person is the person she loves the most, so if she wants to compete with her, she must make herself completely strong. This must be tested.

Chen Mange sighed lightly, but his eyes became brighter.

She took her eyes back from Ye Nanxian and looked at the view outside the window. She suddenly felt that the sky outside was blue, the sun was warm, and the scenery was beautiful.

Why did she refuse and reject such beautiful things?

Chen Mange smiled slightly, with a kind of relief and a kind of letting go in his smile.

Ye Nanxian was a little confused and confused.

He hadn't seen Chen Mange smile for a long time. At least since he came back, she has been suppressing herself and living carefully.

Now she smiled.

The whole world seemed to have changed color for her, so colorful.

The dark clouds floating in his heart slowly left.

Ye Nanxian didn't know what Chen Mange had figured out, but the tranquility and relief at this moment made him feel relaxed.

He sat next to Chen Mange and asked in a low voice: "Do you still need a psychologist?"

Chen Mange shook his head and said, "The psychologist can only provide guidance. If I don't want to face it myself, it will not work. Ye Nanxian, thank you."

This sudden thanks made Ye Nanxian a little confused.

"Thank me?"

"Yes, thank you. Thank you for not giving up on me in five years, thank you for falling in love with me. No matter how much guilt there is in this love, I took it seriously at this moment. Let me ask you again, are you really planning to join hands with me for the rest of your life? No matter how difficult the future is, no matter who opposes, you will never leave me?"

Chen Mange looked at Ye Nanxian with his eyes extremely bright.

Ye Nanxian seemed to be looking at the beautiful starry sky, deep and charming.

He pulled Chen Mange's hand and placed it on his chest. His heart was beating like thunder, and he was shocked. His warm body temperature spread along Chen Mange's fingertips, spreading her whole body bit by bit.

Warm and hot, as if they have the whole spring.

This is the feeling of heartbeat, this is the feeling of love.

After eight years, she finally experienced that heart-pounding moment again. The difference is that she was unrequited love eight years ago, and eight years later they were in love.

Ye Nanxian looked at her very seriously and said, "In this life, I, Ye Nanxian, must be you."

"I will give you no room for regret in your decision!"

Chen Mange smiled confidently.

Although she was haggard and thin, at this moment, Ye Nanxian seemed to have seen Shen Mange Song from half a year ago.

Chen Mange's painting skills at that time were extremely good, and he was considered the pride of the entire art department. He still remembered that when he first saw Chen Mange, it was the moment when she won the championship.

She was full of youth and confidence, and at that moment it seemed that the world could change color for her.

That's when he saw him remember the girl named Chen Mange.

By chance, the two of them actually happened to be caught in bed in the hotel. Seeing that it was her, Ye Nanxian didn't really repulse.

That young girl, who is so full of youth, may bring him a little fun, with a cold and indifferent person like him.

At that time, he decided on his marriage so much, and no one said it was useless. He said he was responsible for his behavior, and he slept in public and had to get married. In fact, Ye Nanxian understood more than anyone that his heart was really alive.

But after marriage, Chen Mange seemed to have changed someone else, bent and respected him, and even completely lost his confidence.

Ye Nanxian once thought that he might have recognized the wrong person or gotten married, but what can he do?

Chen Mange loves him so much and does not do anything to be sorry for him. Could it be that he wants to divorce his wife?

So Ye Nanxian no longer paid attention to Chen Mange. Although he knew that she had been giving and losing herself, he just couldn't stand it. But after the fire five years ago, he found that although Chen Mange had lost herself, some feelings still penetrated into his life and into his soul as the passage of time.

Perhaps the departure of the child also made him feel more guilty and self-blame. Now seeing Chen Mange's confident look again, he suddenly felt that his heartbeat half a year ago seemed to have revived here.

In half a year, I took many detours, but at this moment, my hearts hugged each other tightly, and even a look made people feel particularly warm and passionate.

Ye Nanxian hugged Chen Mange in his arms and whispered, "Do you know? The first time you saw you, you thought about the Lord of Heaven. No one can compare with you. Everyone has become a green leaf. I was still thinking that this little girl is really outstanding. But in the next eight years, I have never seen you like that again. I even think that it was my marriage that made you become a lifeless person, and it was me who made you lose all your vitality. Now seeing you like this again, I know, you can defeat yourself, right?"

Chen Mange was surprised and asked quickly: "Isn't it a drink for the first time you saw me?"

"The first time I saw you was on the podium where you won the painting skills."

Ye Nanxian's words surprised Chen Mange for a long time.

It turns out that he had seen her a long time ago.

It turned out that their first acquaintance was so brilliant.

Chen Mange suddenly smiled a little satisfied.

"Fortunately it wasn't at the cocktail party, otherwise I would be embarrassed."

Ye Nanxian hugged her gently and said softly: "If it were the first time that time, no matter if you were sleeping, I wouldn't have married you."

"So what am I doing in these eight years?"

"Everything has passed, we have to be very good tomorrow. Believe me. Our daughter will succeed in the surgery, our son will be found, Ye Rui will grow up happily, and our lives will get better and better."

Ye Nanxian did not avoid Chen Zi'an's disappearance.

When the child is gone, it is not something that can be retrieved without saying that he or she is not seen. They are a husband and wife and need to bear the children's affairs together, even if it is such a thing.

Chen Mange was feeling a little sad.

Chen Zi'an has no news so far, which is not good news for her, but she also knows that the most urgent task is to cure herself first.

If she herself collapsed, how could she continue to walk for the sake of her child and Ye Nanxian?

Chen Mange sighed and said, "Do you really want to know what I have experienced to be so uneasy?"

"If you don't want to say, don't force yourself. Whenever you want to say it, I'm always there. No matter whether you say it or not, you can't change anything. I want to accompany you and guard you, and this heart will never become."
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