Leave of absence + letter of apology
Gentlemen, let’s get down to business first.
I may need a two-day holiday, that is, I will resume updating on October 8th.
The following is an explanation of some recent events, as well as my apology.
Those who are interested can take a look.
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This book has over 1.7 million words, which is not a lot on this platform, but to me it is a lot, so much that I couldn’t even think about it before.
With the support of so many big bosses, I have achieved results that I could not have imagined.
I really didn't live up to the support.
After all, I really have a lot of bad habits, such as super serious procrastination, laziness, like having sex, watching short videos, reading two pieces of chicken soup copy, and getting excited, making promises, and then not being able to do them at all.
I would like to say sorry to the big guys here.
Of course, I have to explain that many bigwigs feel that the results of the 19th grade have risen and become floating, and they no longer take readers seriously.
I really don't have this.
I thought about the reasons for this statement, mainly in terms of updates and attitude.
Let’s talk about attitude first.
For example, not asking for leave during the break, this happened twice.
To be honest, it’s not that I’m in a bad mood. If I write a book with such good results that it’s so high that it’s so high that it’s so low that it’s falling apart, how can I be qualified to be so good?
I just don't dare to send a leave request. I can't explain the reason. I just don't dare to face the big readers. It's just a giant mentality.
I really miss the days when my hands trembled with excitement when I wrote, and I happily copied book reviews, went to the comment area to interact with readers, and wrote a short essay whenever I had nothing to do.
After all, I was just a street fighter. I had never seen any big scenes and had little experience. I did a lot of funny things.
But now, to be honest, I haven't read any book reviews for two months. I even deleted this platform. I don't dare to look at the background data at all. I can't click on it. I can't even open the author's circle.
I rarely participate anymore.
(PS: I don’t mean to blame readers for bad reviews. I’m just like that. Even when I’m at my most frustrated, as soon as I start writing, the only thought left in my mind is that I’m so happy writing it, and won’t the people who read it be happy too?
?! Very silly, but really confident.
But at this time, if someone seriously told me that I was really unhappy, I would immediately feel awkward and start to doubt myself. I didn’t know how to write anymore, so I could only talk about it and imitate the previous writing method, but my mentality was different.
What is written is different after all)
I used to ask my operating officer friend to tactfully convey to me the opinions of recent readers. Later, I couldn’t even accept this tactful way. Every time I saw my friend’s awkward smile that was about to speak, I could just make up my mind.
Come up with a hundred sentences.
From this point on, apart from code words, I was directly out of touch with online writing.
This kind of secluded state of making cars does not allow me to concentrate on the plot. It only makes me more and more afraid and disgusted with this matter.
To put it bluntly, I don’t have the ability to write well, and I don’t have the mentality to withstand pressure.
Sometimes when I get anxious, I start to drink chicken soup like crazy, and then I talk eloquently.
I have too many lofty words, but I can no longer write them. When I need to issue a chapter or a request for leave, I feel really embarrassed. I look for excuses like crazy. If I make too many excuses, I feel even more embarrassed. It is a vicious circle until I can’t say anything anymore. .
That’s it for the attitude issue, I apologize to the bosses and bow.
Next is the question of updates.
For those who write online articles, the number of words is money. Who doesn’t like money? I also want to earn more.
I can't write it.
The reason why I couldn't write it is also very simple. The book was expected to be 700,000 words from the beginning, and I tried to finish it to give myself the satisfaction of finishing the book.
Why is it 700,000 words? Because 300,000 words have been put on the shelves, and 120,000 words have been updated in one month. After three months of full study, it is almost the same number of words. After that, you can use it as you like, and the completion will be considered a success.
As the results improved, I started to make up the settings and conceive of the subsequent plot.
With Daqian, Nanyang, Hongze, Xianting and Human Dynasty, finally completed, the conception of these four major maps.
Well, the person who came up with this idea has never written such a long one, and it was purely based on fantasy.
So it is inevitable that the more you write, the more difficult it becomes.
Some bosses said that if I can’t write it, I’ll finish it. The problem is that as soon as I came out of Nanyang Treasure Land, the thread of Xianting was laid out. I wrote the story of Xuan Qing in the first chapter. Now I haven’t written about Xianting. I don’t think so. I think this is called the end. Isn't this just the eunuch changing the word?
Summarize.
My friend told me not to promise anything at will in the future, such as making up for an update. Don’t brag until the correction is made.
But, but.
I promise once again, no matter whether anyone cares about this matter (this is bragging, I still hope someone cares, otherwise it would be so sad), I will finish writing it.
1.75 million words, this is the closest I've come to finishing it. If I give up halfway, I'll have nightmares when I sleep in the future.
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Who knows, my family, I used to write my essays with high spirits, but now my essays are full of shame.
If you are not capable enough, you still have to accept criticism. How can you escape by being an ostrich?
It's really outrageous. People write books to practice their writing skills, but my writing skills are getting worse and worse, and then I leave it here to practice my mentality.
(The last short essay before the end of this book is from a certain giant baby from Kawenka to Broken Defense)
Chapter completed!