Chapter 89 [It’s forced out!]

I begged God and worship Buddha and Bodhisattva in my heart, but Fang Nan had already gently held my hand and took the cigarette that was burning to a small amount of it from my hand.

She took a half step back, looked up at me, then slowly took a sip of cigarette and then squirted it out slowly.

After the blue smoke, her eyes were hazy and her eyes flashed.

"I'm a woman." Fang Nan finally spoke. Because of the crying, her voice was a little hoarse and a little nasal sound: "And I'm not young anymore. For a woman, being over thirty years old is a very scary thing."

I didn't say anything.

Fang Nan leaned against the wall, hugging his arms, his expression on his face was very weak, and he felt a feeling of distress and care: "Chen Yang... Do you know what it feels like in a woman over thirty years old?"

"...I don't know." I admitted calmly.

"It's very difficult." Fang Nan's little mouth spitted out these three words, and then her eyes fell on the ceiling. She seemed to have a light chuckling, but there was no pleasure in her smile:

"I dress myself up beautifully every day... But only when I uninstall myself every night I know that there is a little crow's feet in the corner of my eyes. Although I use the best for myself... But how many years can a woman like me keep? "

"I am the only one at home... It's like this every day. I'm even scared when it's dark. Sometimes, I try every means to find excuses to go home late. I would rather stay in the company until there is no one left. Because I know that the home is empty, and even if I sit for one night, no one will come to say something to me! At night, I feel cold all over my body! That kind of coldness comes from the bottom of my heart! It comes from my bones! I will try my best to turn on all the floor lamps in the house! Turn on the TV and the audio! Turn on for one night! Every room! Then I sit on the sofa and wait..." She suddenly smiled bitterly, then shook her head and whispered: "I don't even know what I'm waiting for."

"Chen Yang... I am over thirty years old... I have very little youth left to me... Maybe it won't take long... No... It should be said now! Now when I am walking on the road, some little girls will call me aunty! Instead of calling me sister! But sometimes I think about it, I am thirty years old, but I am still alone, no one loves me, no one will accompany me, no one will make me happy, and coax me to sleep... When I woke up from a nightmare, I didn't even have a hug to calm me down! Do you know..." She looked at my eyes, tears flashing in her eyes: "I often sit in my quilt after having nightmares at night... "

I can't say a word at all!

If a woman is willing to show all her weakness and helplessness in front of you... then what else can you say?

"You really look like a person." Fang Nan sighed, and a strange look slipped through his eyes: "I remember what I told you. You look like him... even your personality is very similar. He is as stubborn and strong, unwilling to bow his head, and has a bit of a tough temper. But what occasionally appears in your eyes is a very gentle look... This is also very similar to him."

I still can't speak.

"The first time I saw you, I almost couldn't control my emotions." Fang Nan shook his head: "Do you still remember that afternoon when I asked you to come to my house to help me do those things?"

"…Remember." I nodded.

Fang Nan's eyes showed a hint of shyness and guilt: "That day, I originally thought about it for a night before I decided to bring you back. I... I had a plan... or made a decision that made me feel very ashamed."

"ah?"

Fang Nan took a deep breath, blushing on his face. He said, "I... plan to seduce you."

Buzz!

My mind almost exploded!

She... intends to seduce me?

She intends to...sew...me?

Fang Nan's face was ashamed, her head almost drooped to her chest, and she said in a very delicate voice: "I... am I very shameless? A very shameless woman?"

When she raised her head again, tears fell on the corners of her eyes: "I also feel that I am very mean... I thought about it for a night... I really can't stand it anymore, I can't stand it anymore! I just want to get a warmer embrace, and another person can take care of me carefully by my side and be kind to me... Even if only once, I'm enough! Enough!" She stretched out her hand and gently held my face: "And. You look so much like him... so much like you! I can't help thinking in my heart, even if you can only stay in your arms for a while... for a short while. I was also very satisfied... I'm sorry Chen Yang... I'm sorry, I know my thoughts are dirty and despicable... But I really can't stand it anymore. I don't want to sit until dawn every night after waking up!"

Although there is no mirror, I can feel that my face must be ugly now.

Finally, Fang Nan sighed: "But... after you came that day, I found that I... still couldn't do it." She suddenly hugged me hard and said hissing: "I'm not a lowly woman! I'm not! No!!" Then Fang Nan seemed to lose his strength and fell softly in my arms. I quickly stretched out my arms to hold her, and said softly: "Do you want to sit down?"

"No." Fang Nan said softly in my arms: "Let me... hold me for a while, for a short while, is that OK?"

I sighed and tightened my arms.

Fang Na moaned softly, his head resting on my shoulder, and continued to speak in a low voice. Her voice was very confused, as if he was a dream: "You were here that afternoon, and you did so many things for me... I was watching you from behind, looking, looking... You were you in front of me, and he was, but after changing, my decision in my heart collapsed in detail. Chen Yang... Do you know? Since I lived here... you..." She raised her head: "You are the first man to walk into this house."

"I believe." I nodded immediately.

"Well..." Fang Nan snorted softly: "That afternoon, I drank some wine and was a little dizzy, but I was not drunk... At that time, I thought, forget it. Degenerate was degenerate like this... Anyway, I will never meet anyone who really loves me again in my life, and there will be no one again... Just once, just once..." She suddenly smiled, as if she was mocking: "That afternoon... do you think I was really drunk? I didn't... I actually knew, I was conscious at that time. You held me upstairs, and I was still wondering whether you could bear it or not.

Can't stop... You are indeed the same as those men outside. You are not a good person, just thinking about how to get the woman to bed... I think, forget it, just this time, even if you have more warm memories, you can make me have fewer nightmares in my life alone. In fact, I am still very timid... I dare not take the initiative, so I just handed myself to you. If you want to do anything to me at that time, I will not resist." At the end of the day Fang Nan's voice became cold: "But it is only once! If you did something innocently, I will let you leave the next day."

"And what?" I suddenly asked a very stupid and idiotic question.

Fang Nan suddenly laughed and raised his head.

At such a close distance, Fang Nan's smile is really beautiful and charming. Her eyes are curved, like moon buds, and the corners of her eyes are slightly raised upwards. They are very charming and charming.

"Then... well... you hugged me upstairs, and I was ready. I thought you would hug me into the room... But I didn't expect that you guys would hug me up and get down again. I almost couldn't pretend... At that time, I told myself, you are so strange. Are you suddenly timid again when things come to an end?" She blinked and looked a little confused: "Aren't you men all very impulsive?"

I opened my mouth and had a little sweat on my head: "That... I really didn't think about other evil thoughts that day. I just wanted to carry you up and into the room and let you go and rest. I didn't want to do anything else... the conscience of heaven and earth!"

Fang Nan nodded, his eyes full of gentleness: "I... believe in you!"

"That day... were you really not drunk?" I felt a little bitter in my mouth.

"A little bit." Fang Nan smiled faintly: "Although he retained a little sober, he was really confused..."

"How confused?"

"I'm so confused...I can pluck up the courage to indulge myself in doing that."

I'm speechless...

"Chen Yang... Thank you, fortunately you didn't touch me that day." Fang Nan then curled up all his smile and looked at me seriously: "Because you didn't touch me that day, I have the opportunity to slowly feel the feeling I am now... or torture."

"Well..." I couldn't speak.

"That day, you didn't touch me. But then you went out to buy me medicine, and when you came back, I was really unable to support me, my mind was dizzy, and I wanted to sleep..." Fang Nan blushed and said, "Later, you hugged me and slept on the sofa for an afternoon... I was awake for a while, and I had already drunkenness. I felt a little regretful and wanted to push you away... But I couldn't bear to leave. I haven't slept so peacefully for a long time. You hugged me and helped me not to fall down. I felt very supportive. I was still a little nervous and uneasy, but later I slept very soundly. I told myself, you are a good person... a good man."

I felt a little burning on my face. Actually, I held Fang Nan in my arms all afternoon that day, and I was fighting against heaven and man!

"Later, at night, I was... well, I felt uncomfortable, you took good care of me... I haven't been taken care of like that for a long time." Fang Nan's eyes were filled with emotion: "Do you remember that I got angry with you? For Cang Yu... I felt very sad at that time... I suddenly had a child-like temper that came out of my heart, as if I was afraid... I was afraid that I would be snatched away by someone else just as I liked a toy I liked very much!"

"Do you remember when we came out of the dinner party in the evening and I got angry with you in the car? Actually, I knew in my heart that it was unreasonable for me to lose my temper, and the words I said were also very childish... But I just couldn't help it!" Fang Nan lowered her head with a red face and said, "Actually, girls like this. I just wanted to lose my temper on purpose, deliberately unreasonable... I don't know why, I really wanted to feel the feeling of being coaxed by you... As a result, you really came to coax me with kind words. In fact, it was fun to quarrel with you, especially when I saw you coaxing me in such a gentle tone. I was almost crying at that time..."

I:"……"

Sister! Please, you are my boss! I will take you with you. Can you do it without saying a little soft words to coax you?

Of course, this kind of thing cannot be said now!

"Later, you took me to the night of the night... I haven't been to the very dilapidated roadside shop for a long time!" Fang Nan's eyes were light: "Often people invite me to dinner, they always booked those very high-end restaurants, but you took me to eat those barbecue, but I found it very interesting, and grabbed the meat skewers with my hands. It was very fun." Speaking of this, her tone sanks: "Later, she met those hooligans, and they insulted me, so you stood up and fought with them..." She suddenly stared at me:

"Also, you pulled me behind you and blocked me with your body..."

Fang Nan suddenly hugged me hard: "Chen Yang, do you know that after you were taken away by the police, I ran back crying all the way? I even violated my own vows. I used it to call...their relationship seeking help! I have forgotten how long it took...how long it took me to cry for a man!" She bit her lip and stared at me: "After I met you, I cried much more times than all these years combined!"

"I..." As soon as I spoke, Fang Nan had already reached out to block my mouth and stopped me from talking.

"I do!" Fang Nan said firmly: "I do! All these are voluntary! That night, I would rather you send me home because I just want to stay with you for a while. Just a moment!"

"But……"

"No, but!" Fang Nan's eyes suddenly showed an unprecedented light: "I have no time anymore! I'm not young anymore! Sometimes I wonder if God is pitying me and finally sent you to my side... After you sent me home that night, I stood behind the door for a long time, and I almost couldn't help but rush out to chase you several times..."

I thought to myself: Fortunately, you didn't come out, otherwise you would have seen Wu Gang and I fight...

"I thought about it for a night before making a decision...I decided not to let go this time, I decided to try to catch you!" Fang Nan's eyes suddenly dimmed: "But the next day, I knew that you had an accident... When I felt the hospital... I saw you... my girlfriend..." She showed a miserable smile on her face and said softly: "Do you know? I even had the desire to die at that time...I finally saw a little hope, but you wiped it out in front of me!"

"Yes, I'm sorry."

"Don't say sorry to me." Fang Nan said quietly: "I almost used all my strength and controlled myself and didn't go to the hospital to see you again. Do you know? Every day when I go to Korea, I think of you when I can't sleep at night... I will think of the scene when you protected me behind me that day, and after my foot hurts... I call back every day to give Qian Pan and ask her about your affairs."

The gaze in front of me was a heavy feeling that I could not bear, and a tenderness that I could not resist.

I almost used all my willpower to move my eyes away: "Fang Nan... I don't know what to say, nor do I know how to express my shock... well..."

"I know what you want to say!" Fang Nan gritted his teeth and said, "You want to say you have a girlfriend, and then you want to say it's impossible. No. Then you say sorry to me, right?"

I really want to say "yes". But when facing Fang Nan, the word "is" could not pop out of my mouth.

"Chen Yang..." Her shout seemed to be filled with infinite affection, and I couldn't help but sway in my heart. Fang Nan had already reached out and hooked my neck: "I don't want you to do anything... I won't ask you to do anything... I just ask you to stay by my side... Don't walk out of my sight, so that I can see you all the time, okay?"

“…”

"I really don't want too much... I won't fight with your girlfriend. I don't want to disturb your life... I just want to stay! Just stay!" Fang Nan almost spoke in a pleading tone: "Can you not leave? No matter what request you make, I am willing to promise you! As long as you leave me the last bit of hope, don't take it away completely, okay?"

To be honest, my heart has been completely soft.

How do you say that: Steel is made from a hundred times more soft!

In this situation, such a charming beauty, her expression is spreading to you in your arms... What else can I ask for?

Besides, do I have the heart to hurt such a weak and helpless woman?

"Actually... I'm not a good person." I stammered.

"I know!" Fang Nan suddenly blinked and whispered: "I was drunk on the sofa that day, right here. You thought I was asleep, but you said to me something, "Fortunately I have quit the world, otherwise you will...'... Haha, those words mean that you are still a very good person."

Seeing that I finally stopped talking, Fang Nan suddenly had a strange look in his eyes, his arms that hooked my neck and contracted gently, and his delicate face slowly approached me with infinite shyness... approached...

Finally, my lips tasted a soft fragrance...

That feeling...

...It's sweet...

My brain quickly fell into blank space, and my arms couldn't help but hug her...

I felt my mind was empty, confused, and a little fluttering. I felt like I was head-heavy and light. There was a hint of sweetness, a hint of joy, a hint of joy, and a hint of uneasiness in my heart.

I can't even remember the details of how I got out of Fang Nan's house...

I only remember that after a long kiss that almost even I was about to suffocate, Fang Nan was so soft that she fell into my arms like a pool of spring water, and her eyes were almost dripping with water!

I immediately realized that I had to leave immediately! Otherwise, I would probably not be as good as I thought!
To be continued...