Chapter 245 Respect Li Zhuer's Choice
"You don't need to say more, I understand!" Li Zhu'er interrupted him, "Bai Mo, don't you really understand why there are so many men in the world, why do I choose only you? Do you really think that my feelings for you are very superficial? I, Li Zhu'er, have been so proud of myself. In order to like you, I gave up all my pride. Can't you give up for me once? Why can't you try to understand me, why can't you... Can't you really fall in love with me once? Bai Mo, what is I to you? Why don't you really want to come..."
"I'm sorry, I can't do it." Bai Mo said coldly, "I understand what the princess wants, and I also understand that the princess gave up her pride and self-esteem for me. Perhaps, the princess is sincere to me, but I'm sorry for your feelings, because I really don't have any good feelings for you or love. So, you don't need to say anything to me. If you don't like it, you don't like it. I can't deny that I used to be moved by you, but now, I don't feel moved at all. After calming down, I still find that I only have a little bit of good feelings for Your Princess, and such a good feeling is not as good as..."
"Okay, I understand. The little bit of your favor is also the favor of men and women, right?" Li Zhuer said with a wry smile, "Bai Mo, I know you have a burden in your heart. I know that you don't want to intervene in the royal family. You also understand how much pressure it will be if you marry a royal princess. I understand these things. As you wish, in the future, I will never force you again. Whatever you are willing to do is do. From today on, I, Li Zhuer, will never bother you again."
Li Zhu'er spat out a breath, and her heart broke into countless holes. She was really heartbroken, so heartbroken that she didn't know what to do. She now realized that for Bai Mo, she was actually nothing. Bai Mo had never loved herself seriously and had never understood herself seriously. If he was willing to understand herself, how could Bai Mo not understand how serious she should be in his heart.
But Li Zhu'er didn't care about all this. She didn't care whether Bai Mo liked her. Li Zhu'er's heart was completely broken by being treated like this by Bai Mo today. She understood that if she continued to get entangled, she might get endless heartbreak again and again. What Li Zhu'er wanted was not such an ending. What she wanted was nothing more than Bai Mo loved her sincerely. But... such an ending would probably never be seen in this life.
Love means love, and not love means not love. Li Zhu'er understands more than anyone else, the feeling of being unloved by someone. She once said that as long as it is something she wants, she must get the hands, but now Li Zhu'er understands that sometimes, the things she wants cannot get the hands, because that thing, perhaps from the beginning, is not owned. Perhaps that thing... from the beginning, she doesn't want to get it.
Li Zhu'er raised a shameful smile from the corner of her mouth, and she stood up: "Don't disturb you. Mr. Bai, the past is my wishful thinking. I will tell you a good thing. From today on, I, Li Zhu'er, will not disturb you. I know, Mr. Bai, you will definitely feel that you are free and I will no longer bother you. For you, it should be a good thing worth cheering. You have achieved your wish, and I have decided to give up on you."
Li Zhu'er's tears fell from the corner of her eyes, and she turned her back to Bai Mo. No one could see her tears. Li Zhu'er thought for a while and continued, "Young Master Bai, maybe from the beginning, you felt that my feelings for you were a joke. Maybe, you would feel that my entanglement with you was because of your rejection. Maybe I didn't like you that much. I want to tell you that your thoughts are wrong. I like you. I like you since the first meeting. From then on, my eyes couldn't shift away from you.
I also thought that Mr. Bai might have the same feelings for me one day, and maybe one day you can fall in love with me like me like I love you. At the beginning, I actually didn’t want to confess my thoughts to you, because I didn’t think it was necessary, and I was even prepared to be rejected by you in my heart, but I still confessed because I want to be with you. What a wonderful thing it would be to be with the person I like. I have always felt this way, but... I still failed."
Li Zhu'er wiped away her tears and left the room. Bai Luo was waiting outside the door. Seeing Li Zhu'er come out, Bai Luo hurriedly greeted her: "Zhu'er, what did you say to your brother? Why did it take so long? Brother, are you bullying Zhu'er?"
"Your brother didn't bully me, so don't worry. Who else can bully me in this world?" Li Zhu'er smiled, but her eyes were full of heartbreak and sadness.
Bai Luo moved his lips and wanted to say something, but he couldn't say anything. She could hear it, and there was a lot of helplessness hidden in Li Zhuer's words. Bai Luo thought about it and asked carefully: "You won't talk to your brother..."
"Luoer, can we still be good friends in the future? But from today on, I don't want to hear your brother's name from your mouth. I have nothing to do with your brother. We are good friends, but I and your brother are nothing. If you really treat me as a friend, from today on, I don't want to hear anything about your brother from your mouth. Luoer, are you willing to do it?" Li Zhuer asked seriously. The things between her and Bai Mo naturally cannot affect her relationship with Bai Luo, but Li Zhuer doesn't want to hear the word Bai Mo again. Since she has decided to give up Bai Mo, then she must be prepared to give up Bai Mo.
Bai Luo opened his mouth and wanted to say anything, but couldn't say anything. Li Zhu'er must have made a decision. Whatever he said was unfair to Li Zhu'er. Bai Luo bit his lips and his nose suddenly felt a little sad. Compared to Li Zhu'er, he was lucky, and the person he liked also liked himself.
Li Zhu'er worked hard for so long, but still couldn't get the heart of the person she loved. What a heartache for Li Zhu'er. Bai Luo felt suffocated as long as she thought about it. She naturally respected Li Zhu'er's choice.
Chapter completed!