"After lighting the eternal light, I feel much more at ease." Yunguan wrote down the light sign with her own hand and lit the eternal light. All her piety was just to hope that her deceased relatives could rest in peace, especially her father.

"Just be at ease, but why did you lit three lamps?" Ze Fenglin didn't dare to talk too much in the nun just now, for fear of disturbing the Buddha. Although he did not believe in Buddhism, he did not object to other people's beliefs. Just be honest, loyal and kind. Why do you have to force others to believe in and walk with you?

"I also lit a cup for my grandmother. Although she was always fierce when she was alive, I knew she cared about me very much. She really wanted to have a future, otherwise she wouldn't force me to learn various skills." Yunguan was chatting with Ze Fenglin while walking downhill carefully. She didn't feel so obvious when she went uphill. Only when she went downhill did she feel that the mountain was steep.

"You are just a granddaughter, why bother to force you to have a future? Besides, if you learn various skills, will you definitely have a future? What are the standards for having a future?" Ze Fenglin did not agree with this view. It is better to lead a right path for a person to grow up, so why do you need to forcefully plan the route to become a talent?

"She hopes that Duanmu tribe can marry the royal family, alas~" Yunguan shook her head and sighed.

"Oh, that old man's wish has been fulfilled." Ze Fenglin was not sure whether Yunguan wanted to marry into the royal family or to follow his grandmother's last wish.

"Well, but my mother is particularly opposed to this matter. She was unwilling to teach me various skills back then, but who knew that things would go against my wishes? If there was any knowledge in the spring, would it be sad?" Yunguan sighed a lot.

"Why do you object? Isn't marriage with the royal family a good thing?" Ze Fenglin understood that if his aunt had not been a concubine, his father would not have been valued by the emperor.

"Maybe I think the woman in the harem is too lonely." Yunwan never understood why her mother was disgusted with the royal family. "Or maybe she simply didn't like my grandmother's nagging?"

"I was very naughty when I was a child. My grandmother would often rape me. The old man was like this. He was nagging and scolding, but he was very loving and worried in his heart. Naturally, your mother felt more sorry for you." Ze Fenglin recalled the way his grandmother scolded him when she was a child, and she felt so kind.

"I am very conflicted with my grandmother. If she could be better to my mother, I wouldn't always think of ways to make her angry." Yunguan was very rebellious at that time. Now, thinking about her grandmother is actually very kind to her, but she was too harsh to her mother at that time, so Yunguan was often dissatisfied with her grandmother's words and deeds.

"It's not that your grandmother is not satisfied with your mother, right?" Ze Fenglin guessed.

"Well, it's a bit. My grandmother is also a legitimate daughter from a wealthy family. It's normal for her to look down on her daughter-in-law who has no family background." Yunguan now understands this very well. If Duanmu and Murong were not married, how could she and Youchen live in the Prince Consort's Mansion? They have known so many royal relatives.

"Your grandmother can agree to your parents' marriage and cares for you very much. Even if she is a little dissatisfied, she does it well, and there is no perfect thing." Ze Fenglin heard from the servants that his mother was her grandmother's carefully selected daughter-in-law, but his father didn't like it. Even if he gave birth to him and continued the incense for the Ze Feng clan, his mother could not get his father's love.

"Maybe you are right, but my mother really suffered a lot, especially in the last days. Her body was tortured by illness, but she kept trying to celebrate her birthday with my father. Even before she died, she said sorry to my father, and said she had tried her best."

The darkest time in Yunguan's life was the days before her mother passed away. For her young child, it was not easy to survive confusion and sadness. "But my mother still didn't survive March 3rd, I really regret it."

"Send away my dear, and only regrets will be left." Ze Fenglin comforted him. He didn't even remember to keep mourning for his mother. He often dreamed that he was looking for an empty place in white filial piety clothes. There was no one or anything, and there was endless nothing everywhere.

"I mean the regret that when my mother left, I was not by her side." Yun Wan still expressed her thoughts.

"If you weren't by your side, how could you hear your mother say sorry to your father?" Ze Fenglin was very confused.

"I heard from my mother's maid. I really hate myself for not going back early." Yun Wan's eyes were slightly red.

"You are not going to fetch water, are you? You want to use the river water on March 3 to cure your mother's illness?" Ze Fenglin suddenly realized, "Follow, all holiday rituals are prayers and expectations, a kind of beautiful hope."

"Yes, I was young at that time, and every story and a myth would be taken as true." Yunguan regretted it very much, but people in the incident had difficulty seeing the facts clearly and always liked to numb themselves with hope.

"Come on, count how many fools there are on both sides of the Tianshen River?" Ze Fenglin didn't want to talk about sad topics anymore. At this moment, he only wished Yunguan happy.

"Linzi, you are not afraid of being heard by others. If you get beaten up, I won't be able to help." Yunguan looked at the riverside where the heads were moving, and temporarily disappeared the loneliness and regret in her heart.

"Just don't go up and kick me. If I'm unconscious, remember to take me home." Ze Fenglin joked with Yunguan while looking around, "It's so lively there, let's go and have a look."

A group of gorgeously dressed women were dancing gracefully in the shallow river water with long skirts.

A hundred meters away, a group of men played the piano, played the flute, and played the erhu to accompany him.

The cheerful music and the lively dance are very harmonious and unified. This is the annual song and dance of Shangsi Festival. In order to drive away evil spirits, you can also find your sweetheart.

"Linzi, go and perform some musical instruments." Yunguan urged Ze Fenglin, and she found that several of the women were beautiful.

"I can't do anything. If it were swords, guns, sticks, I could still do it." Ze Fenglin waved his hand firmly.

"You are not worried about your lifelong affairs?" Yunguan frowned. No wonder Shen Yihan was very angry with Ze Fenglin.

"Who is so popular like you, and I have selected the best among the best, and I have found a husband like the third brother." Ze Fenglin retorted.

"Why am I so popular? Linzi actually joked with me." Yunguan glared at Ze Fenglin. She was clearly considering him sincerely.

"I'm a martial artist, I don't even have the chance to accompaniment for Yiren. Could it be that I'm destined to die alone?" Ze Fenglin observed Yunguan's expression with his eyes squinted.

"There are many people who are both civil and military. Who makes you not motivated by yourself? But if you really want to learn, I can teach you." Yunguan said sincerely. As long as you calm down and study your skills, it will never be too late.

On the banks of the Tianshen River, there are bustling prayer altars; when encountering the spring breeze, we will be Cheng Peng day and night.
Chapter completed!