Extra story about the eldest princess and her grandmother

I am the eldest princess of Dongchen Kingdom. I have several brothers in front of me, but I don’t have a sister yet.

I grew up in the favor of my father and my mother. I have been smart since I was a child and was born as a princess with a golden key in my mouth.

My brothers all held me in their hands and felt sorry for me. They didn’t want me to worry about anything since I was little.

However, everything changed when I was eight years old, and my mother-in-law gave birth to another son.

All the mother-in-law's thoughts were on her son. She only had eyes for that son. She doted on him to the heavens and neglected me.

My father still likes me very much because I am very popular with him and because he loves my mother-in-law.

So I prefer my younger brother and me more. As my younger brother grows up, some of my older brothers don’t like me as much as before.

Their relationship became more and more tense, even to the point of tension. My elder brother and younger brothers all wanted to be emperor.

Since then, I have been living in pain. I was everyone's apple, but I haven't been since then.

Although I am the eldest princess, I am not the only princess. There will be one or two princesses born after me every year.

There are more princesses in the palace, the brothers have their own sisters to love, and the father's love has to be spread out.

Especially my mother-in-law, she only sees her son, not me as a daughter.

Fortunately, I am a lucky person. I have a childhood sweetheart. My childhood sweetheart’s cousin is named Cui Ruilu.

He is the son of our royal aunt and the cousin of all of us. He has often come to the palace to play with me since he was a child.

After everyone abandoned me one after another, he still treated me as kindly as before, which made me feel less lost.

When I was thirteen years old, he asked my father to grant marriage to the two of us, and my father readily agreed.

Moreover, my father also promised me that he would give me a princess mansion as long as we get married.

But when my mother-in-law found out about this, she became furious.

No matter what, I must be betrothed to General Chu, who is an important minister of the imperial court.

I have never met him, let alone know him, so I don't want to marry, so my mother and concubine force me.

I wanted to complain to my father, but by that time, my father was already extremely disappointed with my mother and concubine.

He was even more strict with my five-year-old brother. Before he was three years old, my father still doted on him.

My mother-in-law cried, made trouble, and hung herself three times, but my father ignored them, so I didn't dare to complain again.

My mother and concubine pushed me to death, but finally I compromised and agreed to marry General Chu.

I thought my cousin would fight for it, or tell my father or something, but he didn't.

He didn't force me, anyway, the imperial decree hadn't been issued yet, when I nodded and agreed to marry General Chu.

My cousin quickly got married, and I was waiting to be married in the palace, but my mother-in-law wouldn’t let me leave the palace.

My cousin never came to the palace to look for me again. Maybe he came to the palace every day, but he just didn't come to play with me anymore.

The palace struggle was very cruel, and the road to power was bloody.

As a mother-in-law in a power struggle, she disowns her relatives, is ruthless, and has blood on her hands.

For the sake of power, she can attack anyone, including her own flesh and blood, and forcefully dismantle my "happiness".

When I was fifteen years old, I married General Chu on the order of my mother-in-law. Two years ago, my cousin got married and now has a son.

Before I married General Chu, I missed my cousin day and night, and I felt that I loved him even more.

Maybe it's a rebellious heart, or maybe it's the pain of not being able to love him, but anyway, I just "love him" more than before.

After I got married, I no longer loved my cousin. It was not that I fell in love with the general.

It's because I discovered that my cousin is as gentle to his wife as he was to me before.

If what you give me is the same as what you give to others, then I don’t want it.

Love should be unique and cannot be replaced by anyone.

The wind is passing by, and there are some thoughts. It is like a moonlit night on the spring river, or a boat of clear dreams overwhelming the stars.

Although I no longer like my cousin, I have not fallen in love with General Chu either.

After we got married, we treated each other as guests, and the following year, our first son was born.

In the following third year, my second son was born, and my husband guarded Yazhou all year round.

We had very little time to get together, and I was happy and relaxed, taking care of the general's mansion with my two sons.

Sometimes I wonder why I have become a floating cloud in my life, and I can listen to the music of Buddha in the sky.

Reading the eloquent scriptures, you can also overlook the world of mortals. The prosperity of the world can be seen before your eyes, and you can fall in love with the stunning beauty in the world.

It’s not that I don’t lust after the world of mortals, or that my relationship with this world is unresolved, it’s just that my heart is like still water.

More often than not, it is about comprehending the wonderful state of Zen in which the Buddha’s mind is “holding flowers and smiling”.

Feel the detached indifference, tranquility and open-minded ease in all appearances, right and wrong.

So, in the fifth year of our marriage, I took it upon myself to help my husband take his cousin as a concubine.

My husband looked at me in disbelief, and then, without saying anything, he entered their new house.

He proved with his actions that he obeyed my words, but his disappointed eyes stung my heart severely.

My heart, which was calm at first, instantly became rippled, and for the first time, I became angry at my servant.

Later, when his cousin got pregnant, he wanted to be pampered and made things difficult for me on purpose.

My husband said to her coldly: "Do you want to die? How dare you offend the princess?"

His cousin instantly lost her confidence and cried heartbrokenly, but our husband would not coax her.

I helped him find a concubine, and he angrily consummated the marriage with his cousin and made her pregnant with a child.

Before they consummated their marriage, I was also pregnant with their daughter. It was because I was pregnant that I helped him take a concubine.

Ever since my husband took a concubine, I refused him entry into my room, and he had the guts not to come in.

So I threw and beat me again. When he saw me throwing and beating, he never entered his cousin's house again.

He also didn't enter my house, so of course I wouldn't let him in, so he stayed at the border for several years.

All his patience was spent on me. I'm not stupid, so how could I not feel it?

In my relationship, I don't actually want much, just a heart that favors me.

The most beautiful thing about a relationship is, isn't it because it's me, so all his special treatment is only given to me?

As a saying goes, good love is when you identify a person and only want to give all the good things to that person.

My husband did it, but it was a pity that I understood it too late. At that time, I realized that my husband loved me so much.

But there is already a third person between us, even though he has not returned home for many years.

Although my resentment towards him has not dissipated, I am still very patient with my two sons and daughter.

Many years later, when he came back, we didn't hug him, and I didn't give him a good look.

I also got angry with him and threw the dishes and chopsticks loudly while eating.

From time to time, he would say angrily: "You are looking for your cousin, why are you looking for me?"

But he was not angry, and instead grinned: "Are you jealous? You finally regretted it?"

"I just regret it. I didn't know what love was at that time. How did I know it would be like this?"

I yelled at him loudly and cried. That was the first time I cried.

General Chu looked at me with wide eyes. That look meant, "You don't understand love?"

Don’t you love Cui to death?

I exploded instantly, "I'm so young, how do I know what love is? He is my cousin, and he said he would marry me, so I agreed."

My husband hugged me and said, "Okay, you are still young and don't understand love. It's my fault, husband, for not teaching you well."

I:……

This is all OK!

He loved me humbly, but it was a pity that I knew it too late. I didn’t understand until ten years after we got married.

We had a heart-to-heart talk, and to me, he always showed clear love, sincere liking, and blatant preference.

That night, I truly experienced the joy of being a woman, both physically and mentally...

That year, I was twenty-five years old. In the previous ten years, I had given birth to two sons and a daughter.

Regarding giving birth to a son, it is a responsibility for me, and I have no other thoughts or feelings at all.

They were both born five years ago. Five years ago, I helped him take a concubine, and we are no longer together.

And he stayed alone at the border for five years. When we met again, we became true lovers.

Since we had a long chat, he knew that I also fell in love with him, and he happily held our nine-year-old son in circles.
To be continued...