123, the 123rd time is too grinding(1/2)
Chapter 123
Fu Tong felt sick.
He couldn't sleep, nor did he dare to sleep. As soon as he closed his eyes, countless monsters appeared in front of him. They looked at him with hideous faces and sharp laughter. They were entrenched there and looked at him with mocking and ridiculing eyes, saying a lot that made him feel
If you're about to collapse.
There was something Fu Tong didn't actually tell Fu Qianyuan, but he had a dream during the time he had just fallen asleep.
This dream is somewhat similar to the one he dreamed of in the tomb chamber of the Du Mausoleum.
It was like Fu Qianyuan's departure and the wanton ridicule of those monsters, unlike in the dream in the Duling Secret Room, where he watched Fu Qianyuan leave, but he could not catch up with him no matter what.
In this dream, Fu Tong didn't see Fu Qianyuan at all. The person he loved the most disappeared silently in his life, but he didn't even have the chance to keep him.
If you see or not, you can't keep it.
In the end, he was the only one left, curled up alone in the place where I don’t know if I could call it home. At first, I would still look forward to it, and I would cry when I was bullied by those monsters. Later, I looked forward to it.
Slowly buried in despair, his eyes gradually became numb. Finally, he lifted up the knife, drank blood at the tip of the knife, and laughed hysterically in the wreckage everywhere.
Sometimes it doesn’t take too much to turn one person into another, it just needs to be lost.
Lost, wait, hope.
Despair, numbness, madness.
Fu Tong felt all the feelings that the people in the dream had experienced.
That feeling is too heartbreaking, too unbearable, and too real, too much more than the real things I dreamed of in Duling. It made Fu Tong feel that the things he saw are actually not dreams, but bloody hidden under the illusion
The reality.
He was afraid and eager to find a sense of security, but only Fu Qianyuan could give him this feeling.
So Fu Tong wanted to grab Fu Qianyuan, hold on tightly and with all his strength. Only in this way can he find a little warmth from those cold feelings.
Is this right?
He doesn't know.
Occasionally, when he calmed down a little, Fu Tonghui felt that he was too unfamiliar with this, but he could no longer care about that much.
He can't even save himself, so what else can he care about?
...
He had no way out.
Fu Tong grabbed Fu Qianyuan's sleeve tightly, his eyes gradually faded away, and he murmured to himself.
"No, no, I'm not sick, what disease do I have? I just want to be with you. I have to be with you at any time. What disease is this? This is not a disease at all."
"Yes, that's it, that's it."
Fu Tong's finger bones turned white, and his hands holding Fu Qianyuan's sleeves became tighter and tighter, his voice sharp and rapid: "Yes, that's it, it must be like this, only this, you can't leave me, the distance cannot exceed my sight,
I want to see you all the time.”
"This is a very normal idea, it's normal, it's not sick, right?"
He looked up, his eyes wide open, and he looked straight at Fu Qianyuan. A light surged in his empty pupils, filled with expectations, so crazy that he was almost thirsty.
Such eyes fell into Fu Qianyuan's eyes, and the blood seemed to be frozen in an instant. Invisible dark clouds surrounded him from all directions, pressing against Fu Qianyuan's heart, so heavy that he couldn't speak.
Time passed by little by little, and Fu Tong's eyes became more and more crazy in silence.
After a while, Fu Qianyuan lowered his eyes and finally heard his voice sound.
"……right."
He looked at Fu Tong and whispered.
"You are not sick, and it is normal to have those thoughts. I should have been with you, so don't be afraid...it will be fine soon."
"I will be with you and will never leave you, like this."
Fu Qianyuan raised his hand, and the blue light spots radiated from his palms with Fu Qianyuan's voice. After floating around the two of them, they slowly rushed towards Fu Tong's wrists.
The warmth of warmth was wrapped gently on the wrist. Fu Qianyuan lowered his head and saw a blue light belt tied to his left wrist. The other end of the light belt extended outward and finally stopped on Fu Qianyuan's wrist.
A belt of light shining with warmth, like the red line of the Moonlight, tied the two people tightly together.
“…like this.”
Fu Qianyuan's voice followed his previous words and gently sounded: "We are already tied together, we can't live without each other for a lifetime. With it, no matter where I am, as long as you hook this line and pull it back,
I will appear before you.”
Fu Tong's eyes shook: "...really?"
"Really." Fu Qianyuan said, as he said, he took a few steps back, stood in front of the bedroom door and smiled gently at Fu Tong: "Cake it, come."
Fu Tong looked at Fu Qianyuan and then looked at the light in his hand. After hesitating for a long time, he raised his hand to hook the light, tentatively, carefully pulled it in his own direction.
The next second, his eyes darkened. Fu Qianyuan appeared in front of him, standing less than half a meter away from him, raising his hand and giving him a hug with a gentle eyebrow.
The whole person was surrounded by the warm touch. Fu Tong stood there in a daze, and after a while, he also smiled softly: "...It's so good."
After saying that, he seemed to think that he was too vague and was afraid that Fu Qianyuan would not understand it, so he added: "I mean, you are so nice."
Fu Qianyuan's eyes were soft, and he lowered his head and kissed the little cub in his arms: "My cub is so good, how can I do if I'm not good? Do you think so?"
The particularly good little boy was nestled in his arms and responded gently with a nasal voice: "...well."
Fu Qianyuan smiled, carried the baby in his arms back to the bed, and gently pinched his face: "Then, it's getting late. Is this very good kid going to bed now?"
It was almost midnight at this time, and the night outside was dark and there were almost no voices.
Fu Azai used to be a health player, and his head hurts the next day after staying up late, so Fu Qianyuan wanted him to go to bed early. Who knew that it would be fine if he didn't say this. As soon as he said it, he saw Fu Tong's eyes turned red.
"I won't sleep!"
His body was tense, his eyes were frightened, and his posture was very resistant. The words were sharp and harsh, almost roaring.
Seeing his panic and fear in his eyes, Fu Qianyuan's brows frowned slightly, his eyes darkened, but it also flew in a flash, and soon returned to normal. Wen Sheng followed Fu Tong's words:
"Okay, if you don't want to sleep, don't sleep. Does that baby want to do something else? No matter what he does, I will be with you."
"...Is it okay to go and see the stars?" Fu Tong's voice sounded almost the moment he finished speaking, "I want to see the same kind as last time."
"Okay." Fu Qianyuan responded and took Fu Tong's scarf from the clothes hanger next to him. It was also the one he had surrounded by Azai when he was watching the stars last time. It was thickened and enlarged, making the enclosure very warm.
Thinking of the previous incident from this scarf, Fu Tongxin became warm and turned into a white and fluffy cub. He lowered his head and rubbed towards Fu Qianyuan's arms.
Fu Qianyuan hugged the little pomrose, wrapped the scarf for him, and went out together.
It was quiet outside late at night, and the city lights were gone a little by little as the night was dark, and the stars became brighter and brighter.
The world is gentle.
Time will always be like this.
**
After that, time passed little by little, and a week passed quickly.
During this week, Fu Tong and Fu Qianyuan had never left the house. The purchase of ingredients and other supplies was all online. Huhu also temporarily fostered Lu Chuan.
First of all, they don't have time to take care of the little animals now.
Secondly, Fu Tong is emotionally unstable now, and is violent and gloomy in his heart. He is full of hostility towards all creatures close to Fu Qianyuan. If he is injured or even killed in his emotions out of control, when Fu Tong wakes up in the future, he will definitely not be able to bear it.
So it's better to send it out for the time being.
Fu Qianyuan didn't want Fu Tongxin to have a little more haze.
This day is a rare sunny day in Longdu in October. The sky outside the window is steep and cloudless.
At eight o'clock, the two of them were woken up by the alarm clock. Fu Tong opened his eyes in a daze and saw that Fu Qianyuan had already gotten up, wearing the couple's pajamas with his name embroidered in his heart, and was smiling at him.
"Good morning, baby."
"Good morning."
Fu Tong rubbed his eyes and sat up: "What time is it?"
"It's just eight o'clock, it's still early. Do you want to sleep for a while? I'll make breakfast first, and then call you."
Fu Tong thought about it and thought it was feasible, so he nodded obediently: "Okay."
Zaizai is so obedient and looks soft. Fu Qianyuan's heart softened. He couldn't help but rub A Zai's head and asked softly: "What do you want to eat for breakfast?"
"I can do it." Fu Azai was easy to raise. While showing that he was not picky about food, he had not forgotten to say love words to his boyfriend. "I like it as long as it was done by you."
After saying that, he tilted his head with a smile, and the next second he would be a wink.
Fu Qianyuan felt soft again, and he lowered his head and kissed him, his eyes filled with smiles: "Then I'll make breakfast first, baby, you sleep for a while, I'll come soon."
Fu Tong nodded: "Okay."
Fu Qianyuan smiled and turned around and walked towards the door. He suddenly stopped when he was about to leave the bedroom. He turned around and looked at Fu Tong, shaking the blue light in his hand at him: "Baby, I'm here, I won't leave,
If you think of me, just hook the thread on your wrist, and I will appear in front of you in an instant."
To be continued...