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Li'er's words were just said softly, but in my ears, it was not an exaggeration to say that it was a bolt from the blue!
She, what did she say?
She was asking me, is that man, Pei Yuanhao, her father?!
I looked at Li'er lying on me incredible, almost horrified, looking at her eyes that were clearly black and white, so clear that it was painfully clear. At this moment, she was full of hope and looked at me in a daze, without blinking, as if she was eagerly waiting for me to give her an answer.
But at this moment, my mind was like a hurricane passing through, with only a nearly chaotic and unrestrained desolation left, and I couldn't answer anything. A sentence echoed in my mind - how could she know?
How could she know about this?!
I looked at her in disbelief, and said with difficulty for a while: "What did you say?"
"Mom, that person picks me up across the river to Yangzhou every day and plays with me. Actually, he is my father, right?"
This time, she asked more clearly.
It seemed like there was a thunder exploding above my head, and I was a little confused.
I don’t know how long it took, nor what answer I prepared for her, I almost subconsciously said: “How could you know?”
Her eyes flashed, and this sentence almost gave her an answer. I felt her body suddenly tense up and her breathing became rapid.
She said softly: "Mom, I've grown up."
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"I can feel it."
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"That day on the dock, he looked at me like that, and talked to me like that..."
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"He also asked about my dad."
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"Actually, at that time, I thought he was."
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Speaking of this, she sat up with her body, and I staggered and sat up. The two of them sat cross-legged on the bed, and a lamp was lit outside the bed curtain, and the swaying candlelight cast the figures of the two of us on the wall, constantly shaking, as if my and her heart were at this moment.
It's messy.
It's all messy.
I never thought Li'er would discover that although I knew that there was no secret that could be kept forever, and sooner or later she would know her life experience, she never thought that this moment would come so quickly.
What shocked me even more was that during the past two days, she knew that the person might be her biological father, but she didn't ask anyone, and just followed him across the river and didn't even reveal any signs.
How much has she experienced in these two days?
Li'er was still looking at me, and this time he almost said seriously with a certain gaze: "Mom, he is my father, right?"
“…”
I looked at her for a long time and thought for a long time. When I spoke again, my voice became a little hoarse and trembling: "Do you like him?"
She nodded: "I like it."
“Why do you like it?”
"He-he looks so beautiful." Speaking of this, a happy smile appeared on Li'er's face and said, "I always thought that my father was the best man in the world. It turns out that my father and my father are so beautiful."
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"Also, he treats me well, just like my dad. Although, I give me whatever I want, he - he seems to be, even if I don't want it, he will give me all."
Speaking of this, she seemed to think that this was not a good thing, but scratched the back of her head and didn't know how to correct it. I couldn't help but laugh.
Actually, this sentence is really correct.
He is such a person.
Domineering and domineering, even when facing his own women and daughters, Li Er was still in his infancy, so he forced to give her the orchid. Isn’t that the case?
However, I didn't expect that Li'er could feel it so quickly. Not only did she feel the characteristics of this man, but when she first met, she could feel that the person was her father. Even at that time, we didn't say anything at all, and even Pei Yuanhao herself had no intention of telling her the truth.
Could it be that it is really the nature of father and daughter, and there is a silent tacit understanding in the bloodline?
I looked down at my daughter, and for a moment I felt a little awkward, and didn't know what to say.
Li'er also lowered her head, and her long eyelashes covered her clear eyes. Because of the light, the shadow of her eyelashes also hit her smooth face, showing a bit of gloomyness: "And, I think he seems to miss me very much and like me very much."
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"But why didn't he tell me?"
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"Mom, doesn't he want to recognize me?"
This time, I did not let myself in the grief for too long, but did not answer her question immediately. Instead, after thinking for a long time, I said softly: "Lier, it's not that he doesn't want to recognize you, but his identity is extraordinary. He wants to do something that may affect most of the world, and even everyone, everyone's happiness and pain, all of which are based on his words and decisions. Therefore, he cannot do whatever he wants. This is the sense of responsibility that a high-ranking and powerful person should have."
Li'er said in surprise: "My father, is he that powerful?"
I nodded: "He is the emperor."
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"The Lord of all nations."
Li'er seemed to gasp in air and looked at me in shock.
Perhaps, his father was the man who crossed the river to pick her up to Yangzhou every day. Her father was a high-ranking and powerful person. These may be within her acceptance range, but her father was an emperor, which obviously made her a little panicked.
After being silent for a long time, she didn't react anymore.
I reached out and gently put her single soft shoulders on her, and said softly: "Li'er?"
She looked up at me and said, "My father, is the emperor?"
"Yes."
She thought for a while, then said, "But, Mom, haven't you told me that the people are the most important, the country is the second most important, and the king is the least? Why is he the master of all people?"
I said softly: "That sentence is not wrong. The emperor is indeed the master of all people, but the people who give the power to the emperor to take on their own responsibilities. The emperor's responsibility is to give the people the welfare, to give everyone a better and easier life. These welfare is higher than that of him. Therefore, the emperor is the master of all people, but he is also the lightest one in the world."
She asked, "Then is my father an emperor like that?"
I thought about it and said softly: "Maybe it..."
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"Hope he will be."
Li'er was silent for a while, and the shocking expression on her face was clearly visible under such a dark light. She said softly: "No wonder my mother once told me that my father is a very smart person. He has to do his best in everything. It turns out that it is true."
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"My father, he is an emperor."
I gently rubbed her heart.
However, as I stroked her head slowly lowered, and the back of her neck protruded high. In addition, her small body was curled up and sat cross-legged in front of me, like a helpless puppy, so confused and depressed.
I asked, "Li'er, what's wrong?"
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"Tell me, what's wrong with you?"
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She didn't say anything. After a long time of hanging her head, she slowly raised her head and looked at me. The corners of her clear eyes also drooped slightly, with an indescribable aggrievance and helplessness: "I don't know, but, mom, I suddenly feel so sad."
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"I don't know what's going on, but I feel so uncomfortable here."
She covered her heart while saying.
As soon as she said this, I felt a cramp in my heart almost immediately, just like her, and I couldn't even breathe. I hurriedly reached out and hugged her into my arms and hugged her hard.
Her small body leaned against my arms and snuggled tightly against my chest. I could feel her breathing deeply, as if she wanted to draw strength from my arms, as if she wanted to get comfort in my mother's breath.
And maybe that's all I can give her.
As she said, she has grown up, and she can know that the man is her father without us even telling her clearly. She can also feel fatherly love in her own way and everything she has lost in the past two days when everyone thought she had hidden her. Then, no one can share the pain she has to bear anymore, she is the only one who bravely faces it.
But I am still proud of my intelligent and gentle daughter.
She has grown up and matured more than I thought.
I hugged her and gently stroked her back. After a long time, Li'er raised her head from my arms and looked at me, and said softly: "Mom, Daddy also knows that he is my dad, right?"
I nodded.
She said, "But I think my dad doesn't like my dad, my dad doesn't like my dad, nor do I like my dad. "
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To be continued...