It seemed like a heavy burden was removed from his shoulders, and I saw his expression relaxed.

However, I was a little helpless and a little panicked.

He raised his head and looked at me for a long time, but he didn't say anything, and he didn't even argue about my judgment. He just looked at me like this, and his eyes were even as gentle as ever.

After a while, he said softly: "Qingying."

“…”

While calling my name, he reached out and stroked my cheek. However, I wonder if it was because I had been in this room for too long, or the two of them were getting too close, and his palms were covered with cold sweat. When he touched my skin, there was an indescribable sticky feeling that made me tremble slightly.

"When did you start to doubt me and not believe me?"

“…”

"Since you went to sea?"

“…”

"When I married me?"

“…”

"It's the first time you went to Jinling to see me."

I looked at him silently, looked at him for a long time, and slowly, with some difficulty, "When I was in the palace."

His face changed slightly, and he immediately seemed to remember something: "I remembered that it was that time when I dealt with the He Qingzhou family. Since that time, you have begun to be afraid of me, right?"

I looked at him and didn't say anything.

"But this is common. Which prince in the palace has not severely punished the convicted officials? Even Lao Wu, he killed people when he was in Xidatong; Pei Yuanhao made the imperial city blood flow into a river in order to compete for the throne! All of this was something you have seen with your own eyes." As he spoke, his tone became heavier and his tone became higher and higher: "Why, why are you able to accept their cruel methods, but you are afraid of me?"

“…”

"Why, you are guarding against me from beginning to end?"

“…”

"Since you've been on guard against me, why are you telling everything now? Don't you know that you're still by my side and Miaoyan is still here?"

“…”

"Aren't you afraid-"

I looked at the face that was still as pure as an immortal until now. However, perhaps because of emotional fluctuations, the corners of his eyes were slightly red. I leaned against the back of the bedside and sweated slightly, but I still sat in front of him calmly, motionless. Only the hand holding the silver lock was constantly tightening, and the hard lock piece hit the palm of my hand slightly hurt.

At this moment, Pei Yuanxiu suddenly felt something. He suddenly stood up, but before he could react in a hurry, he heard a noise outside.

He turned around, walked out a few steps to open the door, and heard several guards coming in from outside, and when he reached the door, he bent over and bowed: "Young Master."

"What's the matter?"

"Just now - the people at the dock saw that the girl in the inner courtyard took Miss Miaoyan across the river!"

"What?!"

"It's true. They didn't know what happened, and they were worried that it was the wife and the young master's explanation. They were about to go up to ask, but they were beaten back by someone and took Miss Miaoyan and the little girl across the river!"

"Who is it?!"

"It seems that it is a centurion in the camp, the one named Gu Ping."

Suddenly, the sound outside suddenly calmed down.

And the stone in my heart fell completely.

After a while, he heard a creaking sound, and the door was closed. Pei Yuanxiu turned around and walked over. His face was completely pale. When he looked at me, his eyes were even a little red. He walked to the bed and sat down, slowly approaching me, feeling his breathing was hot and long, but it seemed like it was mixed with Mars. When it blew on my face, it almost burned me.

But I still raised my head calmly and looked at his eyes without any movement.

Miaoyan has left, so I have nothing to be scary.

"Why did you send her away?"

“…”

"Do you think I will use her to hurt you?"

I nodded and shook my head again.

He frowned slightly, looked at me in confusion, and I thought for a while and said, "Yuan Xiu, I still remember when I came to Jinling to find Miaoyan, you asked Han Ruoshi to take her to the temple to worship Buddha for a long time. At that time, you already knew that I was going south and people were in Yangzhou, and you even sent someone to find me in Yangzhou. Do you still remember this?"

His face slightly sank.

Obviously he did not forget this incident, nor did I forget it. It was because he asked Miaoyan to go to the temple to worship Buddha. I had no choice but to stay by his side and wait for Miaoyan to come back. It was also because of this that Miaoyan encountered the attack from Pei Yuanfeng and others and was rescued by Shen Xiaokun. A series of things happened later.

He said in a deep voice: "You said you have forgiven me."

"I do forgive you," I looked at him lightly: "But it doesn't mean I can accept it."

“…!”

"You should know that Miaoyan left me just a few months old. I was imprisoned in the palace for so many years. I refused to give up and insisted on leaving the palace just to see her. At that time, I was already in Yangzhou, and you also sent someone to find me. You should know that I could be found by you at any time, and you can understand more clearly that a mother wants to see her daughter."

“…”

"But you actually sent her away."

“…”

"In order to let me stay by your side for a few more days, you sent her away when I and her will meet immediately."

“…”

"I have always been grateful for your saving Miaoyan back then, and for your kindness in raising her over the years, but I am really scared. I am not afraid that you will hurt me, because you will not do this. I am just afraid that you will use her. I am afraid that you will use her in order to keep me by your side again."

He sat in front of me, his pale face seemed to have frozen ice.

I said, "It is because of this reason that at that time, although I took her away from you, I didn't dare to go far, but stayed in a place you could control, Jixiang Village."

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"As long as I walk not far and still within your control, you won't be angry or do anything to us."

“…”

"I know that at that time, Gu Ping and his friends came to Jixiang Village once a month to take care of us and help me do some heavy work, but more importantly, they were watching us and making sure that I didn't leave, nor were they planning to leave."

That year was actually a tug-of-war between me and him. He asked Gu Ping and others to help me do something, but he never provided any assistance to me in life because he didn't want me to go too far after leaving him. He hoped that I could return to him; while I hoped that the year would make him figure it out, and I hope that he and the Han sisters could have a result, so that I could completely break away from his control.

But I didn't expect that that night, that arrow broke the tug-of-war.

And today, this arrow also completely pierced the window paper of me and him.

I looked at his pale and almost cold face and said softly: "I am not able to accept the methods of Pei Yuanfeng and Pei Yuanhao. It's just that Pei Yuanfeng killed people like a slap because he is a general, and in order to defend his country, he is not in charge of soldiers! And Pei Yuanhao's cruelty, he is by nature, has never been concealed. Although I am afraid of him, I can see him clearly."

He looked at me: "Where is me?"

“…”

"Can't you see through me?"

I was silent for a long time and said in a trembling voice: "I dare not see through you."

...

After saying this, the surroundings suddenly became quiet.

For a moment, even the wind stopped. The candlelight had been swaying in the wind before, and now it seemed to condense. The faint candlelight shone on half of his face, causing the other side of his face to fall into a deep shadow.

Even so, I could still see his eyes, and the gentle gaze was still staring at me.

I don't know how long it took, but I heard him speak and shouted my name softly.

"Qingying..."

"Um?"

"Qingying..."

He called out softly again, looked deep in my eyes, and said, "Why can't you be confused?"

“…”

"Even if it's only a little bit."

“…”

When I heard his words, I did not resist at all, because I had asked myself this countless times, and at this moment, I even felt that he was right.

Why can't I be a little confused, even if it's a little? Even if it's a little good at compromising?

So, can my life be much sweeter?

But the next moment, I looked up at my shadow reflected in his dark eyes, small, thin, pale, like a ghost, but always so clearly, and I suddenly understood again.

I can't be confused, or even make compromises.

If I were a little confused, then the person who met him in the Inner Pavilion would not be me; I would not let Pei Yuanhao care about it, and everything that happened after this would not happen to me. I would leave the palace safely and marry an ordinary and innocent man, but this man would never be Liu Saner who used to be, and Qinghan now.

If I am a little confused and good at compromising...

I looked at him and smiled sadly: "If I were a little confused, the person in front of you would not be me."

“…”

"If I am a little confused, even if it is only a little bit, today and now, you don't have to say this to the person in front of you."

“…”

He looked at me silently for a while, and suddenly, he smiled.

In that smile, with an indescribable bitterness, he said, "Yes, you're right."

“…”

"If you are really confused... you will not be the you who are today, and I will not be the Pei Yuanxiu who is today."
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