"What's going on with the seed of me and you now?"

That seed of him and me?

Probably, I haven’t even thought about it myself. Who would look back and see if I give up?

I looked into his eyes and heard this sentence. I stopped talking a few times, but I couldn't speak.

Perhaps, at some time in the past, when my heart was still full of hatred, I would stab the sharp blade into his chest without hesitation, but today, when he told me that he had "breaked his stance", when I realized that I didn't love, or even no longer hated, I couldn't do it.

The person you love may be in pain.

People you don’t love can’t escape such pain.

I have only lived for half my life, but I have been imprisoned for too much time, imprisoned in the Hongyan Tower, imprisoned in the imperial city, imprisoned in the high walls of poetry and picturesque...

Being confined to his side.

I also know that bowing my head and giving in will make my life easier. After all, I already have a daughter, and he is an emperor who controls my life and death, and controls so many lives and deaths. No matter how you return to him, it is more comfortable than resisting him.

But I can't deceive myself.

Looking at my painful eyes, he was silent for a long time, and finally said slowly: "You have raised other people's seeds and gave up the one between us, right?"

As sharp as him, I can't deceive him.

"yes……"

I didn't look at his eyes, but just slowly lowered my eyelashes.

He took a deep breath, and a heavy chill suddenly emanated from his body, immediately covering me. I think I should say "I'm sorry" at this time and be sorry to him, but those words choked in my throat for a long time, but I couldn't say them.

I didn't feel sorry for him.

When I love him, I tried my best to aggrieved myself; when I don’t love him, I no longer aggrieved myself.

Feeling my silence, he looked at me for a long time, as if suppressing something, and slowly asked, "When did you raise his seeds?"

“…”

My heart inevitably sank, and I looked up at him.

His eyes were unchanged, dark, deep, without a trace of light, making people feel as if they were facing a bottomless abyss. I don’t know where he would fall after taking another step forward.

My breathing was suffocated.

He pinched my thin shoulders without exerting too much force, but he felt like he was pinching his whole body, as if a butterfly with his wings was nailed to death. Without his letting go, I would never be able to escape.

He looked into my eyes: "Say."

“…”

"Is it in Yangzhou? In that small fishing village?"

“…”

"You have spent so long there, and he has been taking care of you--by-by-one, I almost forgot, you once said, you want to marry a fisherman."

“…”

"so--"

"no."

He was given the two words that came suddenly, but were so calm that a gust of wind could blow away, and his breathing stopped for a moment, and then he stared at me with wide eyes: "No?"

I still shook my head: "No."

"When is that—at what time?"

When is it?

I also want to ask myself that at this moment, maybe I should really think about it carefully.

So, I remembered his clear eyes and indifferent expressions, remembered him saying, "If you have the fate, you will be together forever, and the evil will always be separated", remembered him saying that he has admiration for me, and the distance between me and him - not much, not much, only one step away.

I looked at Pei Yuanhao and smiled sadly: "When you are far away to welcome Fu Badai, Your Majesty."

He was stunned and was about to say something, but I continued to say calmly: "When I was in Jixian Palace."

“…”

“When I was in the Juma Valley.”

“…”

The more I said, the more I trembled, and the force on his hands became heavier and heavier, almost crushing my bones. I finally finished the last sentence tremblingly before the most painful came:

"When he set fire to Jixian Palace..."

His eyes became more and more messy, and his breathing became more and more messy. In the end, he couldn't control himself. He grabbed my shoulder, buried his head and breathed vigorously. I felt his fragility, as if the next moment, something on his body would be shattered. I thought he would roar, destroy me and everything in anger, but I only heard his heavy breathing, murmursingly-"Not Yangzhou...not in Yangzhou..."

Yes, not in Yangzhou.

My seed and I grew up in the most difficult Yangzhou, but my one with Liu Qinghan was not in Yangzhou, where we should have been smooth sailing.

It's in the palace.

It was the same difficult situation and the same difficult environment as before.

The emperor's high pressure, the princess's intervention, and even his own deliberate alienation and coldness, the seed still grew.

How ridiculous? I didn’t fall in love with the emperor in the palace, nor did I fall in love with this little fisherman in the fishing village.

I fell in love with them at the worst and the most impossible.

So, I deserve to endure those sufferings.

When the torn pain in my heart spread, the pain on my shoulders, almost like he crushed his bones was pricking me. I gritted my teeth and didn't moan, but saw him slowly raising his head, his red eyes almost as painful as me.

He said: "I shouldn't let him enter the palace."

I said, "Everything is fate, no one can do anything to others."

He said, "Is it impossible for others to do it? I don't believe it."

“…”

My heart suddenly slapped. For some reason, I felt intuition being pinched hard by an invisible black hand. He stared at me without blinking, as if he wanted to see through my eyes at this moment: "You forgot, I gave him a marriage."

“…”

"Don't I know that he won't fall in love with Yuanzhen?"

“…”

"I gave them marriage not to make him really locked by Yuan Zhen for the rest of his life, but to make him locked by himself for the rest of his life!"

“…”

"For this day, you two have no way to retreat!"

For some reason, what made me so desperate and painful, at this moment, when I said it through his mouth, I was not so painful. Perhaps, I was already numb and could not feel it.

I smiled: "I love him, not to be with him, but I love him in my heart, I endure such pain and enjoy such happiness. I won't have to force him to be with me, just like - someone loves me, but I may not give myself out."

He nodded.

"But I'm not you, nor him."

“…”

"I am such a person. I still want to get you, I--" He strengthened his tone and his hands were even stronger: "I want to be with you."

Looking at him like this, I can only laugh.

It's true that he is not me, nor Liu Qinghan.

He never gives up easily about what he wants. Even if it makes people unable to breathe, he will not let go easily, but must hold it in his palm!

I forgot that this is him, Pei Yuanhao!

I was filled with tears, almost unable to see the person in front of me who was already very clear. He pinched my shoulders and pressed me against the cold door. He looked down at my flashing eyes, gritted his teeth and said, "Have you given up that seed? I didn't give up."

“…”

"Have you changed your mind? I have also changed."

“…”

"And, I will make you come back!"

Has he changed?

I was temporarily lost and then I remembered in a daze. He told me that he had broken his attachment.

Once upon a time, he had used so much intention and devoted himself to the most feelings. Nangong Lizhu, who had been favored by so many years in this harem, finally changed his heart and exhausted his feelings.

He also changed his mind.

But, he wants me to change back?

Do you want me to walk the path I used to do again?

I gritted my teeth, shook my head subconsciously, and even began to struggle and twist, trying to break free from his shackles, but found that he had already pressed me tightly under me before I started moving. The dark eyes kept looking at me, and never relaxed for a moment.
To be continued...