The night wind was about to move the window and hit the wall, making a "snatch" sound. In such a sound, I slowly raised my head, looked at the swaying candle, and looked at Miaoyan's red eyes under the candlelight.

She looked at me with tears on her face: "Mom, why do you lie to me?"

“…”

"It turns out that the person in Uncle San's heart has always been you."

“…”

"Then why don't you tell me? You kept telling me, the eldest princess, how good my aunt is to him, how compatible they are, making me think that my third uncle will become the happiest person in the world when he is with her. It is because of you that I think so!"

“…”

"Since you have said so much, why don't you tell me directly? Actually, the person you like is you?"

“…”

"I like him. I want to marry him. I tell you everything, but mom, you hide everything from me. You don't even tell me about his relationship with you. Just watch me be so stupid every day, tell you how much I like him and how much I like him. Watch me follow him after him every day... But you know in your heart that he likes you!"

“…”

"You hide everything from me!"

“…”

"How many things do you have to hide from me!"

I felt so uncomfortable. Every word of Miaoyan was like a blow, hitting my chest hard. I almost used all my strength to breathe so that I could not fall into her overwhelming offensive. Looking at her tear-stained face and stubborn expression, after a long time, I finally smiled miserably.

"Yes, the person he loves is me."

“…”

"The person I love is also him."

“…”

Feeling Miaoyan's body trembled slightly, as if she was about to fall down, I still looked at her calmly - maybe only at this time can I have the courage and strength to tell her everything that I could not say in the past and would not say in the future.

As she was trembling and about to speak, I took the lead and said calmly: "Your third uncle - to be precise, he was your father."

She suddenly suffocated.

I said calmly: "Your mother, I used to be a little palace maid in this palace. Because of some things, your father was attracted to him and included in his harem. But at that time, he had someone he loved, and I didn't want to be wronged. So, my mother's first child, perhaps your brother or sister, had a miscarriage. This incident hurts me deeply and even makes me unable to forgive your father. Although we reconciled later, we finally came to an end. After experiencing some things, I jumped from his boat to the river and wanted to commit suicide, which was also a relief."

Miaoyan opened her eyes wide in horror, and subconsciously reached out and grabbed my sleeve.

I said lightly: "But I was not dead, but I was saved. That person is your third uncle."

Her hand holding my sleeve sank again.

"Your third uncle saved me, but at that time, I found out that I was pregnant. Although I used death to escape your father, there was a child in my stomach - you."

“…”

"During those days, your third uncle was taking care of me, treating me very well, and not asking for good rewards. Later, I married him, and he was by my side until you were born, and he was taking care of you carefully. Do you still remember the silver lock? Do you remember the words on it? It was the long-lived lock he used to call you after you were born. I hope that the three of us will not be separated in our lives."

I saw big tears falling from her eyes and falling on my sleeves that were held by her. After a while, a large area was wet.

The cold wetness quickly soaked on my skin, making me tremble slightly.

I can imagine how much trouble these things caused in her heart.

However, it has reached this point, and I can no longer hide it, nor can I hide it. If my daughter is destined to have some pain, then it is now, and now.

I took a deep breath and continued, "I originally thought that we could never separate for the rest of our lives. He would treat you as his biological daughter, take good care of you, and live your life like this. In fact, it was like this for a long time, but God teased us - I was found by your father, he used some means to force us to separate, and later, you were kidnapped by others, and I-"

Miaoyan suddenly looked up at me: "How are you?"

Her eyes were a little burning. Under that gaze, I finally gritted my teeth and said slowly: "I was locked in the palace for more than two years, and then I found a way to escape."

At this moment, she suddenly said, "Is it just that?"

"..." My eyebrows frowned slightly and looked at her.

Miaoyan's eyes flashed, as if his whole body was trembling, looking at me: "These days, when I sneaked out to see you, I heard some palace servants talking about you, me, and even more about that - the Imperial Concubine. What they said is different from what my mother said."

My eyes darkened: "What did they say?"

"They said, mother went crazy, and for more than two years, you have been a lunatic."

“…!”

My heart thrust hard.

I didn't expect that she had already known these things, but I didn't want her to know at all. Now, when she was growing up, she knew some things. While she was sympathizing with her children, her parents' majesty would collapse at this time, so I try my best to hide what I can.

But unexpectedly, those gossiping people in the palace still let her know about this.

I gritted my teeth hard and didn't say anything, but Miaoyan looked at me burningly: "Mom still refuses to tell me the truth... How did that imperial concubine treat you? I have heard a lot in the past few days."

“…”

This chapter is not over, please click on the next page to continue reading! I was silent for a long time before I realized that it was time to tell the truth.

She probably has arrived, and she has to face the cruel reality.

So, I finally said, "Yes, my mother is crazy. For more than two years, she was locked in a room by them. There were many pillars nailed to the door and windows, like a cage of beasts. The food she ate was filled with things that would make people crazy. As long as she ate it, she would start roaring wildly, roaring like a beast, and her throat would roar bleeding. I would also see many hallucinations, such as - I would see someone snatching you from the cradle, throwing you off the cliff, or throwing you into the water to drown."

“…”

"Every time I will start to hit people desperately. Sometimes, I realize that I am seeing hallucinations but I can't get rid of them. I will hit the wall with my head, and all of them have been broken, and blood flows all over the ground."

“…”

"A few times later, I didn't dare to eat what they gave me, so I put the things in the corner and attracted the mice to eat them. Then I caught the mice and ate them. There were leaves and wood slags that blew to the door. I had eaten everything."

“…”

"In winter, the quilt they gave me looked good outside, but inside was actually filled with willow catkins and ginseng, which was very cold, so I made a little fire and wanted to light something and roast it. The smoke that came out was seen by the people guarding me, so they grabbed my hair and dragged me out, and beat me in the yard for a long time, a long time."

“…”

I felt the sleeves getting heavier and heavier, and she was pulling my sleeves hard.

So, I didn't say anything more.

Although she had probably heard a lot from the palace ladies, she actually heard every bit of details from her mother's mouth, which was different.

And what you have experienced in person is even more different.

The so-called "empathy" is just a useless nonsense. No one will really understand how much hatred I felt in my heart, how much pain and unwilling I felt in those two years, and I will not understand the severe pain when I was beaten, when I was hungry, when I hit the wall again and again.

Miaoyan's eyes were filled with tears, but she dared not move, as if she was afraid that when she moved, the tears would burst out again. She looked at me and said tremblingly: "Then why, you still have to take me to recite the Heart Sutra for her. Why are you--"

Seeing her wanting to speak but stop, I said lightly: "You want to ask, why is it all like this? Mom still survived, right?"

“…”

"It's for you. At that time, my mother's only belief was that you would survive for you and find you. If there was no such belief, without you, my mother, I probably wouldn't know what it would be like. Although I wouldn't be crazy, I might really be beaten to death by them one day, or frozen to death one night, and starved to death."

“…”

"Just die in that cage."

"mother!"

She shouted in pain, and tears finally burst out from her eyes. She looked at me and asked while crying:

I heard her painful cry, and tears finally burst out from my eyes, but at this time, I calmed down and looked at her calmly, saying, "Why don't you tell you about your resentment? You don't tell you anything. Yes, my mother doesn't plan to tell you, because people have to go through too many things in this life, such as birth, old age, sickness and death, meeting with enemies and hatreds, separation from love, and not seeking."

“…”

"But you should experience your own, not what your mother has experienced. If your mother doesn't tell you, she hopes you will face your future life with a happy and positive attitude, those bumps and misfortunes that may arise."

“…”

"Reciting the Heart Sutra for her is not forgiveness. My mother does not have such a good heart to repay her with kindness. My mother just repays her with straightforwardness. My mother is actually reading the Heart Sutra that night for you. I hope that in your future, I don't have to bear the resentment that my mother has carried."

“…”

"As for your third uncle..."

When I said this, I finally choked up and saw her suddenly broken gaze. I said, "Mom really didn't tell you early in the morning because of these things - Mom can't speak."

“…”

"Everyone wants us to mention his past, whether it is your father or your father."

“…”

"We are also very clear that some things are impossible. So sooner or later your feelings for him will be gone. There is no other reason, and he is stronger than others. He just treats you as a daughter and a junior. What he is about to marry is your aunt, and he likes it in his heart..." I choked up and continued, "All this is destined to have no result."

“…”

"So, my mother didn't tell you, just hope that this matter will slowly fade into your life and become a little memory. Maybe many years later, it will hurt a little when you think about it, but the mood of your lover is beautiful."

“…”

"Actually, my mother is proud of you in her heart."

“…”

"My daughter, when she loves her, she does not only focus on human appearance, and does not dislike human origin and status. On this point, mother is most grateful. Because even if you cannot be with him, in the future, the person who makes you fall in love with you and can match you will definitely not be worse than your third uncle. He will definitely have a kind and upright soul and a brave and gentle heart that will make my daughter fall in love with you."

“…”

She frowned, as if she wanted to say something, but she couldn't say it.

I said gently: "There is no shame in loving someone. No matter what his identity or status, even if he doesn't love you, even if he loves others, when he loves him, enjoy the sweetness of missing him, recall the past you experienced with him, and regard the years spent with him as the best treasure in your life... Will these make you suffer?"

“…”

"Love is originally a pure happiness, and it will only be painful when you want to force it."

“…”

"A person's life is originally very free and easy, but he has put many shackles on himself, including grudges, love and hatred, wealth and fame, but the one that should not be used as shackles is love."

“…”

"Don't use love as a shackle, lock yourself and lock others."

“…”

Many emotions flashed in Miaoyan's eyes, confused, suddenly, helpless, puzzled, and Qingming. All of this made her seem a little confused. After a long time, she raised her head, looked at me with a complicated expression, and said, "So mom, what are you locked in?"

"……I?"

I was stunned when I heard this question.

What am I locked?

Looking at her big black and white eyes, there were tears in her eyes, and there seemed to be many emotions, but at this moment, I only wanted to have an answer.

What am I locked up?
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