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"Who is the important one for us?"
When she asked this, I hesitated a little, but did not answer her immediately, just sat there calmly.
Which of the two women is more important? This kind of question cannot be asked easily. If I really asked like this in normal times, it would not be a secret sarcasm in the Ming Dynasty, but I would have been tying my face and hair long ago. But neither of her or I spoke easily, just looked at each other like this.
I don't know how long this quiet lasts.
I could still calm down, but she seemed to be unable to hold back, her body kept trembling, and tears in her eyes kept flashing, but she refused to cry easily, just staring at me in a stalemate, gritting her teeth and showing a little smile: "You said!"
“…”
What else can I say about this?
I held the armrests on both sides of the chair, my fingers kept exerting force, but I didn't move.
Nangong Lizhu chuckled: "Yan Qingying, what are you going to do?"
"What?"
"You have beaten me."
“…”
"The only two men I care about in my life are all fascinated by you, and for you, they hurt me. I have no desire to ask for anything, I just want to stay by his side, and you have to come and tell me this."
“…”
"You must make me admit that I am not as important as you. For them, you are the most important person. And I, Nangong Lizhu, are nothing, right?"
“…”
"You have to step on my feet to be content?"
I saw her collapse, and an indescribable sense of pride surged in my heart.
In the past, I always felt that there was a win or loss in life.
Those who win will naturally stand tall in the clouds, while those who lose will fall into the quagmire, in a mess and in a very ugly state.
In the past, I always thought so, so when Pei Yuanhao slapped me to the ground in front of her in Yangzhou, my heart was ashamed and never ignited again.
But now, when she said this, when I looked at her like this, I realized that winning or losing is actually meaningless.
I have no joy of victory.
Seeing her embarrassment did not give me any pleasure or happiness.
Human hearts and human nature are both the same, and they are the same. Human nature is inherently good, and loves beauty and hates evil. They are all natures engraved in life and bone marrow. I cannot be happy because of other people's pain, no matter what this person has done to me.
Thinking of this, I sighed lightly and said, "I didn't talk to you about who is important."
“…”
"What I talked to you about how to deal with the matter in front of us can minimize our casualties."
“…”
"Nangong Lizhu, there is no winning or losing between me and you."
“…”
"In the end, there is only life and death."
She looked at me blankly, as if she was fully armed and erected the needles on her body, but suddenly she found that she had no enemies and no targets to target. She suddenly collapsed and collapsed, only holding Pei Yuanhao's hand and barely supporting her.
I said calmly: "If you want to be sad, you can be sad as much as you like, but it won't take too long. We only have half an hour, and now, two moments have passed."
She trembled again, then looked up at me.
After a while, she said, "You really-"
"I know you won't believe anything I say, but there is one thing you can see yourself," I looked her in the eyes: "The importance of us two is actually not important, but the final life and death are the only thing that matters."
“…”
"When a person dies, no matter what wins or loses, it's all empty."
“…”
She seemed to be shocked, staring at me with wide eyes, as if she didn't know me at all, and it seemed like she was the first time she heard someone talking to her or saying such things to her.
When she met my eyes, she was full of complexity and contradictions, as if something invisible was hitting her soul, once, once, shocking her heart.
I don’t know how long it took, but at the end, she finally sighed: “You are right, there is no winning or losing in life and death.”
“…”
She looked at me and suddenly smiled: "Is this what they value?"
I was stunned. Before I could react, she chuckled again:
"I'll go."
My breathing suddenly tightened.
However, the smile flew away and did not stay on her face for longer, leaving no traces. Although, I was originally trying to convince her, I hesitated when I heard her say this: "Are you really willing to go?"
She looked at me: "Is there any other way?"
“…”
I pursed my lips.
She smiled again and said, "Since there is no other choice, then that's it."
I thought about it and said, "But, you need to know one thing, too."
She looked at me: "What?"
"After you go out, you're in the hands of the rebels."
“…”
"Sheng, you are Nangong Jinhong's daughter, theirs; log, you are also a person in the rebels."
“…”
She was unexpectedly calm, without any panic or fear, but just lowered her eyes lightly, and her slender eyelashes covered the bright eyes of Qiushui. I couldn't see her eyes clearly, and could only feel a strong silence and helplessness, which came out from it.
She smiled indifferently: "It doesn't matter."
“…”
She turned around and looked at the sleepy person on the bed, then said, "You go out, I want to stay with him for the last time, stay for a while."
My hand holding the armrest of the chair used a little force, and finally stood up with my support, looking at her and said, "Don't be too long, half an hour will arrive soon."
After saying that, I turned around and walked out.
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Just now, I felt that time passed very slowly, and every moment seemed like a torture, but at this moment, I felt that time was passing too quickly. In a short while, the specified time limit was coming.
This chapter is not over, please click on the next page to continue reading! Several students ran over from outside and told me anxiously that the rebels below had begun to move.
I sighed, walked over and knocked on the door of the side hall, then pushed the door and walked in.
As soon as I walked in, I saw Nangong Lizhu sitting next to the bed. I don’t know how long she had been sitting in this position. When I walked in, she was bent down and gently kissing Pei Yuanhao’s lips.
“…!”
I was stunned and stopped, but Nangong Lizhu seemed to have not noticed that I had come in at all, and had no feeling at all. She reached out and gently stroked Pei Yuanhao's cheek.
My face couldn't help but feel hot, and I subconsciously took a step back.
When he retreated, he hit the door behind him. With a clang, Nangong Lizhu had already stood up and turned to look at me.
Only then did I see that her face was paler than before, almost blending with the snow-white wall behind her. The only bright color on her face was her rosy lips. However, just now, she clearly saw that her lips were pale due to blood loss.
When I looked at Pei Yuanhao lying there again, I realized it.
It's blood.
Just now, the blood splashed out from the wound fell on his body, and on his face and lips. This kiss made him and her lips dyed the blood-red color.
I don’t know if that kiss also smells of blood.
I stood at the door, hesitating, and she had already said, "Time is up?"
"arrive."
"All right."
After she finished speaking, she looked down at Pei Yuanhao and then slowly stood up, and the hand that had been holding his hands tightly finally slowly released.
Perhaps because they held it for too long, the fingers of the two people were entangled together. It seemed a bit difficult to separate at this time, let alone the blood, because of the break, the wound cracked again, and bright red blood dripped from her hand, falling to Pei Yuanhao's palm, dripping from his fingertips along the gaps of his fingers.
Looking at this scene, my brows frowned slightly.
Nangong Lizhu said nothing, and got up and walked out.
I stood at the door and watched her walk out like this, her blood dripping along the way, as if the blood was dyed with blood red along the way...
She walked outside.
To be continued...