"Qingying."

These three short words made me tremble suddenly.

What a strange and familiar name.

In fact, outside Yangzhou City, on that chaotic and sad night, after I met Jingxu on the boat, I seemed to have returned the name "Yue Qingying". Over the years, I have never thought about it again, nor have I thought about my life when I still called this name.

But now, she called out this name from her mouth, as if she had dug out the dusty past from the ashes of time.

Su Su frowned next to her: "What's she calling?"

I didn't explain much to her. Zhao Shuyuan called this. I think she didn't see me and recognized me, but her mind was no longer sober.

Sure enough, she continued to stroke the back of my hand and said softly: "When did you come back?"

Su Su listened to her for a little more inexplicable reason.

I handed her the handkerchief in my hand and asked her to clean up all the basins. When Susu walked out and closed the door, Zhao Shuyuan said to me gently: "Didn't you say you want to go out for a trip and won't come back?"

“…”

What she said should be Yue Qingying, that is, Jingxu went out for a trip. That was because Pei Yuanzhen told the story of "Yan Qingying" in the hall. She was worried that someone would really go to Huangze Temple to find the roots and ask the truth, so she used a trick to lie that "Yan Qingying" had passed away from sickness, and Jingxu naturally wanted to leave Huangze Temple to avoid the lie being exposed.

After so long, Huangze Temple was destroyed, but Zhao Shuyuan still mentioned that it seemed that she was really confused.

I didn't point it out, so I followed her words: "I miss you, so I'll come back to see you."

"Miss me? What do I have to think about?"

I smiled and helped her walk to the bed to sit down. She suddenly raised her head and looked at me, saying, "Where have you gone out for a trip, and what have you done?"

I thought about it, sat next to her, and said with a smile: "I have been to many places, but I have done nothing well, achieved nothing, and I am still struggling in the world."

"Silly child, if a person does not struggle in the world, would he become a Buddha?"

"Ha ha."

I laughed.

I was actually very unfamiliar with this Empress Shuyuan. In the past, when I was a palace maid, I had no contact with her, let alone dated her. It was the first time I talked to each other today, but I found that as soon as I opened my mouth, I felt like I was getting along.

She was not sober, but her speech was quite organized. She was like an ordinary nagging old man. She asked me a lot, and I also answered her patiently. The two of them chatted like this for a while, and it was late at night, so I asked her to lie down and sleep, and pulled the quilt on her shoulder to cover her.

Just as she was about to blow out the candle at the head of the bed, she suddenly pulled my sleeve and whispered: "Jingxu, have you found my son?"

“…!”

I was shocked and blew out the candlelight with a thud.

The room suddenly fell into darkness, but it seemed that something was lit up in my heart.

I turned around and barely saw her thin body half lying on the bed in the darkness, her eyes flashing slightly, looking at me.

My heart was beating, almost jumping out of my mouth. I took a deep breath before I could calm myself down. I said, "I looked for it, but I couldn't find it."

"ah……"

She sighed softly. Although the sound was very soft, I clearly felt her loss from that sigh. Suddenly, my whole body collapsed a little, as if it had collapsed.

I subconsciously reached out to touch her, but she reached out to catch my hand.

Her hands, because they had just washed with hot water, were still a little warm at this time. When she rubbed her palms, she even felt a little heat, as if she was anxious. She said, "Then you have to help me find it well, ask more people, look for it more, and help me find him."

My heartbeats even harder.

Actually, I didn't want to ask about this matter, but I just received it today. I was also worried that asking about the past would touch her sensitive nerves and make her scared, and that trouble would arise on the road, so I didn't say anything. However, I didn't expect that she had mentioned this matter first, and she was so confused that she had forgotten everything that had happened before, and was only focused on letting Jingxu look for her son.

I suppressed my throbbing heart and said calmly: "The sea of ​​people is vast, and it is not that easy to find someone."

Hearing me say this, she sighed with a loss.

"ah……"

"Besides, so many years have passed."

“…”

"How many years have passed, do you still remember?"

I felt her trembling slightly. After a long time, I said softly: "It has been more than thirty years, more than thirty years..."

My breathing became more and more tense, and then I said, "Yes, it's been more than thirty years. If your son is still alive, he is also an adult. Maybe he has already married and had children."

“…Get married and have children.”

"Yes, it's really hard to find a child that was lost more than 30 years ago."

As I said this, I approached her slightly, and looked at her constantly flickering eyes with a little light of moonlight coming in from the window: "What certificate do you leave for that child?"

"certificate?"

"Yes, a certificate of recognition in the future."

She shook her head blankly: "I don't have anything, I left him nothing. When he was born, I didn't even have time to look at him, and he was taken away."

“…!”

My heart trembled and I couldn't help but say: Queen Yin is so cruel!

Even if the Supreme Emperor Pei Ji exchanged Pei Yuanhao for the empress dowager's child in order to protect the coffin that was regarded as ominous, he at least let the empress dowager spend a while with the child. After all, there was still a trace of time to be recalled between the mother and son. However, Empress Yin sent the child away without even letting Zhao Shuyuan see her child. Such cruelty and coldness were too much!

I even feel that what she experienced later, she was crazy and wandering after suffering a drastic change in Huyuexia, and was in a mess, perhaps it was the retribution for her once committed evil!

I only feel sorry for Zhao Shuyuan.

I looked down at her panic-looking eyes, and there was a deeper and deeper grief, as if I was about to crush her whole body. I almost couldn't bear to ask any more questions.

However, the doubts that kept coming out of my mind were rumbling.

I finally couldn't help but ask gently, "She, why did she treat you like this? Why did she take your child away?"

“…”
Chapter completed!