How can I beg your daughter...your only daughter?

This sentence seemed like a sudden heavy blow, hitting my chest hard. I felt my breathing suffocated. My whole body shook slightly, my face turned pale, and I looked at him with wide eyes.

my daughter……

My only daughter...

I almost forgot the main purpose of coming to him tonight, and I just wanted to be angry with him and "set the accounts" with him. But his unintentional words suddenly brought me back to my original form - what is my position? If I am angry with him in the next day, I will settle the accounts with him?

Isn't it me who should be judged and conquered?

He looked down at me suddenly becoming helpless and even a little frightened, frowned slightly, subconsciously trying to say something, but I had already raised my head and my eyes met his.

At this moment, I seemed to really understand something and immediately shut my mouth.

And I looked into his eyes as if I was about to meet my unavoidable fate.

I trembled and said, "Yes...I, my only daughter..."

“…”

"I, I don't understand what she was thinking, and I also know that she finally reunited with me and her father, a child, of course she hopes to be like this forever, and she will not allow anyone to destroy her peace at this moment. And you - she is rejected by you again, and you will definitely exude all your resentment on you..."

“…”

"I know..."

“…”

"But I still can't bear to leave her, I can't bear to leave her..."

“…”

"She is really my only daughter...I have only one daughter in my life..."

He looked at me with his eyes wide open, and the hand holding me was constantly exerting force uncontrollably. I could feel that the string between me and him had been tensed to the extreme. Maybe the next moment, if you breathe a little heavier and your heart beat a little heavier, the string would break.

And at this moment, his eyes finally stopped calm, flashing like a candle in the wind, and even a shadow of wanting to retreat. He subconsciously said: "Light, you-"

"Let me tell you," my voice was completely hoarse, and my low mosquito murmur was only sounding at the distance between the two of them: "Otherwise, I don't know if I can still have the courage to tell you. But if I don't tell you, my life will be in a nightmare."

He didn't say anything, and his whole body's breath was condensed.

I looked into his eyes, took a deep breath, and said word by word: "Qinghan, I...I will not have any more children."

“…”

“No more.”

“…”

"The day before you rescued me from the Border River, I took out a stillborn baby in my stomach... it was Pei Yuanxiu."

“…”

"Qinghan, I will never have children again..."

“…”

“No more…”

I just felt that the internal organs in my body were gathered together at this moment, and I almost had no strength or courage to say these words, and when I finished the last word, I felt that my body seemed to be not my own. When my body was weak, I almost fell down.

But his other hand immediately reached over and wrapped around my waist.

Just now, there was still a hot body temperature in his palm, but at this time, I felt his breath become cold, and the last light in his eyes that seemed to be a candle in the wind suddenly went out.

My tears also fell silently.

I finally told him.

It seemed as if the dead fetus was still in my body. This news was like a cancer that had been silenced in my heart. I knew that the paper could not contain the fire, and I knew that all the secrets had been revealed one day, but I could still keep it for one day, and I could watch the crack between myself and him grow bigger and bigger.

I will never have children anymore. This fact was clearly presented to me when he picked me up from the river of boundaries.

I will never have children again. No matter what kind of life he will give me in the future, no matter how much I hope to stay by his side, this fact cannot be changed.

I won't have children anymore...

Miaoyan, she is my only blood in this world, so no matter how willful or arrogant she is, I can't leave her behind.

But she didn't know that every word she said was like the sharpest blade, adding more blood to her mother's already scarred heart.

I didn't see my blood flowing into Hanoi's heart.

Only he, seeing my tears at the moment, grabbed his shoulders with both hands, slowly pressed his forehead against his chest, and whimpered: "Qinghan... I'm sorry..."

“…”

"I dare not tell you."

“…”

"I can't tell you..."

“…”

"I don't want to tell you!"

“…”

"I--"

I was incoherent and didn't even know what else I could say at this moment, but just as my tears soaked his clothes and the cold touch made him tremble slightly, he suddenly breathed and took a step towards me, slowly carrying me into his arms with both hands.

A warm feeling came, I shivered for a moment, and my cheeks pressed against his chest.

The wet and cold tears were intertwined with his body temperature, as if my whole body was cold at this moment, and the blood seemed to be frozen, but it was wrapped by his hot arms again, as if the ice and fire were melting, making me tremble in his arms, and tears gushed out like a dam and could no longer be controlled.

I slowly turned my head and buried my face in his arms, allowing my tears to rush, completely wet his clothes.

sorry……

sorry……

I don't know how long it took, but he rang deep on his head with a strong nasal sound.

"alright."

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"I see."

“…”

"You—" His voice choked slightly, paused for a while before he said with a heavier nasal tone: "If you want to cry, just cry here. After you finish crying, you will forget about this."

“…”

"I will help you remember what you should remember, but you, you forget."

As he said, he reached out and gently stroked my head, and heaviered his tone: "Just forget."

“…”

I couldn't speak, I just gritted my teeth and shed tears, shook my head vigorously in his arms.

He lowered his head and said, "What's wrong?"

“…”

"What else do you want to tell me?"

I really have too many things to say to him, but after finally telling him this fact, I seemed to be empty. In the end, my emotions turned into endless tears and raging on my face. I couldn't say it, so I could only choke and said softly: "I'm sorry..."

“…”

"Qinghan, I'm sorry..."

When you were poisoned and endured such pain, you gave me everything just to prevent me from being hurt, but I - I still fell into bruises. If I hadn't lost my mind because of Xue Qian's death and thought I could kill that man, how could I be kidnapped in Gantang Village and the Yan family's own ancestral hall? If I could listen to you well and stay in Xichuan, how could I have experienced everything that happened after that?

How could it end like this now?

Sorry... Sorry...

When I met you, I was no longer the best me, but now, I have even-

Sorry... Sorry...

Listening to me repeating this sentence, his breath slowly became lighter, but his hands that were holding me did not relax at all. Instead, they exerted more force than before, almost making me feel a little unable to breathe, but it was this almost suffocating hug that made me feel like I was docking.

I don’t know how long he was silent, but he finally said softly: “So, you are going to say this to me tonight? I’m sorry?”

“…”

"What are you sorry for me?"

“…”

"Just because you can't have children anymore, so after we are together, you won't give birth to a child for me, are you sorry for me?"

My eyes were completely blurred by tears, and even his words were a little confused in his ears. He subconsciously wanted to raise his head, but the top of his head suddenly touched his chin. He immediately reached out to touch my intention, and still held me in his arms, sighed, and said, "Qingying, you don't owe me a child."

“…”
To be continued...