After a long time, she said, "But, you don't understand."

“…”

"If you really miss someone, nothing is an excuse. As long as you want to see someone, even if you drag a mountain behind you and block the river in front of you, you cannot stop you from seeing that person."

“…”

"On the way to see him, even if the mountains and rivers are high and the waters are far away, even if the war is continuous, even if - even if you only go on the road alone, you have to endure all fear and loneliness, even hunger and fatigue, but when you think of seeing him, the moment you think of seeing him, you have infinite power, what are all obstacles?"

“…”

When I heard her murmuring, as if she was completely unconscious, I raised my head and saw that her eyes were dull. At this moment, it seemed that her soul was out of her body, and then I suddenly realized.

What she said was herself.

Looking at the scar on her originally beautiful face, the fatigue that could not be concealed by any kind of cosmetics, I almost understood in an instant what she had experienced over the past few days.

Nangong Lizhu was still trapped in his own world and said softly: "He was obviously like this before."

“…”

"But, but I don't know when he - he seems to have changed."

“…”

"If he wants to see my heart, the same as I want to see him, then no matter how busy he is, he will definitely take time out. Even if he looks at me, even if he only looks from a distance, I waited all night last night and didn't wait for him."

“…”

Speaking of this, she looked up at me, her eyes as if she had lost their spirituality: "Can I never wait for him again?"

“…”

I can't speak.

At this moment, I suddenly remembered that after I recited the Heart Sutra to Nangong Lizhu for a night with Miaoyan, Pei Yuanhao told me that he had broken his attachment.

He let go of the same obsession as he had in the past.

In fact, that conversation did not have much impact on me, because whether it was persistence or breaking it, it was his own heart and would not change my mind. But now, facing Nangong Lizhu and facing her tears, I suddenly felt an indescribable sense of depression, as if a heavy stone was pressed on my heart, making it difficult for me to breathe.

Pei Yuanhao broke his stance.

For those who were persistent when they were young, they could choose to let go of their feelings when they were young, and they could choose to take it lightly. However, Nangong Lizhu became more and more persistent.

Without such persistence, how could she, a weak woman, be alone? She has gone through almost all kinds of difficulties and dangers before she could meet him today.

My throat became dryer and harder, as if there were rough gravel stems inside, and it hurt slightly.

I can't speak.

How should I tell her - the person you are thinking of has already let go, then, should you, also?

But if you let it go, is it really good?

Looking at her, the days when she was once the number one beauty in the Celestial Empire and was deeply loved by the Six Palaces, but now she is only a scar on her face, full of fatigue, a body that can no longer give birth to children, and a heart full of holes.

Is it really good for such a person to break his stance?

Without this obsession, what else can she have left?

But now, what makes me even more helpless is why she came to me and said these words to me?

If I didn't feel wrong, she would almost show the weakest part of her heart to others. And there was no warmth between me, me and her, to comfort each other and help lick each other | lick the wounds. Didn't she think that all her misfortunes could become the laughing stock of others?

But, I was really, couldn't laugh.

On the contrary, there is a little bit of a crying feeling.

She didn't know, she held the person tightly in her hand, afraid that the person she lost had already let go of her when she didn't know. How could I tell her this fact?

I was silent for a long time, then looked up at her pale and thin face, thought for a while, and said slowly: "Nangong Lizhu, have you ever thought about what you would be like if one day, without him in your world?"

“…”

"Have you ever thought about it?"

“…”

The moment she heard my words, she trembled, her face turned paler than before, and she shook her head and said, "I can't imagine."

"But... if I were you, I would think about it. No matter how much I love this man, I would tie all my thoughts to him, but my hope, my life, my beliefs, and everything about me still belongs to me."

“…”

"Because... people are too fickle, because things in the world are impermanent. Haven't you ever thought about what you should do if one day he no longer - and he is no longer in your world?"

She looked up at me, then lowered her head, as if she had thought about it seriously for a while.

But I felt that her breathing and heartbeat were in chaos at this moment.

I don’t know how long it took, but she slowly raised her head and looked at my eyes again and said, “Then I, I will die!”

“…!”

My heart twitched suddenly, as if a sharp knife was stabbed into my chest. Looking at Nangong Lizhu's firm and almost desperate eyes, I could no longer speak.

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When she left, the sun was in full swing.

The bluestone slabs in the yard in front of the door were filled with scorching heat. Every step I stepped on seemed to have to dry up the person, but when I saw her back leaving, I felt cold in my heart.

At this moment, Eunuch Yu walked in from outside.

He saw my somewhat stunned and confused eyes, and turned back to look at the back of Nangong Lizhu who had already walked away. He seemed to feel something, but he lowered his head and thought about it, but he didn't say much, but walked over and bowed and bowed and bowed: "Ms. Yan."

"Ah?" I came to my senses and looked at him: "Eunuch Yu?"

"Young Master Liu, he is awake."

"What?!"

I looked at him in surprise: "Qinghan, he woke up?"

"Yes."

"When did it happen?"

"I woke up, I've been there for a while."

"Then why don't you tell me?!"

Eunuch Yu seemed a little hesitant and looked back and saw that Nangong Lizhu's back had disappeared at the end of the long pavilion. Only then did I realize that he was concerned about Nangong Lizhu, so he did not come in to disturb me.

I was happy and a little resentful to him: "You should have come and tell me earlier!"

After saying that, he hurried out.

Eunuch Yu probably knew how happy and panicked I was at this moment, so naturally I wouldn’t bother with me. I just smiled faintly and followed me.

After a while, we arrived at the room we were yesterday.

There were several guards at the door, whom Pei Yuanhao ordered them to stay here and not let anyone get close to him yesterday. When they saw me coming, they immediately leaned over to salute. I was so happy that I didn't have time to respond, so I just walked forward. But when I walked down the steps, a guard said, "Miss Yan, should you wait a little longer?"

“…?”

I was stunned for a moment, my steps stopped, and I turned to look at him-what does it mean?

The guard said, "The Emperor is still inside."

"Your Majesty? He is?"

"Yes, after Mr. Liu woke up, His Majesty was the first to come over."

“…”

I was not surprised. Naturally, the people here were managed by Pei Yuanhao himself. If something happened, he would have to be the first to report him. So, I am not surprised that he came first.

only……

But I felt a little uneasy in my heart.

I thought for a while, and then said, "How long has the Emperor been in?"

"It's been a moment."

"Then, did he explain that he would not let him in?"

"Not."

"That--"

"But, there was no one who asked Miss Yan to come right away."

I was stunned for a moment, and then I understood why such a big deal was so big. Eunuch Yu kept waiting outside and told me after Nangong Lizhu left.

He did this not to disobey the emperor, but also delayed enough time.

But, I hesitated a little.

I thought for a while, and then said, "Okay, I'll wait a little longer to see when His Majesty will come out."

The attendant immediately nodded at me, as if he was a little grateful that I did not make things difficult for them.
To be continued...