Pei Yuanfeng looked back and saw me for the first time, and seemed to be stunned for a moment, but he immediately smiled.

While wiping the sweat from his forehead, he slowly walked to the steps and said, "I got up so early, why don't I sleep for a while?"

"I don't want to sleep anymore."

"Did the child disturb you?"

"No, I just-maybe I can't sleep because I've returned to Nishikawa."

"Isn't Nishikawa your home? When you get home, you should be at ease. Why can't you sleep?"

"My home? My home..."

I repeated these three words in surprise, then looked at his dark eyes and smiled in a daze.

Yes, Xichuan is my home. When you return to Chengdu, you can see Qingchen, Hong Aunt Hong, Su Su who stayed here, and the Shuixiu, Du Yan and others who retreated from the capital to here. The beautiful scenery and quiet and elegant Yilan Villa in Bishan also belongs to me.

This is my home, of course.

In the past ten years, my concept of "home" has been very vague. Until now, it seems that the word "home" has had some specific appearance in my mind.

But I don’t know what my return will bring to my home this time, and what Xichuan will face.

Maybe this is why I can't sleep all night.

Looking at my dazed expression, Pei Yuanfeng was silent for a moment, and then said, "Don't worry too much. If we hold you back when the sky falls, we will definitely not hurt you."

When I heard him say this, I felt relieved again and smiled slightly. At this moment, one of his soldiers came over to take his sword and gave him a towel to wipe his sweat. It was obvious that I was used to doing it on weekdays. I turned to look at their room: "Where is Qinghan?"

"He was so tired and had been sleeping heavily, so I didn't wake him up."

"Oh, let him sleep a little longer."

He nodded, too.

Speaking of this, both of them became quiet, and they had nothing to say, but they didn't know what to say. It was too early now, and the fog in the mountains was like a barrier, isolating people from everything around them, as if only two people were left facing each other. The quietness made people dare not break it easily.

In the end, he spoke first.

"how is your day?"

“…”

I was stunned for a moment, looked up at him, and was about to nod and answer yes, but saw him chuckling again, lowering his head and saying, "I know, you will definitely agree to me."

“…”

"Liu Qinghan also said so to me."

I looked at him with a smile: "Don't you believe our words?"

He looked into my eyes: "But I know that he rescued you from my second brother."

“…”

My heart was caught off guard and seemed to have a needle. A familiar pain spread throughout my body in a short while, stimulating me to tremble slightly.

Pei Yuanfeng looked at my eyes intently, as if any pain in my eyes was hidden under his gaze. He said in a deep voice: "I know there are some things that he will not tell me even if he knows it - you will not tell me, and I," he paused, his voice slightly hoarse: "I am afraid of knowing too."

“…!”

No matter what he said, I thought I could face it calmly, but I didn't expect that he would say that he was "feared".

He was afraid to know.

I was afraid to know what I had experienced and I was afraid to know what happened to me.

I trembled slightly and said hoarsely: "Yuanfeng--"

He said: "I am no longer qualified to say anything about your affairs, nor do I have any more qualifications to do anything else."

“…”

"I just hope you are happy."

“…”

"Light, there should be someone around you who will help you carry all the burdens and let you spend every day happily; instead of being wronged, hurt, and in danger like before."

Listening to his words, somehow, tears were pouring up as if they couldn't control them. After a while, my eyes were blurred. I could only see his obsidian-like eyes looking at me, with too much pity and care in my eyes.

I understood what he meant and knew his mood at the moment. I took a deep breath and said with a smile: "Thank you, Yuanfeng."

“…”

"Actually, Qinghan also told me about this on the way here."

“…”

"But we all know very well that in the current situation, it is difficult for us to get out of it. If we really get out of it-"

I didn't say anything, I didn't know what to say, and I didn't dare to imagine it. Even Pei Yuanfeng's eyebrows slowly froze.

Both of them fell silent. After a while, he sighed softly: "I know."

He slowly turned his head and condensed some tiny drops of water on the scattered forehead. I don’t know if it was his sweat or the fog condensed, giving people a feeling of being messy and helpless, and his eyes looked even more gloomy. He looked forward, although he knew that the place was a dense green bamboo forest, under the fog, everything seemed blurry, just like our way forward, knowing how we should go, but we couldn’t be sure where we would go.

Everything makes people feel an unknown fear.

He said softly: "Actually, what I am more afraid of is how I will face him after I know all this."

“…”

"My second brother is no longer my second brother."

When I spoke the last few words, I clearly felt his voice trembling.

I suddenly realized that each of us had made a move with Pei Yuanxiu and made a decision with him, but Pei Yuanfeng, he had not yet.

No matter what his background is, he is the "second brother" Pei Yuanfeng has called him for decades. Even if they are not like-minded people, they may even have big differences in some things. After all, their relationship is not fake after being brothers for decades. Pei Yuanfeng cannot change his attitude immediately, let alone break his grace with him.

This is the most painful place.

For a moment, I didn't know what to say or how to persuade him.

After all, this kind of contradiction and pain is not something that the parties involved are not really experiencing.

I could only stand there quietly. It took me a lot of time before Pei Yuanfeng slowly turned his head and looked at me, and said in a little bit of hardship: "Light."

"Um?"
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