Just as my mother said, I am so old, and I am even someone else's mother. I should be firm, strong and support others. However, from the first time I saw her, my tears were uncontrollable, like a helpless child who just wanted to talk to him for comfort.

When I spoke the last two words, tears rolled down like beads with broken lines again.

As her mother's fingers were wet with tears, she suddenly felt as if she was burned and took back her hand.

I could feel her trembling and the suffocation of that moment. More and more scattered white hair fell from her forehead, strands, like white snow, covering her eyes layer by layer.

Her eyes became old and haggard.

I cried, "Mom..."

"I see."

Her old voice came from under her white hair, and a faint breath blew the snow-white hair, but gave people a sense of silence that was ashamed to death.

"mother……"

"I see."

We repeated what we had said again, and my tears gushed out. Her fingers, which were stained with my tears, slowly shrank back, but did not put them back on her knees as before, but slowly, slowly covered her chest.

There seemed to be something that almost broke, and there was a pain that she couldn't bear.

I could no longer speak, and she said empty and lightly: "I understand."

I asked in tears, "Did my mother think of this day when she was doing that?"

“…”

"Hide—When the Florian cannon."

At this time, if I were still calm and had a little bit of rationality, I might not have asked this sentence in front of Pei Yuanhao. However, when the light just now, I almost knew that some things could not be hidden. Although we may not be able to turn on that huge mechanism to see the truth, I would not deny the existence of the dense black shadows around me.

The Folang machine cannons are all hidden in the Sanjiang Dam, hiding beside my mother!

It was because of this that she broke up with her father.

And it was because of this that she had stayed at Sanjiang Dam for so many years!

My mother was silent for a long time before she slowly said in a hoarse voice: "It's not that I didn't think about it, but that I can't think about it."

“…”

"If people have too many worries, they can't bear to give up anything."

"But why do you have to give up! You can have other choices!"

“…”

"Since there is something wrong with the Sanjiang Dam, you can destroy it! Since you don't want the Florian cannon to appear, why don't you destroy it?"

If you do this, we won’t have to separate over the years.

You don't have to give up me or him.

And can we still live happily and happily like in the past, and my life doesn’t have to be so indulgent and painful?

My mother raised her head slightly and looked at me, her eyes flashing slightly: "Destroy Sanjiang Dam...? Then what?"

“…”

"Destroy the Florian artillery? Then what?"

“…”

"Qingying, Mom can give up you, but she is not willing to give up you. Now, it is the result of Mom's most helpless choice."

“…”

"As soon as the Sanjiang Dam is destroyed, the crisis is indeed resolved. Do you know what will happen to Xichuan?"

“…”

My breathing was also chaotic for a moment.

However, my mind was extremely clear, and I understood what she meant almost instantly.

The Sanjiang Dam was destroyed, and Emperor Gao's plan failed. Indeed, the crisis no longer exists.

However, without the influence of this crisis, Xichuan will be more inclined to independence and even oppose the imperial court. At present, under the war in the Central Plains, the imperial power has been weakened to the lowest point. Whether Pei Yuanhao or Pei Yuanxiu will unify the Central Plains in the future, they will definitely be greatly damaged. I can even be sure that within decades, they will not be able to take any measures against Xichuan, and they will lose the best opportunity to win over Xichuan and unify.

By that time, division will become a norm.

As for the consequences of the split, I have heard too much about the discussion of Xishan Academy.

Therefore, this method was so vicious that she despised her, but she still agreed to this matter.

"Why do you think it's enough to destroy the Folang machine cannon?"

“…”

Of course... not.

I murmured: "Everything born is born with cause and effect. The reason why the Folang Ji cannon appears is because it is needed. We want to destroy it, but in fact, it destroys the purpose of Taoism and nature."

The mother nodded gently.

"My mother hates the Gao Emperor's methods, but considering the unification, this may be the worst, but the most peaceful method;My mother doesn't like this kind of weapon, destroying it is just a trivial matter, but Mother cannot destroy people's needs for it."

“…”

"Light, there are so many things that my mother can't decide based on her likes and dislikes."

“…”

"Maybe, my decision was wrong, but I've made the decision."

“…”

"As for other people..."

Speaking of this, her voice suddenly choked.

"Have you thought about it?"

I looked up at her, and strong tears slid down from my eyes again. No matter how hard I tried to control it, the whimpering sound still showed indescribable pain and grievance. I asked cryingly, "Can I be able to give up on me, but can I be able to give up on him?"

“…”

My mother didn't say anything, and she couldn't seem to answer.

It seems that the meditation of this year has allowed her to see through everything in the world, but she cannot see through this.

I asked, "Mom, don't you really regret it at all?"

My mother was silent for a long time before she slowly said in a hoarse and strange voice: "There is no word between you and your father, but you can say it all."

“…”

"Actually, my mother will think clearly about anything she does."

“…”

"But he is the only one, even though I thought about it for two years and then for half a lifetime, I never figured it out."

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The two years she mentioned were the two years when she locked herself up, and the half of her life she talked about was the half of her life spent by her father.

Even after such a long time, she hadn't figured out this matter.

But she was once captured by Uncle Wuwei, who was still a bandit, and in just one night, she saw through everyone, thought of all the countermeasures, completely destroyed the bandit nest, and made Uncle Wuwei become his entourage.

Is it that difficult?

I asked her cryingly, "Is it that difficult?"

My mother looked down at me. Behind the strands of white hair were her eyes that were old and lost in a moment. She slowly said: "Actually, for my mother, there was nothing difficult in this world."

“…”

"Even if it is to establish the academic style of Xishan Academy; even if it is to compete with the old patriarchs of Xichuan; even if it is to find the truth hidden by Emperor Gao, even if it is to kidnap your father's things halfway and hide these things under their noses."

“…”

"Mom never felt sad."

“…”

"But he—but he stumped my mother."

"mother……"

Her voice slowly returned to calm, but the calmer she was, the more painful I felt. She even cried like a child, holding on to her clothes, but she seemed to feel nothing. Even what she saw in her eyes was no longer me, and there was a sense of vastness in her eyes.

She said softly: "Maybe, I regret it."

“…”

"It would be great if we didn't meet."

“…”

"If I hadn't met, that would have been great..."
To be continued...