"Maybe, he came into being, in order to take the helm for Nishikawa at the most critical moment, choose the right direction, and do all this, he—"

I cried and said, "He finished all this, he gave everything for Nishikawa and me, but why did it end like this in the end? I didn't even see him for the last time!"

"Light..."

"I don't want to listen, Qinghan, don't say those words anymore, I don't want to listen!"

I shook my head and tears fell. No matter who I am now, how can I tell me how good Qingchen is. I don’t want to hear such things because he has done for Xichuan, Yan’s family, and me. I just hope that my brother can live well, even if he can’t be by my side, at least he is still fine.

I don't want him to be alone when he was alive, and in the end he had to lie alone in the cold coffin!

Seeing me almost collapsed in pain, Qinghan's face also showed a painful expression. He was silent for a while before hugging me and whispering: "Then what should I say?"

“…”

"How do I do to make you less painful?"

“…”

"Qingying, haven't you ever thought about why your brother would leave at this time?"

I looked at him with tears in my eyes.

Qinghan said, "He has no choice."

“…”

"He did everything he could."

“…”

"Even if it is Xichuan and Yan family, such heavy burdens, wars in the Central Plains, peace talks with the court, he can easily do so many complicated things, but there are some things, some people, no matter how hard he works, he can't do it or get it."

“…”

"Do you know that kind of passion full of heart is the pain of being extinguished by fate?"

“…”

"What he can't fight for is perhaps not people and things, but fate."

“…”

"At this time, the continuation of life is actually a pain for him. Just like your mother, she may not be able to leave the Sanjiang Dam for so many years, but after leaving there, the world she has to face is a world she is not willing to face."

“…”

"The person she was thinking about could not face."

“…”

"Even if she survived and left Sanjiang Dam, such a life would not be happy for her."

“…”

"It's a kind of disaster."

“…”

"At this time, perhaps leaving is a kind of relief."

“…”

"You want him to stay, but have you ever thought how painful it would be for him to stay?"

After hearing his words, I couldn't say a word. Only tears poured out again like a dam, wetting my whole face. My crying was finally buried in his arms, but it was kept in the wind and rain...

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After that night, I fell ill almost without surprise.

It was raining in the middle of the night, and it was the ice rain in winter. It was wind that had been blown for so long, so it would be strange if I was not sick. Not only me, but also my coldness, but compared to me, who was almost unconscious with a high fever, his condition was slightly better.

But even though I was unconscious, I still heard Pei Yuanhao whispering to blame him when he came to visit him: "How can you let her do this?"

“…”

"I always thought you were a person who knew the importance of the matter, but you actually—"

“…”

"Her health is not good!"

Qinghan's nose was still blocked when he opened his mouth, and his nasal sound seemed to be very loud, and he said, "I know."

“…”

"But at this time, I would rather let her fall ill, so that she would not have to suffer so much."

“…”

"In such a short time, she lost two relatives. Although she seemed very calm during her time in Bishan, it was because she and her mother had been separated for a long time. In fact, she was used to leaving her mother's life, but the emotional pain was not so easy to heal. Now, it was Yan Qingchen again-"

“…”

"You really want her to face the pain of her two relatives' deaths in a clear way?"

“…”

"Although she is strong, she is really not as strong as you think."

When Pei Yuanhao heard these words, he didn't say anything else. The room fell into a long silence. When I was drowsy and almost fell asleep again, I heard Qinghan say in a low voice: "You're the best, remember this all the time."

I don’t know if it was soothed by his low and strong nasal sound. I slept very calmly. Although I inevitably felt sad in my dreams, I finally got a long and stable sleep. When I woke up, I felt much better.

When I opened my eyes, I saw Aunt Hong sitting by the bed, her eyes were covered with red bloodshot and swelling.

When she saw me wake up, she immediately rushed over happily: "Miss!"

I spoke, my throat burned: "Aunt Hong?"

She immediately said, "Is it uncomfortable? You have been burning for two days, and your throat must have been burned out. I'll pour you a cup of tea."

After saying that, she went to pour me a cup of tea, which was cold, but at this time, I drank more than half a cup, and I became more awake, and then looked up at her: "Aunt Hong, are you always guarding me here?"

She sighed and said in a crying voice: "Miss, you have been sick these days, which scared me."

“…”

"The head of the family is gone. If something happens to you again, then I-I really can't survive!"

As she said that, she started to cry.

I leaned against the head of the bed, looked at her aggrieved and helpless look, and gently reached out to wipe her tears, and said softly: "Aunt Hong, don't worry, I, I won't have anything to do."

“…”

"Qingchen is gone, how can I let myself have something to do?"

Speaking of this, my tears fell again.

Seeing me like this, Aunt Hong was even more sad and could hardly help crying. But looking at my pale face and unswerving eyes, she finally gritted her teeth and forced the grief in her heart, reached out to support me and said, "Are you better now?"

After two days of illness, my body was still soft. I tried to get up and asked, "Where is Qinghan?"

"Young Master Liu, he is sick too."

“Is it serious?”

"It's much better than the eldest lady. He's just a cold wind and he's not so sad after taking the medicine. Fortunately, he and Master Chou are taking care of the family's affairs these two days, otherwise-"

"Wei Yang."

"Yes, thanks to him staying at home these days."

As Aunt Hong said, he leaned into my ear and whispered: "After the head of the family left, some people were not very at ease, and they wanted to make something happen openly and secretly. Fortunately, he was there."

I looked up at Aunt Hong: "He, can he suppress those people?"

Aunt Hong said: "Actually, Young Master Chou stayed for a long time when he came to Yan's house. He had been with the head of the family and understood some things, and he looked like that!"

Speaking of this, my heart hopped slightly.

Yes, Wei Yang looks like his father.

Facing such a face, those people are somewhat worried.

I nodded: "Thank you for your hard work. Have you taken care of all the family affairs?"

Aunt Hong shook her head and said, "Everything is fine, but some big things need to be used to print the letter from the head of the family. She has to wait for the eldest lady to come back."

"My family leader prints a letter?"

I turned to look at her in surprise: "Where did I come from the head of the family seal?"

When Aunt Hong said this, her eyes turned red again: "The head of the family made an explanation before her death. She said that the head of the family had already handed over the hand of the eldest lady, and it made us impatient these days. The eldest lady will definitely come after the New Year. By that time, the eldest lady will make the decision on everything."

“…”

I was stunned for a moment, then turned around and subconsciously reached out and picked up the sachet hanging on my body - what Qingchen gave it to me when I left the Yan family.

As soon as I saw this sachet, Aunt Hong's breathing became heavier. I used my soft fingers to disassemble it for a while before finally disassembling the sachet and pouring it down. A heavy thing fell into the palm of my hand.

Print letter.
To be continued...