Just as I opened my eyes wide and looked down at Miaoyan, she seemed to have noticed something and reached out to shake it in front of me.

"Mom, what's wrong with your eyes?"

My eyes are gone.

In fact, I have realized it since last night, and it was only now that I have completely confirmed that my eyes were broken, not completely blind, but I could still see some blurry shadows and feel the light. However, my daughter's face, which was close to me, was no longer visible.

I had this experience before. It was the first time I followed Pei Yuanhao to the south of the Yangtze River. I was caught by those thieves and was injured. My eyes were briefly blind for a while. It was also that time that I encountered Qinghan for the first time.

I don't know how long I will be blind this time.

Or will it always be...?

For some reason, I felt no sadness in my heart. There was indeed no one caring about the small pain after the severe pain. I was so calm that I didn't even breathe. But when my daughter became more anxious and hugged me and shook it hard, I said softly: "Mom just looked a little blurry, it's okay."

I gasped when I heard Miaoyan: "Mom, your eyes are - blind?"

"Light!"

Pei Yuanhao, who was standing aside, was also extremely shocked. He said, "You can't see your eyes, why don't you tell me?"

I told you, is it useless?

On this vast snowy field, what other miracle doctor can come to cure me?

Besides, I don't care anymore.

I looked at them calmly and said, "I'm fine."

It's not visible, it's fine.

He left, and there were not many people worthy of my gaze, not to mention that even the daughter in my arms was about to...

There are so many sadness in this world. I really don’t have strong enough to see it clearly one by one.

Although I couldn't see their faces clearly, I could feel the sad eyes of the father and daughter. I lowered my head and looked at Miaoyan and said, "Miaoyan, you accompany my mother out for a walk. I have something to say to you."

"……oh."

Her voice was trembling, and she obviously found that her mother was blind. This incident hit her a big blow, but I was so dull that nothing happened, which made her a little confused. She looked back at Pei Yuanhao, and Pei Yuanhao whispered: "Go with your mother, be careful."

Then she held my arms with both hands and carefully helped me walk forward.

So soon, I got such care.

Because I was not completely blind, there were still many shadows in front of me, which made me not as careful as an ordinary blind person. However, after walking a long stride and staggering one after another, I was still taught a lesson. I slowly used my toes to test the road ahead, and Miaoyan also guided me considerately.

After walking for a while, the sound of people and horse hooves in the camp were thrown far behind.

In the wilderness, there seemed to be only the mother and daughter, but neither of us spoke. As we walked, I heard Miaoyan sobbing in a low voice, sighed and said softly: "What's wrong? My mother said it's okay, why are you still crying?"

She looked up at me and choked and said, "Mom, why is this happening? Yesterday was fine?"

“…”

"What the hell happened?"

“…”

"Why did you look like you came back last night? My father didn't let me come in to see you."

“…”

"Today, your eyes are-"

Speaking of last night, my hands couldn't help but tremble slightly. I raised my hand and fumbled and touched her face, stroked it for a while, and then said softly: "Mom has lost some very important things, so last night, Mom was very uncomfortable."

"What? Can it be retrieved?"

"Look for it? I can't find it."

“…”

"But it doesn't matter, mom remembers it in her heart."

After all, she was not a naive and ignorant child. She also clearly heard the implication of what I said. She looked up at me and said softly: "Mom, what are you talking about?"

I took a deep breath, cut this topic to the point, and then said, "Miaoyan, I have another thing to tell you."

She was silent for a moment and said, "Is it the thing that Uncle King of the Iron Cavalry said yesterday?"

"Um……"

"Do you want me to marry Brother Yangchu?"

I was shocked, but she didn't expect that she already knew it, and immediately frowned: "Who told you? Yangchu? Or the Iron Cavalry King?"

"None of them said that I went back last night and thought about it for a long time before I figured it out."

“…”

"Uncle Wang of the Iron Cavalry said that to establish a union with his father, there must be someone who can unite. Is this a marriage right? If I marry Brother Yangchu, I will be the daughter-in-law of Uncle Wang of the Iron Cavalry Wang of the Iron Cavalry, and our two families will become in-laws. In this way, the father and him can trust each other, right?"

I really didn't expect that after this night, she realized this idea.

Just thinking about it this way, I felt that the dull pain in my chest became even worse.

This matter was not something we told her, but what she thought about. How was she suffering in her heart during the time she thought about it, and would she feel disappointed with us parents?

I whispered: "Miaoyan..."

"Mom, I'm right, right?"

"Yes, Miaoyan is very smart. You can figure it out as soon as you think about it."

Feeling that the child's breathing was heavier, I still stroked her face and said softly: "Miaoyan, as long as you don't want to, you can tell your mother that no matter what happens, she will not force you, let alone force you."

“…”

She didn't answer me immediately, but the quiet that came immediately did not seem to be thinking. I felt her breath tense, as if he was hesitating. After hesitating for a while, she said, "Mom, if I marry Brother Yangchu, it will be good for you and your father, and it will be good for everyone, right?"

Although she was just asking questions, this question almost made me heartbroken.

I got a jerk in my throat and said, "Didn't you tell me? Sometimes, you can be more willful and don't have to consider others in everything, you have to consider yourself."

“…”

"What you like and what you want is the most important thing."

She raised her head and seemed to smile at me, because at this time I felt the light in front of me was brighter. I heard her voice and said with a smile: "I know I am afraid that I will feel wronged and that I will be sad."

“…”

"But, mom, I'm no longer a child."

“…”

"I know very well that even if I am a princess, the child of my father and mother, there are some things that I can't get as much as I want."

“…”

"I already understood what the Iron Cavalry Uncle Wang meant yesterday. They were going to fight no matter what. The father wanted to return to the capital and regain his throne. The Iron Cavalry Uncle Wang wanted to enter Shengjing and seize the power to control Shengjing, and also wanted to fight."

“…”

"Brother Yangchu has also told me a lot these days. He said that fighting is of course not good, but at this point, many things must be settled, and only through war can it be pacified."

“…”

"So, the battle must be fought."

“…”

"But I'll forget it. If I were willing to marry Brother Yangchu, I would have fought many fewer battles and many people would have reduced casualties because of this, right?"

My throat was quacked and I couldn't speak at this time.

She held my hand, rubbed my cheeks on my palm, and said softly: "Mom, since you were a child, you have taught me that fighting is the most sinful thing in the world. It is a great merit to avoid war."

“…”

"Mom, do I want to do this merit?"

My hands were trembling, and my voice was trembling: "It is the Bodhisattva who does the merits. What kind of merits are you doing at a young age?"

She whispered, "But, my mother has a Bodhisattva heart."

“…”

“I have, too.”

“…”

"Mom, I hope the war in the world will end sooner. I hope that the refugees I saw on the road can return to their hometown earlier and hope that they can live a stable life."

“…”

"I hope my father and mother can have their own happiness."

"Mom," she took a deep breath and looked up at me: "I do."

A strong sorrow surged from my heart, and my eyes were so hot that I couldn't open it. Miaoyan let out a low voice and hurriedly said, "Mom, don't cry!"

She reached out to wipe my face, and it was so warm that I couldn't speak, and I just choked and held her hand.

My daughter is still so young, and even her hands are still tender.

However, she had to use her thin shoulders to shoulder such a burden.

What am I doing? I have never given her any motherly care since I was a child. When I finally met again, I should have pampered her well, but I said these words to her. Now, because of my teachings to her, she is willing to sacrifice herself on this grassland in exchange for the union between Pei Yuanhao and the Iron Cavalry King!

What the hell am I doing? What the hell am I doing?

At this moment, I could no longer hold on. The familiar colic on my chest once again made me hunch over. Miaoyan was so scared that he hurriedly hugged me, helplessly calling someone over. I reached out to hug her, and tears fell on her hair.

I cried and said, "Miaoyan, I'm sorry for you."

She trembled in shock and looked up at me: "Mom?"

"Mom, I'm sorry for you."

"Why do you say that? Why do you cry?"

"Miaoyan..."

"Mom, I'm fine. I'll be fine, and I'll be fine too. What I worry most now is my eyes."
Chapter completed!