"I said," I said softly, "even if he changes, I don't have to return to him, because he doesn't have the power to ask me to do this, and I have no obligation to wait for him to change it."

“…”

"We are strangers."

Speaking of this, I chuckled and said, "Even if you change it, I have no obligation to wait for you."

“…”

"We are strangers."

His breath twitched slightly, and after a while, he slowly said, "Are I and you strangers?"

I looked at him calmly and said, "Isn't it?"

“…”

He was silent for a long time, and said in a dry voice: "What I have experienced with you, and what I have experienced, do you think that I and you are just strangers?"

"Isn't everything we've experienced already over?"

“…”

“As for all this we are going through…and what?”

“…”

"Everyone outside is going through it with us."

He said, "So, I am no different to you, from everyone outside, right?"

"Of course not," I said seriously: "Your Majesty is responsible for the dreams of too many of us. The prosperous age we want to see needs you to create. This is also the reason why I ask Your Majesty to leave first when I meet those assassins today."

“…”

"Your Majesty, your life is indeed much more important than the lives of ordinary people."

“…”

"I hope you can live well and fulfill your dreams. By that day, even if I can't see them, I can feel and know that the era of our hope is finally coming."

His voice trembled slightly, and he said, "I hope that when such an era comes, you and I can stand side by side."

“…”

"Don't you understand that you are the only one who can stand shoulder to shoulder with me!"

“…”

I was silent for a long time and said lightly: "I swear to Nangong Lizhu, but I am no longer the same as I used to be. If Your Majesty wants me like this, I can follow my oath and return to you."

“…”

"But that's all."

After saying these words, I smiled faintly, calmly lowered my eyelashes, and my vision was dim. I had no idea what kind of mood he was or what kind of expression he was after listening to me saying these words, even if he was furious next, I would not be surprised.

However, he was so quiet that it didn't seem to exist.

The only thing that made me feel that he was still there was his hands, holding my arms all the time, trembling slightly at this time.

After a while, I heard his hoarse voice sounding in the dark light: "Why?"

“…”

"You tell him that even if he changes, you don't have to go back to him."

“…”

"You tell him that even if he changes, you have no obligation to wait for him."

“…”

"But you've returned to him."

“…”

"Didn't you forgive him for your confrontation with him day and night, even having a bed, getting up and lying on the same bed, have you been forgiven?"

“…”

"Why can't I?"

I said softly: "You are not him."

Pei Yuanhao's breathing was suffocated.

I said, "Your Majesty, it is your own business. You said you want to change it. Maybe the Queen and the Empress and the Empress in the Harem will benefit you in the future, but this benefit has nothing to do with me."

“…”

"No matter how you change it, it's not him."

He said in a hoarse voice: "So, no matter how I change it, you don't care; but if he says he wants to change it, you will forgive him."

I smiled bitterly: "Your Majesty, privilege is special, not everyone can have it."

“…”

"Just like some of the things I have said to His Majesty these days, and some of the things I have done, if it were in the past, I would have been locked up in the cold palace, or had it been killed long ago, right? But His Majesty has allowed me."

“…”

"Your Majesty can tolerate me. I think your Majesty understands that mood."

“…”

"You're right, I forgave him again, he didn't even change it. He lied to me again and left me behind again."

“…”

"But if—" When I said this, my throat choked slightly, and a hot warm current surged up, condensed and eyelashes, trembling slightly: "If he could come back, I would still be willing to forgive him."

“…”

"As long as he is willing to come back, everything will be fine."

“…”

"But no matter what kind of privilege I give him, he will not come back..."

His voice became cold and he slowly said, "So, your heart is dead, right?"

I smiled faintly and said, "Your Majesty, you and I have come to this point, so why bother to be a child again? There is no way to give up when you can't choose. I still have room for my choice now, and my choice is already very clear."

He didn't speak anymore.

This dark, without a trace of light suddenly fell into an unspeakable opportunity, and I couldn't even hear his breath.

However, his hand was still holding my hand, but the little temperature he felt just now disappeared at this time.

After a while, his hand let go of mine.

I had just breathed a sigh of relief, but I felt the cold fingertips approaching my cheek. Before I could react, he had already stroked my face with his hands. The cold temperature once again made me tremble, and I heard him murmuring, "I understand."

“…”

"I understand."

“…”

For some reason, these words have been accumulated in my heart for a long time, and finally told him today. I originally thought that I would let go of everything and have no regrets. At least there was something between me and him, and I could finally let go. But after I actually said it, my mood was a little overwhelmed, especially when he felt that his breathing and heartbeat seemed to have stopped. When the cold fingertips touched my cheeks, the chill penetrated into my heart.

What will happen to him?

I finally couldn't bear it and retreated a little while trembling.

Feeling my retreat, he chuckled and said, "You don't have to be afraid of me. You are right. It's already this time. I and you don't have to be like children."

“…”

"I can indeed tolerate you to say these words, and only you can say these words, I can tolerate them."

“…”

"I can't understand this feeling now."

“…”

"But Qingying, do you understand one thing? I understand this feeling now. Even in the future, I will tolerate you because of this feeling."

“…”

"But you won't have this kind of mood again."

His words were like a knife, piercing into my heart.

He said, "Do you know that you will never be in such a mood again, you will never be such a person who will make you sad, make you miserable, and make you miserable. No matter how sad or painful you are, you still have to forgive him."

“…”

"He won't be back."

“…”
To be continued...