I whispered: "Miaoyan..."
Miaoyan seemed to be unable to help it, and whimpered softly, "I, I know some things that cannot be taken care of. I also know that the father and father must fight. They all told me that they can only live one of them in the world."
Speaking of this, she reached out and grabbed my clothes and cried, "Mom, will my dad be killed?"
“…”
"Will you kill my dad?"
As she said this, I didn't even give her any response. She was already crying a little uncontrollable. I felt big and hot tears falling on me, and soon soaking my clothes. She was still crying, and even cried a little breathless.
I only realized how long this stone had been pressed in her heart.
It even turned into fear. She was so scared that she could no longer bear it when she mentioned it.
She was afraid that we would kill Pei Yuanxiu.
She was afraid that the person who raised her would be killed by her parents.
This may be the most unbearable thing in the world, even in the hearts of the people, but it happened to her and may even become a fact.
I may not be able to fully understand her fear and helplessness, but listening to my daughter crying around me, the pain was like a sharp sword, penetrated straight into my heart.
I whispered: "Miaoyan..."
"Mom," she grabbed the clothes on my chest and asked again, "Will you kill my dad?"
“…”
I was silent for a long time and said inconspicuously: "In the eyes of many people, he must die."
“…”
"Everyone won't be willing to keep him."
"Where are you?"
Miaoyan still asked me tightly, and refused to relax at all: "Does mom think so?"
“…”
"If one day, my father's life falls into my mother's hands, you will--"
Speaking of this, I felt her trembling with force.
That terrible imagination had already knocked her down before she could even tell her.
She couldn't say it.
And I lay there blankly, and after a long time, I still didn't say a word. I just reached out and stroked her face gently and took her into my arms. Miaoyan twitched gently, and the sob sound did not calm down until very late.
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The next day, it was the wedding of Miaoyan and Yangchu.
According to the customs of the Central Plains, weddings are held at night, but on the grassland, weddings are held during the day. And they also have many complex rituals, so early in the morning, servants come here to dress up Miaoyan.
This time, their dressing is their rule to win the Beijing.
I couldn't see it, so I just sat next to the dressing table, leaning on crutches with both hands, listening to the messy footsteps of the maids walking around, and listening to their careful dressing up for Miyan.
And Miaoyan was sitting so peacefully for the first time.
After a while, I finally heard a maid say, "Okay."
I raised my head.
The weather today was not very good, but because someone came here in advance and put on many candles, the light still dyed my eyes. I could faintly feel the familiar outline in front of me, and I was wearing a little joyful red light.
I whispered: "Miyu."
"mother."
She stood up and walked up to me. I reached out to take her hands and felt that she was wearing a very heavy dress, and there seemed to be many heavy ornaments on her wrists.
When I reached out to touch her face, I could feel that she was wearing a heavy hair crown on her head, and the drooping things were also heavy.
I smiled and said, "My Miaoyan must be very beautiful."
"What's so beautiful..." Even if you can't see it, you can feel her pouting and shook her head. The heavy crown on her head made a crackling sound. The sound of jewelry collisions. She said resentfully: "I'm so heavy that my neck is about to be broken."
I smiled and said, "This is to let you know that the future path is not for you to walk alone. You have to bear your own responsibilities, of course it is different from when you were a little girl."
She calmed down when she heard this, as if she had looked at her outfits again, and then said, "Is that true?"
I said, "This is what my mother expects from you."
Hearing me say this, she took a deep breath: "Mom."
I felt a little sad. In fact, this sadness has been lingering with me like a nightmare since last night, but I covered it up very well. I only coughed lightly and cleared my throat, then asked the maids around me: "What are you going to do now?"
One of the maids came forward and said, "I want to invite the bride to worship God."
Miaoyan asked in surprise: "You still have to worship God? What kind of God?"
The maid said something, and it seemed to be some ancient gods they worshipped. Because they were surprised by the culture of the Central Plains, we have never heard of it, and we didn't understand what she said.
Miaoyan said, "What's there to worship?"
I asked the maids to retreat first, wait for us at the door, and then said to Miaoyan: "Miaoyan, in the future, you will be a part of this place. The gods here protect the people on the grassland, and they will naturally protect you. Let's go and worship, it's okay."
"Mom, do you believe in God? Do you really believe in God, will God protect us?"
I smiled and said, "Mom may not believe in God, but I am willing to have a sense of awe."
Miaoyan was stunned: "Aweful heart?"
I nodded and said, "The court - whether it is the court in the Central Plains or the court in Shengjing, has their laws, but all laws can only control people in behavior and not do bad things. It can be said that it is a kind of back-come; only if there is awe in the heart, people can truly abandon evil and follow good from the heart, this is the first arrival."
“…”
"You marry Yangchu, and you are his wife. Yangchu is the only son of the Iron Cavalry King. The Iron Face King has no descendants for the time being, and there are only these two kings left in Shengjing. Have you ever thought about the future situation?"
Miaoyan was shocked suddenly.
I have actually thought about these words for a long time and have not told her that one is that she does not want her daughter’s wedding to be tainted with the smell of politics, and the other is that she does not want her to be tainted with such thoughts too early.
However, from the few words just now, I also understood that although my daughter is sensible, she is really just a child in some things.
But she married Yangchu, and she must understand.
After a somewhat depressing silence, I heard Miaoyan shivering slightly, her throat was quacking, and she whispered softly: "Mom, I mean, I may be, yes--"
Chapter completed!