Thinking that Senior Tingyun might have been with someone else, Qingyu could no longer bear it and finally cried.
Raindrops fell on her face, covering up her tears. The sound of rain was as dense as keystrokes, covering up her sobs.
But the huge disappointment and pain in her heart could not be washed away no matter how heavy the rain was. It weighed heavily on her heart, making her unable to breathe.
Happy Qingyu, strong Qingyu, crying like this for the first time in my life.
Sad to the point of collapse, disappointed to the point of despair.
She is like a small boat drifting in the sea, sailing in the direction of the lighthouse without hesitation.
If the lighthouse goes out, where should she go?
The raindrops kept hitting her body and face, and soon her clothes were soaked through, making them wet and clinging to her body, chilling her bones.
But Qingyu felt that her heart was colder than her body. The uncontrollable sadness made her ignore the coldness in her body.
She originally planned to take a taxi while walking, but now she completely forgot about taking a taxi.
She just cried and walked forward, as if if she kept walking, she could get out of this huge rain curtain and out of this boundless sadness.
Qingyu walked for two or three stops until an empty taxi stopped beside her. The driver rolled down the window and asked her if she could get in, and she woke up as if from a dream.
Sitting in the back seat of the taxi again, Qingyu leaned listlessly on the backrest, silently shedding tears and occasionally sobbing.
The sad look made the driver unable to bear it:
"Little girl, what's wrong with you? Running in the heavy rain without holding an umbrella or sitting in the car?"
Qingyu is usually very cheerful, but now, she feels miserable and doesn’t want to answer.
When the driver saw that she didn't answer, he continued talking to himself:
"It's just that I can't learn my homework, there are conflicts between classmates, or I like a boy and I'm sad.
"These things, if you look at them in a few years, they won't be a big deal. So, don't take them too seriously, and they'll be fine."
Will it not be a problem if we look back in a few years?
No way.
Senior Tingyun is her obsession and the only wish she tries her best to realize!
If one day she can be with Senior Tingyun, then she will not be afraid of any storm.
However, if she has no fate with Senior Tingyun no matter what, then it seems that there is nothing left for her to chase after.
Although she felt that what the driver said was completely different from what she thought, Qingyu could still appreciate his kindness, and she politely said thank you to the driver.
That day, Qingyu came home soaked to the skin, which shocked her mother.
She urged Qingyu to take a bath and change clothes quickly, and made hot ginger syrup for Qingyu to drink.
She wasn't too worried. Qingyu's physical fitness was always very good. She should be fine after covering her head and sweating.
Qingyu thinks so too.
However, maybe a person's emotions can affect the body too much. This rain actually made her sick.
In the afternoon of this day, Qingyu felt tired. He didn't eat much dinner and went to bed early.
She was holding the cat doll, thinking about Senior Zingyun's confession to the girl he liked on the radio, and she was still sad.
She buried her face in the cat doll, shed tears silently, and finally cried herself to sleep.
While sleeping until midnight, she developed a fever and felt hot and cold. She was so uncomfortable that she didn't even have the strength to get up and take antipyretics.
She frowned and tossed for a while, then fell asleep again.
Qingyu's mother was a little worried when she saw that she hadn't eaten much for dinner. In the middle of the night, she quietly walked in to see her, but she heard her mumbling something.
Qingyu's mother walked to the bedside, reached out and touched Qingyu's forehead, and was startled.
So hot!
She got up and went out, poured a glass of warm water and came back, reaching out to shake her shoulders: "Qingyu, are you feeling uncomfortable? Get up and drink some water first!"
Qingyu opened her eyes in confusion and looked at her mother, tears welling up in her eyes, and she said aggrievedly:
"Senior, are you really with your senior? But I haven't had time to come to you yet!"
Qingyu's mother panicked when she heard this: "What senior? Qingyu, are you confused?"
Qingyu's tears fell: "Senior, I'm actually quite good. I'm still trying to make myself better! Can you just wait for me?"
I’m so burned that I can’t even recognize anyone!
Qingyu's mother was frightened and quickly stood up to call Qingyu's father.
The two of them quickly drove Qingyu to the emergency department of the hospital, where they were given intravenous fluids throughout the night.
The next day was Monday, but Qingyu obviously couldn't go to class, and she fell into a deep sleep.
Qingyu's mother came in with a basin, stirred up a towel and wiped her face. After wiping, she turned around and saw the bag she carried yesterday on the desk.
I don’t think I saw her mobile phone. Is it still in her bag? It rained so heavily yesterday, so don’t let it get soaked.
She put the basin on the ground, unzipped her bag, and took out everything inside.
Mobile phones, keys, tissues...
There is also a notebook, should this be put in the school bag?
Qingyu's mother walked towards her schoolbag with her notebook, flipped through it, and stopped.
On the first page of the notebook, there is a poem copied. Judging from the writing style, it is a translated foreign poem.
The content of the poem is nothing special, but it is not the font of Qingyu. The font is thin, strong and solemn, and it should be written by a boy.
Her mother's sensitivity made her notice something unusual, and she immediately turned to the second page.
This page is in the font of Qingyu, and a poem has been copied:
"Breaking through the Huanxi Sands" Five Dynasties·Li Jing
Hand-rolled pearls with jade hooks, locking the heavy building with the regret of spring. Who is the master of the falling flowers in the wind? Thinking long and hard.
The blue bird does not convey the message from the clouds, and the lilacs are empty and sad in the rain. Looking back at the green waves of the three Chu twilight, it connects to the flow of the sky.
Qingyu's mother doesn't understand poetry. She only thinks this poem is beautiful, but she doesn't know what it means or what feelings it expresses.
But when I see the words "hate", "sitting" and "sorrow", I still know that they express unhappy emotions.
If Qingyu's father hadn't been at home, she would have taken her notebook and asked him.
She continued to flip through the page, and all the words on the back were written in the font of Qingyu. They were either memorizing poems, lyrics or movie lines.
Bits and pieces, seemingly unrelated, but all reveal deep emotions.
She turned another page, her brows jumped, and she was shocked by the title of the poem.
This is a foreign poem, written by Mrs. Browning from England, and its title is "How I Love You".
"How do I love you? Let me calculate it one by one.
I love you with all my heart can reach
Depth, breadth, and height
Just like I am exploring the existence and profound divine grace of gods in the mysterious world.
Whether it’s day or night,
I love you forever,
Just like the supply of food cannot be interrupted every day.
I love you purely and will not be confused by flattery;
I love you bravely, just like fighting for justice.
I love you with the pain of the past and the loyalty of childhood,
Love you with tears, laughter and all of life!
If God is willing, please bear witness for me:
Even if I die,
Chapter completed!