Twenty minutes later, the taxi stopped on the side of the road next to Pingzhou Bridge. Li Xue scanned the QR code to pay, hurriedly said thank you to the driver, opened the door and ran towards the bridge.
It snowed just last night, not too much.
By this morning, the thin layer of snow on the roads and sidewalks had been trampled and gone.
But on the rarely used Pingzhou Bridge, the falling snow formed a thin layer of ice.
Lancheng has the Qingshui River running through the city, and there are six bridges on the river.
Compared with other bridges, Pingzhou Bridge is neither a transportation hub nor a famous attraction.
It is adjacent to the water platform of Riverside Park. In summer, people enjoying the cool air often pass by here.
But it is winter now, and no one comes to play on the waterfront platform, so the bridge is empty and no one can be seen passing by.
Li Xue ran for a while, then slipped and fell heavily on the steps.
Fortunately, I wore thick clothes in winter, but the fall hurt a lot, but I didn’t get hurt.
She stood up with her hands on the ground, not daring to run anymore, and walked forward as fast as possible.
She soon saw Yu Qian.
The bridge railings, which are more than half the height of a person, form two barriers to protect passing pedestrians inside.
But at this time, Yu Qian had climbed outside the bridge railing, standing on a protruding part of the bridge less than twenty centimeters, hooked his hands on the railing to the right, leaned forward, and looked down at the surging river.
The wind blew her long hair wildly. She looked like a dry leaf on a branch in winter, which would be swept away by the wind at any time.
When Li Xue walked less than two meters away from her, Yu Qian turned around and said, "Sister Xiaoxue, don't go any further."
Li Xue did not dare to approach her anymore and stopped: "Whatever you want to say, just say it and I will listen carefully, just like in the consulting room."
Yu Qian looked at her and tears suddenly fell:
"I've told you everything. But so what if I say it? Still nothing can be changed! What happened can't be erased. You can never get what you want!"
Many times, when people see people who are discouraged and hopeless because of problems such as failure in college, falling out of love, unemployment, etc., they often find it incomprehensible:
Why can some people not think about this little setback? Everyone has experienced these things to one degree or another, why are others not as vulnerable as they are?
But perhaps, these people are not just unable to think about this incident. They have experienced many, many difficult-to-digest things before, and this incident is just the last straw that breaks the camel's back.
Perhaps, these people are really more fragile than most people. But their fragility usually has other causes besides their own personality factors.
For example, Yu Qian seemed to be troubled by her boyfriend's cheating and breakup, but in fact, she had experienced many extremely unpleasant things before that:
Yu Qian's mother gave birth to a child out of wedlock when she was less than twenty years old. Yu Qian did not know his father since he was a child, and suffered a lot of ridicule and bullying.
And her mother naturally suffered more discrimination and ridicule because of this incident. She couldn't handle these things, and she had nowhere to vent her grievances.
In addition, it is really difficult to raise a child alone, which leads to her lack of patience with Yu Qian.
When Yu Qian was a child, as long as she was disobedient or did not do well, she would be scolded, scolded, and sometimes beaten.
This experience developed her inferiority complex and cowardly character.
Before doing something, what she thinks about is not how to do it well, but what kind of reprimand and ridicule she will receive if she doesn't do it well.
As you can imagine, if you do things with such a heavy psychological burden, you will not be able to do anything well.
Poor academic performance, difficulty in interpersonal communication, not good at sports, and no talent.
The only things that are considered good are the skillful hands developed through years of helping with housework, and the good temper developed through years of forbearance.
At school, she is like a transparent person. The teacher can hardly call her by name, and her classmates often forget to call her during group activities. She also has no friends.
In this way, after meeting her boyfriend, she immediately threw herself into him like a moth to a flame.
According to her account, before they broke up, her boyfriend was very good to her, and their relationship was very good, so she couldn't understand why her boyfriend changed his mind.
But it sounded to Li Xue that the boy didn't care about her very much and didn't care about her as much as she said.
She has never been treated gently, so when she meets her boyfriend, as long as he doesn't scold her or ridicule her, and treats her with a normal attitude, she will feel that he is very, very good.
The reason why they never quarreled was because of her pleasing personality, which made her walk on eggshells when getting along with him, for fear of saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing to make him angry, or that he would ignore her.
But no matter how careful she was, the boy still left her.
Li Xue guessed that maybe it was Yu Qian's walking on thin ice attitude that made the boy feel boring and heavy.
In love, as well as in all other interpersonal relationships, the humble and tolerant party cannot exchange for the feelings they want. On the contrary, because of this humility, the other party will despise and cherish it less.
But Yu Qian couldn't understand this. She didn't realize that her please-pleaser personality was not helpful in forming healthy interpersonal relationships.
She only thinks, why would he leave her when she is so good to her boyfriend?
Her boyfriend's departure exacerbated her negative perception of herself:
She is indeed unlovable. No matter how careful she is, no one will love her!
She is indeed stupid and incompetent. No matter how hard she tries, she can't accomplish anything!
She has always felt that she is worthless and should not exist.
So when something, such as her boyfriend cheating on her, further arouses her sense of worthlessness, she may have self-destructive thoughts or even take action!
Li Xue stood beside her, thinking about the words to enlighten her:
"Some of what you just said is right. What has happened in the past cannot be changed. But Yu Qian, the future can be changed!"
Yu Qian shook his head, tears streaming down his face:
"Yes, for some people, the future can be changed, but not for me. I am too incompetent and can't change anything."
Li Xue looked at her, her eyes full of tenderness and understanding:
"You said one less word - you think. You think, you can't change the future."
Yu Qian said angrily: "Yes, I think so, but does it make any difference?"
"Yes." Li Xue nodded firmly:
"You feel that the future cannot be changed. This is just an imagination of yours. The future has not arrived yet, and you don't know what the future will be like now."
She did not rush to persuade Yu Qian to give up the idea of ​​committing suicide, but calmly discussed her thoughts with her.
Chapter completed!