Li Xue shook her head gently.
Tingyun hesitated for a moment, but decided to take a strong dose of medicine.
He looked at Li Xue and asked seriously:
"Senior sister, when you come back this time and get such a result, are you regretting it? Do you feel that if you had promised me in the first place, you wouldn't have to suffer so much?"
Li Xue's eyes trembled obviously, like a wave in the water. After a long time, she nodded.
Tingyun asked again:
"Then, if I tell you, your judgment was right at the beginning. If you had agreed at the time, we would not be happy later.
"So now, will you feel more relieved?"
Li Xue's lips trembled slightly, and she forced a smile: "I understand, no one can bear so many negative emotions!"
Tingyun shook his head: "It's not just you."
Li Xue looked at him questioningly.
"Senior sister, besides not wanting to bring me negative emotions, was there another reason why you didn't agree to my promise?"
Li Xue's eyes flickered, waiting for him to continue.
Tingyun continued to look at her with that penetrating gaze:
"In fact, you have never believed, or never dared to believe, my or other people's feelings for you.
"You don't believe that someone will like you after knowing your unhappiness. You don't believe that someone will always like you.
Tingyun's tone was gentle, but his words were as sharp as a knife, peeling off her strong shell and pointing directly at the weakness in her heart:
"Senior sister, you are actually very unsure of yourself emotionally!"
Li Xue looked at him blankly, the water in her eyes could no longer be stopped, and suddenly poured down.
Who would have thought that the smart, beautiful and outstanding Li Xue, who is pursued by so many people, would not be confident?
But she is indeed, as Tingyun said, not confident, especially emotionally!
She can never get rid of one thought:
Others like her because they don't understand her. Once they understand the real her - the unhappy her, no one will like her anymore!
Therefore, her unwillingness to accept Tingyun was not just because she did not want to bring negative emotions to him.
Also because she didn't want to face the situation she imagined:
Tingyun was exhausted physically and mentally, but he still forced himself to stay with her. Or, if he really couldn't hold on, he took the initiative to break up.
If that happens, she can't bear it, so she would rather not start!
Unless she can heal herself.
After studying psychology, Li Xue understood the cause of this lack of confidence: that is, the influence of her original family.
For a child, the family environment he grew up in affects the way he conducts himself in the future.
The relationship with same-sex parents affects the relationship with friends in the future, especially same-sex friends.
The relationship with parents of the opposite sex affects the attitude towards love in the future.
Li Xue grew up in such a big family, and was used to being tolerant. She was also used to hiding her emotions so as not to worry her mother. In the future, when getting along with other people, she was used to being emotionally restrained.
She was not sure whether her father cared about her, and when she grew up, she lacked confidence in love.
Li Xue, who was stabbed in the heart, could no longer suppress her emotions. Tears fell like raindrops one after another, and her shoulders trembled slightly.
Tingyun looked at it, hesitated for a moment, stood up and bent down slightly, raised his right hand and gently pressed her left shoulder to show comfort.
The sun shines in from the window, casting their shadows on the sliding door.
The sliding door is a Japanese paper door, with a wooden frame dividing the plain paper into squares.
At this time, Qingyu was standing in the corridor across from the door, looking at the shadows they cast on the door.
Li Xue's shadow swayed slightly, as if she was crying. Ting Yun put his hand on her shoulder, was he comforting her?
Only an extremely close relationship can comfort each other like this...
Qingyu's heart sank, as if she was sinking into deep water. She turned around and walked out along the corridor, never looking back.
So she didn't see that the moment she turned around, Tingyun's hand had left Li Xue's shoulder and sat back in her seat.
Tingyun sat opposite Li Xue and spoke again: "Actually, on this point, I am the same."
Li Xue was slightly surprised and looked at him questioningly.
Tingyun didn't want to say any more, but just concluded:
"Knowing all this, I am even more sure that the two of us are not suitable for each other. Senior sister, your original decision was right.
"In the beginning, you and I were attracted to each other unconsciously, probably because of our similarities.
"But now, I am very sure that two people like this cannot be together. I believe you also understand."
Li Xue's eyes shrank, as if she had been stabbed in the heart.
Tingyun added: "Sorry, I know it's cruel to say this. But, this is also the fastest and most effective way!"
If you cover the wound, it will never heal. Only by cutting out the flesh and treating the sore can it heal.
"Senior, that's all I can say, and I can't do anything for you. I hope you can rely on your own strength and get better soon!"
Li Xue smiled at him with tears in her eyes: "Thank you, I will."
"Then, I'll leave first."
Tingyun stood up, bowed slightly to her, turned around, opened the sliding door and walked out, closing the door for her like last time.
Like last time, Li Xue watched him being isolated outside the paper door, knowing in her heart that this was the last conversation between them.
From now on, there will be no possibility of any intersection between them!
Tingyun walked for a while, stopped, called Senior Ling Xiao, briefly recounted today's conversation with her, and asked her to pay more attention to Senior Li Xue in the past few days.
Then, he hung up the phone and continued walking forward.
While he was on the phone, Qingyu had already left the gate of the tea house, hailed a taxi and headed home.
Tingyun had no idea about this. He just walked and sorted out his thoughts.
Li Xue lacked a sense of security emotionally because of her father's negligence and because of her mother's departure.
They both long for feelings and avoid feelings.
Therefore, Li Xue did not dare to accept his feelings.
Therefore, once he is frustrated, he will give up the relationship.
If you compare the human heart to a cup, compare the sense of security to the water in the cup.
Then their cups are not full, so there is nothing extra to share with each other.
They can either fill their own cups through self-growth.
Or you are lucky enough to meet someone with a full cup and someone with abundant love ability.
Senior Liyue, if you haven’t met such a person yet, you can only grow by yourself.
So today, he took a strong dose of medicine to completely break her illusions and let her understand that there is no need to regret. No matter what she chooses, the result will be the same.
In this way, she can come out completely.
As for himself, at the age when he was pursuing Li Xue, his cup was indeed dissatisfied.
But after so many years of self-growth, his cup has gradually filled up, and he no longer needs to seek psychological support, but loneliness is always inevitable.
Chapter completed!