I don’t know anything about what happened next.

I was suffering from a vicious illness and felt that my whole body was constantly reincarnating between the steamer hell and the iceberg hell. Sometimes the cold penetrated into my bones and I shivered, and sometimes my whole body felt hot, as if all the water had been lost, and I was slowly... Slowly being roasted into a shriveled mummy...

The situation is still getting worse.

Every time late at night, the festering wounds on my body would erupt, as if countless ants were gnawing at me, and the pain was unbearable.

Under extreme pain, I would wake up instinctively, as if I had done too many things that were harmful to God, and God was going to punish me in this way. I couldn't muster any strength in my body, and my throat was dry and I couldn't speak. The sound and the dry and lack of physical strength were not enough to make me move. I could only open my empty eyes and stare at the ceiling. In fact, I could no longer see anything clearly. When the light shone into my eyes, in an instant, It turned into billions of bright spots, a hazy white patch, covering up the brilliance of the original world.

Sometimes, my thinking that has become sluggish will tell me that there must be someone around me, but what can someone do? I can't express the pain, let alone feel the other person's existence, as if I have been abandoned by the whole world, and there will be no day left. I was enduring endless pain every night.

Just like this, day after day, day after day...

I don't know how much time has passed. The pain seems to have no end and no hope.

Life has become a burden to me.

If I could still speak, I would definitely beg Lao Bai and let him give me a break, but my throat is too dry and my vocal cords are like a rusty machine. They have stopped running long ago and I can't utter a complete sentence at all.

Finally one day, this kind of patience reached the critical point, and I really couldn't bear it anymore. When the pain hit me again, I kept trying to control my body, almost overdrawing my life potential, to mobilize my body's dry physical strength.

Gradually, I moved a little bit...

This made me ecstatic, at least I saw hope, so I kept trying and moved to the right little by little.

If I remember correctly, on my right is the head of the kang. It has sharp edges and corners, not like the top of the kang. It is also covered with a layer of mattress. If someone bumps into it, maybe... it's enough.

Some people say that suicide is a cowardly act.

But I really can't stand it anymore. I was punished by God when I killed Longzimai. I was planted on the ground like a radish and exposed to the sun. The pain I endured is not as good as what I am experiencing now. This has completely surpassed human beings. The endurance limit is reached.

I never thought that sometimes seeking death would be so difficult. Fortunately, after constant attempts, I got close to the stove and I could feel it because my face was pressed against a slightly cold surface. The place is very comfortable and must be on the edge of the kang.

I lay here, motionless, and the pain from the many wounds on my body became stronger and stronger, but I didn't struggle anymore, and I was recovering a little bit of physical strength. When I felt about the same, I pushed forward with all my strength.

There was not a single hesitation throughout the entire process.

Boom!

I felt my head hit a sharp edge, and the clear sound of bone cracking echoed in my eardrums, but I didn't feel the slightest pain. Compared with everything I had endured in the past few days, the pain of suicide was really nothing.

What's up.

I fell to the ground, and streams of heat flowed along my temples. I could feel my life passing by. The heat in my body calmed down, and I walked towards the coldness and darkness little by little. However, the corners of my lips involuntarily raised, revealing a smile.

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Is it finally... the end?

Maybe this is okay...

This was a slow process towards death, but I didn't have the slightest fear and was calm from beginning to end.

Just when I was getting more and more tired, my eyelids were getting heavier and heavier, and I was about to close my eyes, a figure suddenly appeared in the countless light spots in front of me.

It's just that I can't see the other person's face clearly, I can only see a rough outline.

Is this an illusion before death?!

Some people say that before a person is about to die, he will see his true heart and the person he loves most.

I'm a rough person and don't have such a delicate mind. I just feel that everyone around me is extremely precious. I never have the answer to who is the one I love the most.

So, I struggled to open my eyes, trying hard to see clearly the face of the person I love most in my life.

Snap...

A drop of cold water fell on my face and splashed.

Are those...tears?

The next moment, I felt myself being lifted up and falling into a warm embrace. The hazy face was closer to me, but I still couldn't see her face clearly.

A delicate and soft hand gently pressed my wound, and then...I heard a sound.

The sound was ethereal and sweet, untainted by dust. To me, it was like a fairy voice that brought me back to the human world.

"You have become so light, like a handful of dry bones..."

The other party was sighing softly, but her voice was slightly trembling, which more or less gave her a hint of fireworks: "I'm sorry, I ignored your feelings, I was too careless, I thought you were sleeping every day,

Only now do I know...it turns out that you are constantly suffering torture every day.

I'm really sorry. It was me who pushed you to this point. I really didn't expect this, nor did I expect that you would be so affectionate and strong, that you would lose your life, borrow your life, and now you are going to die again...

However, don’t be afraid, I will always be here, no matter what the cost, I will definitely bring you back!”

I was still trying to see the other person's appearance clearly, but my breathing became more and more rapid. It seemed that the oxygen in the air had been sucked out. No matter how much I breathed in, it was not enough. I could only breathe hard, breathe in, and breathe in all at once.

He actually choked, and his body became tense and twitched...

The man suddenly shook me hard and said loudly: "Wake up! I have never taken care of anyone like this in my life. You are the first one. Therefore, your life is mine. If I don't nod, you will

Don’t even think about dying!”

The feeling of suffocation became more and more intense, but my head became clear for a moment, and I suddenly thought - who is this person? He is so domineering and full of lies. If you take care of a person, his life is yours.

Already?

The next moment, the man suddenly let go of his hand and slapped me on the head. Wave after wave of cool air rushed into my body from the heavenly spirit.

Miraculously, my breathing suddenly became smoother, and even the wounds on my body suddenly became less painful. I just felt a little tired.

"Let's rest for a while..."

The man's voice was also a little tired: "Sleep peacefully. I will never leave again. I will stay with you here. You must also promise me that no matter what you encounter in the future, you must be strong and never give up...

…”

What she said came true.

After that, every time I woke up, I could see her.

She has always been by my side, using her slender fingers to scratch every wound on my body. She always has a magical power. Those places she touched will feel cool for a moment and no longer feel so painful.

Most of the time, she was silent.

But sometimes, she would also say something to me.

The most profound impression on me was when she gently stroked my wound and said to me with a smile: "Actually, it's good to be so motionless. I have gone through a long time, and there was a long time when I was still.

Maintaining this posture, I can think and think, but I can't speak or move. At that time, I am always analyzing my inner world, living the most innocent life, bathing in the sunshine every morning and sunset,

Can feel the purest beauty of this world..."

And I, as she said, can think and think, but can't move or speak. The only thing I can do is to try to open my eyes wide and look at her. Although it's still blurry, it's just her almost perfect look.

The silhouette of her makes my heart feel at peace. Sometimes I feel that it would be nice if I could always look at her like this.

Unfortunately, many beautiful things in this world cannot last forever.

Finally one day, I woke up and saw her again, but this time, instead of caressing my wound, she pinched open my mouth and poured me a bowl of very bitter soup.

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This bowl of soup seemed to have magical effects. After drinking it, all the pain in my body disappeared immediately, and even my thinking became clearer.

She just sat silently next to me, looking at me steadily...

"I finally found this medicine. When you open your eyes tomorrow, you won't be in such pain anymore..."

She smiled softly, smoothed her hair, and said as if joking: "But you have to eat well when you wake up. You have lost too much weight recently."

These words fell into my ears, and there was only one thought left in my mind - So, you want to leave?

Suddenly, I actually felt worried about gain and loss, and I would rather never recover, maybe I could get along with her forever.

She also fell silent for a while, sitting next to me, lowering her head and silently looking at her slender fingers.

Before looking out the window, a gust of wind blew in, ruffling her hair.

At that moment, I found that my sense of smell had recovered, and a burst of intoxicating fragrance came, refreshing my heart and mind.

It's like some kind of floral fragrance, the smell is a bit cold, somewhat similar to the roses my mother takes care of all day long...

The smell is really good, but it seems to go away at any time, making me feel even more empty.

"Practice well."

After a long time, she finally spoke and said softly: "Remember, your life was given to you by me, and you are now mine. You are not allowed to give up your life so easily.

Oh, by the way, I have put away the painting you always put next to your pillow and put it in the cabinet for you.

I know your heart, and I also understand why you keep this painting, so I will keep it. However, there is no need to look at it every night, as it will make people think wrongly.

Okay, that's all. I have to leave. It's a long way to go. Please take care of yourself. Maybe we will meet again in the future."

After saying that, she seemed to have made a lot of determination and stood up to leave.

At this moment, I didn't know where the strength came from, and I suddenly broke free from the restraints of my body and grabbed her hand. It was very slender and soft. I squeezed it so hard that I wanted to crush her hand.

I am afraid that if we let go, we will never see each other again in this life!

"Why bother? It's not the time yet..."

She sighed sadly, looked out the window with her head raised, and said, "Have you seen the moon outside? If you miss me, just look at the moon. I have been watching you there."

As soon as the words fell, her hand was boneless, she pulled away silently, and left like that. What was left to me was only a warm and cold memory. The only thing I can remember is this unique fragrance of her body.

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who is she?

Why did she save me?

And why leave?
Chapter completed!