But she didn't know how long she could hold her... Jun Haixin silently thought in her heart, should it be one year, two years... or five years?! And she didn't know the answer.

After hugging her enough, Jun Haixin took a deep breath and loosened her hands, "I'm going back to the room first." After saying that, he turned and walked towards the stairs.

"Hai Xin!" Song Yi stopped and said, "Tomorrow night..."

"I won't be back tomorrow night. I will sleep outside." Jun Haixin replied. Just because she didn't want her close relatives to see her pain. Even if she locked the door of the room by then, she was afraid that her sister-in-law would also

Just worry about spending the night outside the door.

Just joking, Jun Haixin stepped up the stairs. Song Yi looked at Jun Haixin's back worriedly, but her heart was filled with worry.

Although she was relieved that her eldest son had found his life support, her heart ached again when she thought that her sister-in-law had no news about her life support. Especially, her sister-in-law was already 40 years old now.

After the New Year, I turned 41, but Mingyi was nowhere to be seen.

Sometimes Song Yi can only comfort herself, maybe in a few days, her sister-in-law's fate will suddenly appear, just like Jinchen met Xiaoxu, it happened under circumstances that no one expected.

Thinking like this, Song Yi's mood will feel slightly better.

Jun Haixin walked into the room and lay down on the bed exhausted. She took out the white medicine bottle from her pocket. She glanced at it and then threw the medicine bottle on the ground.

Tomorrow, this medicine will have no effect at all, and tomorrow... how painful will it be?!

The pain became more severe every time. Every time, she thought it was the ultimate pain, but she didn't expect that the next full moon would only be more painful than this one.

And when the full moon came, when Jun Haixin once again stayed alone in the presidential suite of Jun's Hotel, she found that the pain she endured this time was indeed worse than the last time. The pain was not only flowing in the blood, but also

It was as if there was an invisible hand twisting the bones and muscles in her body.

The pain this time was not just a little bit more than the pain during the last full moon, but it was like a fifth increase. Of course, this one-fifth was only her initial estimate.

.

Before she was forty years old, although the pain would increase during each full moon, it only increased slowly, very slowly, so slowly that sometimes she could not even notice it. However, after the age of 40, the pain increased at a faster rate.

Much faster.

It is precisely because of this that many people in the Jun family cannot bear to commit suicide!

Jun Haixin smiled miserably, and there was loud music in the room to cover up her painful and wailing voice. Even though she knew that the soundproofing of the hotel room was very good, even if she shouted in the room until her throat broke, she would not

Someone would hear it, but she still turned up the music as loud as possible.

She thought it was because she didn't want to hear her own wails. The more she listened, the more painful, struggling, and angry she would become, and the more she would lose the courage to continue living...

Although she often feels that death is a kind of relief for her now, she thinks that she might still have a chance to meet her fate, that she might be able to get the satisfaction she has never had before, and that... if she

If she really died, it would be a deep blow to her family who had always loved and protected her.

As for Bai Zhuyun, what will happen to him if she dies? Will he die with her? Or will he send a bouquet of flowers to her grave every year? Or will he remove her ashes from the grave?

Dig it out and completely wipe it out?

She believed that Bai Zhuyun could do this kind of thing.

But no matter what he would do then, it would have nothing to do with her.

She has never found anyone who loves her more than her life, but she is loved crazily by someone. Whenever she watches people on TV saying that being loved is better than loving someone, she feels an unspeakable sadness in her heart.

I feel sad for myself, and also feel sad for Bai Zhuyun.

When you can't love someone no matter what, being loved will only make both of you entangled.

In the luxurious presidential suite, Jun Hai was heartbroken, but on the other side, in the almost closed room, only one light was on. Bai Zhuyun was naked, with a dagger in his hand, scratching his body with a sharp edge.

The blade cut open the skin easily, leaving a pool of bright red blood.

His face was covered with sweat, and his white hair was slightly wet against his forehead and cheeks due to sweat. His face was a layer of gray due to blood loss.

At this moment, he already had seven or eight wounds on his body, and each wound was filled with blood. The bright red blood was dripping on his body, dripping on his pants and on the floor of the room. Look.

It seemed extremely shocking.

But he seemed not to feel any pain at all, with a gentle smile blooming on his face, and the more wounds there were on his body, the stronger the smile on his face became.

"Hai Xin, are you in pain now? If you hate me so much and don't want to see me, I don't have to see you, but I can accompany you in pain." Bai Zhuyun murmured in a low voice.

, it was as if Jun Haixin was right in front of him at this moment, and he was talking to her.

Before the age of 25, he only bleeds for himself, but after the age of 25, he only bleeds for her.

There are countless scars on this body, big and small. Except for some scars from when he was young, every other scar was made by him for her, because he wanted to accompany her in pain, and he wanted to use this

A way to imagine that she and him are together.

One knife, one knife...

More and more blood poured out of his body, and the gray on his face became more and more obvious.

"Hai Xin, Hai Xin! I, Bai Zhuyun, can give you the love, but can I give you my life?" He suddenly stabbed his arm with a knife, "Why don't you look at me one more time?

, why won’t you even tell me a lie? Even if you are lying, even if you are deceiving me, as long as you tell it, I will do everything for you regardless of the cost!"

As long as she says that she will fall in love with him one day, then he will be willing to live in this false fantasy, and then hope that one day in the future, she will really fall in love with him, even if this fantasy

It was still a fantasy until the moment he died, and he was willing to do so.

As long as she is willing to say...

As long as she is willing to say it...

In the silent room, there was only his breathing, and no one could answer his question. Will there be such a day? Will there be a day when she is willing to tell him this lie? Or maybe he will never wait.

This day?

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Chapter completed!