"Spring Believer"

Text/Beituchuan

The first time I met Lin Xiao, I knew he didn't like me, and I felt a little sad.

He was so weird wearing clothes. He wore three chains in his neck, long and short, with his top pattern erect and claws, his short sleeves were worn outside the long sleeves, and there was a big hole in his thighs on his pants, revealing his legs without long pants, and there was a demonic wind outside. It was such a cold day, I really wanted to cover him.

Grandma said that it was as rude as if she accidentally peeked at someone taking a bath, even if she just thought about it, so I could only turn my head and not look at him.

But not long after, he said I was like a little girl picking mushrooms, and I knew he was laughing at my clothes.

I don't like him anymore.

——Jingzhe Diary

1.

One day it was raining. Jingzhe came back from the back mountain wearing a straw raincoat and saw a stranger coming to his house.

A man is about forty years old.

She was carrying a basket and picked up a few mushrooms from the basket. She said as she walked, "Grandma, let's stew some mushroom soup at noon!" Then she took off her straw raincoat and swayed the rainwater on the wall. She stepped into the threshold of the house, but paused and looked at the visitor with restraint.

There have never been many visitors at home, and... some people you can tell at a glance that they won't appear somewhere easily.

Perhaps it was because of intuition that she suddenly felt a little nervous for no reason.

I always feel like something is going to happen.

Grandma pulled her to introduce to someone: "Xiaoqi's child, Jingzhe."

Then he said to Jingzhe: "Your mother's friend, Uncle Lin."

My mother has been dead for many years.

The man looked at Jingzhe for a moment, showing a look of nostalgia, and reached out and gestured: "I've grown so big."

Grandma smiled and said, "You forgot, you are half a year younger than Yaoyao."

The man also laughed: "How could he forget it? When he was a child, Teacher Shen said he would give it to Yaoyao as a child bride, and scared him that he would eat and drink his pocket money in the future. He scared him so much that he cried, and he would never dare to come again."

There was no chance to come. Shen Hanqi passed away a few years later. The old lady packed up her things and took her granddaughter to live in the old house in the deep mountains from the county town. She didn't even have a specific location. Lin Zhengze tried to come and found out that the old lady didn't want to be disturbed. She only sent letters and food a few times. It was not until this year that she found the opportunity to come.

My mother passed away for so long, and my grandmother was silent for a long time every time she mentioned it. This time she laughed with the man, perhaps because she remembered interesting past events, or maybe she really let go.

Jingzhe was still young at that time and did not have a clear memory. It was now like he was listening to other people's stories. From their conversation, they were talking about Yaoyao, Lin Xiao, the son of Uncle Lin, and his nickname was Yaoyao. When he was a child, his parents were busy with work. He grew up in his grandmother's house and was spoiled. He was good at eating, drinking and having fun, but his studies were a mess. He had a red light at every subject, and his grades were up and down, which was more exciting than an electrocardiogram. Fortunately, he performed better in the middle school entrance examination and entered the high school department of the affiliated high school. Otherwise, their parents would have heart disease.

Uncle Lin said that Aunt Lin once wanted to find him a student, but he didn't agree and felt that his wife's capitalist style was like a capitalist.

"When I was a kid, I was so accustomed to him that I didn't even go to school."

Grandma echoed: "It's not easy to raise a child."

I thought it was just an ordinary visit, and the boring greetings were everywhere. Jingzhe sat drowsy and forced his spirits, but the two of them changed their subjects. The man pointed at Jingzhe's going to school indirectly. When he learned that his grandmother was worried, he changed his subjects: "You can't fool high school. My sister has good grades. Otherwise, I'll take her to live in the city for two years and don't delay it. Maybe I can urge Lin Xiao for me, which would be even better, and it would save his mother from wanting to find him a accompanying school. I'm going to be too big."

In the years when my mother passed away, some people wanted to take Jingzhe away, both men and women, and grandma drove them out. When she was so disturbed, she put away her luggage and pulled Jingzhe's hand and staggered into the mountain step by step.

At that time, the roads had not been built in the mountains, and the winding roads were all stepped on by people. In the narrowest place, the two of them could not stand side by side. One side of the head was a steep cliff that could not be seen. Grandma pulled her and asked softly: "Are you afraid of sister?"

Jingzhe shook his head and protected his grandmother's waist.

Grandma stroked her head with her hands: "Don't be afraid, grandma will watch you grow up if she hangs her breath."

It was drizzling outside the door, and the leaves were shaking, and Jingzhe breathed for a moment.

Jingzhe thought that grandma would refuse this time, but grandma was silent for a while, turned into the inner room, and found an iron box from the old-fashioned Huanghuali short-legged cabinet. There was a small wooden box in the iron box. There was a rolled handkerchief in the wooden box. The handkerchief was wrapped in a bank card and a roll of money. She handed it to Lin Zhengze, which means that the child had entrusted it to you.

She held the man's hand with both hands, wriggling her shriveled lips, but she was speechless for a long time. She just patted his hand and stuffed the handkerchief into his palm: "Aze, aunt knows what you mean, and she won't be polite to you. I'm always there. For Xiaoqi's sake, ah, take care of this child, this child is good at studying and has a good brain. She can do everything, just use it."

There are so many things to say, but in the end they are a little incoherent.

Lin Zhengze looked moved and hurriedly supported the old lady: "Aunt Shen, what do you say? Don't break me. If you have a place to live at home, it's just a pair of chopsticks. If my sister is willing to go, I'm not happy. If there is a steady child at home, Lin Xiao can have some good influence, and I can't ask for it."

The two of them exchanged a few more greetings, and the situation seemed to be entrusting themselves with their own solemnity. Jingzhe's eyes gradually turned red and he didn't say a word.

She could hear that grandma and Uncle Lin were all testing each other.

One is afraid to cause trouble to the other party, the other is afraid that the other party will not trouble himself.

Until grandma pulled her to the inner room, stroked her hair over and over again, and said with a trembling throat: "It's not that easy to pick someone up at home. Your uncle Lin is not trying to find a accompanying son to study. He went there from a long distance, but in fact, it was for you to receive a better education. Don't let him down, study hard, and help Lin Xiao well, do you know?"

In fact, the most important thing is that she is really old.

Jingzhe felt sad and wanted to say I wouldn't go, but grandma stroked her head over and over again, and she suddenly realized something.

So she nodded: "Yes."

Grandma sighed slightly: "Good boy."

Uncle Lin stayed at home for a day and left when the rain stopped. He said he would come to pick her up before school started. During that time, my grandmother often mentioned Uncle Lin to her. Uncle Lin and her mother should have never known each other. He studied botany. One year he went into the mountains to collect specimens and lost his way. His companions found a local fellow villager. It was night and it was so dark that there was no star. The fellow villager said that he had to wait until dawn. My mother shone the flashlight outside and said it was going to rain. The next night, something happened. Then she changed into rubber shoes and raincoat, grabbed the flashlight and went into the deep mountains, found him in the cliff cave, and then carried him out with a fever.

He believed that he was a life-saving grace and would come to visit his mother every holiday.

I got familiar with each other and accidentally found out that I knew him when I was young. When I was a child, Uncle Lin's house had an accident and was sent to the countryside. The relatives in the countryside were unhappy to care about him and often locked him outside the door. He had a strong sense of self-esteem and finally made up his mind and planned to run away from home. When he left, it was raining heavily, and his relatives locked him outside. He saw the lights and laughter inside through the crack of the door. He was stunned for a while, and turned around and left.

He wandered around the town for two days and met his mother who was rushing to go to school. He had no money and was wandering near the station.

Seeing that he was embarrassed, his eyes were upright and arrogant, there was no secret in the countryside, and he guessed who he belonged to, and had also learned about his situation. He guessed that he might want to leave alone but had no money, so he felt compassion and waved for a while between helping to contact his relatives and helping him, choosing to give him some money and let him make his own decision.

My mother didn't have much living expenses, but she gave him 100 yuan. At that time, the 100 yuan was a big amount. My mother knew him, but he didn't know her very much. She asked her mother for her name and address and wanted to repay her in the future. The mother was very careful and did not answer, but she just joked: "When you become prosperous in the future, just come back and repair the roads in the mountains. The children go to school every day and step on the mud."

Uncle Lin Zheng focused his head.

Later, it seemed that I had other opportunities and was really developed. Now there are two winding mountain roads into the mountain. The big one was built by the government and had an auxiliary road, which was donated by Uncle Lin, and the Jingzhe walked to school was that road.

She found it incredible.

So this is probably why grandma entrusted her to Uncle Lin with confidence.

He is very sincere. Over the years, his grandmother and her lived in the mountains, and other relatives gradually stopped contacting each other, so Uncle Lin would take care of him from time to time.

Except for talking about the past, grandma cleaned up her things while cleaning up her own things.

Jingzhe was going to find Uncle Lin. Grandma was afraid that she would worry and said she would move to live with Grandma Wan.

Grandma Wan is also a widow. She has a grandson named Wan Kun. Her parents live in the town and only sent him back during the summer vacation. The internet in the mountains and the road is not good. He climbs very high slopes every day and sits on a big stone to play games.

When she was sending her grandmother's things to Grandma Wan's place, Wan Kun was about to go out. When he saw her, he suddenly stopped and leaned over and asked, "Are you going to Nanlin?"

Jingzhe nodded.

Wan Kun curled his lips: "Oh big city."

Jingzhe had no idea, so he didn't say anything.

Wan Kun deliberately scared her: "People in big cities are very cold. If you go there, you will laugh at you as a countryman."

Jingzhe looked up at him, thought for a moment, and asked softly: "Don't you want me to leave?"

Wan Kun was like a cat with a tail trampled on it, and suddenly jumped and took a step back: "What am I doing... Why don't I want you to leave? What does it have to do with me whether you leave or not."

Jingzhe tilted his head and thought about it. It seemed that too. She took out a small cloth bag from her pocket. There was a small bag of malt candy in it, and then handed it to him: "I can't bear to leave you and Grandma Wan, but I must leave. This candy was made by myself, wrapped in glutinous rice paper, and I couldn't bear to eat it."

Wan Kun stuttered a little: "Send it, give it to me?"

Jingzhe nodded: "If you have time in the future, help me take care of my grandma."

Wan Kun stuffed candy into his pocket and patted his chest: "That's not a simple task, it's wrapped around me."

Jingzhe looked up and smiled at him. Her pupils were purely black and shiny, as if there were stars hidden. Wan Kun couldn't help but grin, but thinking that she was about to go to a very far place soon, the corners of her lips couldn't help but droop.

He said: "You remember to come back during the winter and summer vacations."

Jingzhe nodded.

Uncle Lin didn't come until the end of August, and all the things from Jingzhe were packed. Uncle Lin looked at her big and small boxes and said to grandma: "You have everything at home and take it with you. It's not convenient to come back in the future."

Grandma asked, “Is it difficult to bring?”

Lin Zhengze: "That's not." He pointed to the car, "Can you put down any number of things."

Grandma waved her hand and said, "Take it all!" Then she said, "Study hard during the winter and summer vacations, don't always run back. It's hard to walk in the mountains. I, an old lady, have nothing to see. When I get into college, I will pick up my grandma to live near your school. Grandma will also see what the university looks like."

Jingzhe didn't cry for a summer vacation, but she suddenly burst into tears. She raised her back to wipe her tears, and her eyelids were red and tingling.

Grandma patted her on the shoulder: "Why are you crying? Such a big doll."

Jingzhe got into the car. The autumn mountains were so cold that they were biting cold. She lay down on the car window and looked back. The old man was afraid of the cold. Grandma was already wearing a thin cotton coat. The wind filled her clothes. She stood there with a hunched back and waved her hands at her, her figure so thin that it seemed that she could not support her clothes.

Jingzhe's nose is sore.

She remembered when her mother was still alive. At that time, her mother kept saying that she would take her grandmother to her university to see her. Grandma was teaching in elementary school at that time, and a group of children who were screaming were having new problems every day. Today, this one didn’t go to school, and tomorrow the one said that she would go home to herd cattle and sheep. She said impatiently: “I don’t have that American time. I have no school in colleges and primary schools. I am in school, so I have to run so far to see a house.”

The mother curled her lips and said, "Don't go and get down."

Later, after my mother went there, my grandmother often murmured to her unconsciously: "I don't know what college is like. When you grow up and get into college, you will take my grandmother to see you. My grandmother has never left the county town in her life."

Jingzhe knew that grandma just missed her mother.

She missed her mother a little too.

She wanted to go to her university and take her grandmother with her.

"When you are settled, I will find an opportunity to pick up your grandma as well." Lin Zhengze couldn't bear to say, looking at Jingzhe's sad expression.

Jingzhe said thank you, knowing that grandma won’t go, but she also had a slight expectation.

The winding mountain road is very difficult, and today the wind is strong, and the driver can't help but sigh. Lin Zhengze originally had a laptop on his knee and planned to handle some work, but he was no longer in a mood and looked at the scenery along the way.

He suddenly turned his head and asked, "Can you take a photo with your uncle? Auntie hasn't seen you yet, please tell her to take a look."

Jingzhe nodded, Lin Zhengze took out his cell phone, and the camera was aimed at the two people, but he didn't point it at him, and directly focused on Jingzhe's face. Jingzhe raised his eyes, pulled the corner of his lips uncomfortably, and reached out to compare.

Click.

Lin Zhengze sent it to his wife and son casually, hoping that they would recognize their faces in advance.

The Internet was not very good. The picture was loaded for a while but couldn't send it out. He closed his phone and it took a long time to receive the reply voice message. He was so tired that he clicked it and heard his unlucky son screaming in a train-style complaint: "What are you doing? I'm going to go on a blind date before I even got an adult? It's not suitable!"

Lin Zhengze's face froze a few times, turned his head and said to Jingzhe, "I'm sorry, I'm laughing."

Then he gritted his teeth and said, "You are worthy!"
Chapter completed!