This kind of Lian Qianqian couldn't help but make An Xici feel surprised. She had known Lian Qianqian for a long time. Although they didn't have many interactions, her impression was that Lian Qianqian had always been a generous and cheerful girl.

Some other ladies of the world are different. That's why An Xishu likes to associate with her.

But now Lian Qianqian has suddenly lost his vitality, which is puzzling.

An Xiji screened away the people waiting in the hall, and pulled Lian Qianqian to sit down: "What's wrong with you? Why do you feel like you've lost your soul after not seeing me for a few days?"

Lian Qianqian looked at An Xici, who was still bright and beautiful, and couldn't help but sigh. After a long time, she replied wiltedly: "Xi'er, I suddenly feel that life is so meaningless."

"How do you say it?" An Xici doesn't understand the meaning of life at all. For her, first, she must live. Second, she must live happily and freely. As for other things, she doesn't understand them.

and within the scope of consideration.

"I ran away willfully last time and made my parents worry about me. It was really unfilial. My parents raised me so much, but I always make them worry about me. I feel very sorry for them, so I want to listen to them and obey them.

No matter what kind of person they choose for me to marry in the future, I will not complain. After all, they are all for my own good. Moreover, they love me so much, and they will definitely not see me being wronged.

." Even Qianqian has been depressed for a long time, and there is no one around her who can express her inner feelings. Here, An Xici finally has the opportunity to express her innermost feelings:

"But it's like there's a restless monster living in my heart, always wanting to break out of the cage and see the light of day again, allowing me to live in a way that I can't imagine yet. This idea is too scary, but the more I suppress it,

, the more depressed I am. I have already resigned myself to being a good daughter. I also know that this may be the best choice for me. But I can't always break through the obstacles in my heart. Xi'er, I feel good

It's a contradiction, but I can't tell my parents these things. I don't want them to worry about me anymore. They have done enough for me."

After Lian Qianqian finished speaking, the two of them remained silent for a while.

An Xici digested Lian Qianqian's words for a while before she understood the meaning.

She has not received the authentic training of a lady, so from the very beginning, she aimed to rely on her own abilities to live more comfortably. She had a different starting point from Lian Qianqian. She had received more than 20 years of training in her previous life.

Years of cruel survival, even if there is a chance to live a comfortable life, she will think of the obstacles she may encounter in advance, and then clear them step by step, and finally achieve her own goal. For her, this is her own kind

instinct.

But Lian Qianqian is different. Lian Qianqian is a lady who has received feudal ideological education for more than ten years. Even if her ideas are a little outrageous, she still wants to follow the era in her heart. She is bound by the era, but she also wants to break free. So.

She struggled extraordinarily, but was powerless.

Perhaps in the eyes of many people, she is simply moaning for no reason.
Chapter completed!