Chen Zhixian couldn't help but savor this song carefully, and felt more and more that it was actually very similar to the brother's inner monologue.

In my previous life, I also specially learned about my brother’s situation before his death. I remember that the year before his death, his depression became more serious.

He longs to talk to others, he doesn't know how to express it, he hides in the dark, desperate and lonely.

His throat was damaged by acid reflux and the recordings were affected.

He can't sing the song anymore.

In the lyrics, "bottle cover" refers to the bottle stopper, which implies that he is like a bottle of wine, hoping that the knot of his heart will be untied.

The mouth "raising moss" implies that he can't speak, and he wants to sing.

He couldn't get rid of his depression and felt that no one could help him, so he might as well have this "accident" himself.

Here is the part of the song "introduction", and then, from a line "suddenly singing" begins to transform into a "monologue".

Su Chen stood there, a faint smile appeared on his face, but the smile seemed to be mocking himself:

"It's like a sudden song

It's like a four-sided platform anywhere

Decorated with the flashiest shirt very emotional

If someone comes to take pictures, remember to put the bag in the bag..."

Ordinary people may sound like the media's interpretation. This is a small person's unwilling cry. In any place, it is like a stage for performance. When someone comes to take photos, remember to put it in a bag, so that you can leave your most shining side to the public!

But in the ears of Su Chen's fans, it feels a different feeling.

Every time Su Chen faces fans and media, he always shows his best side. He always does that and does not want to disappoint those who like him!

But in the ears of Chen Zhixian, who has "ulterior motives", he was extremely frightened to think about it carefully!

He seemed to see the confusion and helplessness of his brother standing on a high place. He felt that the world was quiet, so quiet that he suffocated.

Just as it was written in his suicide note, he didn't understand, was confused and helpless!

I have never done bad things in my life, why is this happening?

Why did I get this disease? Or why did those people treat me like this?

At that time, he should have wanted to sing, right? It doesn’t matter where he is. Singing on the rooftop is like holding a concert.

Wear the most beautiful clothes, take countless labels and stories of this life, and jump down.

For some reason, Chen Zhixian's eyes suddenly turned red and he felt very distressed. The brother at that time must have been in great pain, right?

The melody of the music suddenly became high.

Su Chen's voice also became loud and hoarse.

"You think I'm exaggerating, it's just because I'm afraid of it.

Do you get noticed if it looks like wood or stone?

Actually, I'm afraid I'll be forgotten and I'll perform.

How to be elegant, is the world still praise silence?

Not explosive enough

How to have a topic

Let me praise you as a big entertainer..."

Similarly, there are three interpretations. The interpretation of ordinary people is that this is the words of a small person who excuses himself. It makes people feel sad when reading it. You think I am exaggerating, because I am very scared, and staying silently in the crowd is just like a piece of wood and stone. Why do you blame me for being exaggerated? You said I am not elegant enough, but just being laughed and scolded like a clown? Haha, how many people in this world are paying attention to silent people? Just think of me as a clown. A clown who can make people laugh and scold is also a "big entertainer". If you don't believe me, think of it. When you blame me for being "not elegant enough", aren't you also looking at me?

But Su Chen's fans sounded like Su Chen's irony.

You just think I am exaggerating. Every concert I perform seriously, seek innovation and breakthroughs, hoping to bring the best to fans, but in the mouths of the media, all this has become synonymous with exaggeration. He believes that he did this just to attract attention.

Then let’s do it, just think I’m trying to attract attention, just think I’m exaggerating and exaggerating, let me be a big entertainer.

And Chen Zhixian is another interpretation!

If this song was written from the perspective of my brother, what would my brother think?

Can you just think my death is an exaggerated performance?

You just think I am afraid of being forgotten by the world, and can I use such a ridiculous death to attract attention?

This world is not explosive, cruel, and shocking enough, so how can there be a topic? How can anyone discuss it?

How to write entertainment news, you can do whatever you want, report on my scars, please continue.

Do you know how painful it is to “depression”?

Perhaps after I die, the world will pay more attention to this issue.

I just regard my death as the last show, anyway, I am a big entertainer until I die.

For some reason, tears flashed in the corners of Chen Zhixian's eyes. He was not a die-hard fan of his brother, but at this moment, he felt that he could understand something!

"That year, the eighteen alma mater dance was like a lore

At that time, I swear with tears in my eyes that you must see me

In the ordinary and ordinary village, there are too many ordinary roads in the world, which one do you live in?

The neglectedness in work in love has been lost...

Pay attention to cure hunger, and you will know why I have never obtained it.

Many big moves make these mistakes

Is it a morbid thing to fight people to see if I am sick?"

Literally, these lyrics are actually very simple, easy to interpret and understand.

These sentences are remembrances, and you don’t have to say much about the “neglect” that you have experienced in the past. “Essentials can cure hunger” is both an indignation and a truth. It is precisely because you have been obscured by these “neglected” that you know that “emphasized” can really “curse hunger”. “Make these mistakes” and “I am a pathological” are quite playful. I don’t care about being seen as a clown, not being ridiculed or not being elegant, not being scolded as “exaggerated” because I don’t want to endure “ignorance” anymore. Even if you scold me, I just have to win people’s attention. But there is still a voice in my heart that reminds me that this is wrong and it is pathological. “Many big moves make these mistakes” and “Watch people and see if I am a pathological” have some self-deprecating taste. I heard these voices, but I can’t help but “exaggerate”.

But from the perspective of Su Chen’s fans, it is the opposite.

Fans knew Su Chen's concerts again and again, but for those paparazzi entertainment journalists, they felt that Su Chen was successful. After becoming a big man, he was still so exaggerated and used all kinds of surprising things to attract attention. That was a pathological one.

But in Chen Zhixian's view, it was a different feeling.

It seems that the lyricist is shouting for his brother. In the front, he is determined to make a name for himself since childhood and becomes a star, which contrasts with the ordinary people's problems behind him.

In turn, it highlights that celebrities also have "depression".

In this matter, celebrities, like ordinary people, have very fragile lives.

We are all the same, all suffering from invisible stress and depression.

Since I am the focus of the world, since I am the center of the topic.

When I was alive, I came out calmly and made the whole world "attention" to the gay issue.

Now I use my death to let the whole world see what kind of disease I have. Pay attention to the problem of "depression".
Chapter completed!