046 I regret it, but unfortunately I can't go back.(1/2)
When any explanation is pale and powerless, the three words "sorry" become the only one.
When a story is told for the second time, you will unconsciously add some embellishments to it.
When a person loses trust in you, all your words will be asked in her mind first.
Jiang Lanqing listened to Zhang Fan's story very quietly, and finally turned his head toward him, tilted his head slightly, and asked softly: "Is that true?"
“That’s right.”
Zhang Fan answered in her eyes, trying to reach out to touch her hair, but Jiang Lanqing deliberately avoided it.
Seeing her like this, Zhang Fan suddenly felt a sense of self-deprecation in his heart.
"I used to be able to touch any part of your body easily, but now you don't even let me touch your hair. Isn't this asking for your own attention?"
Jiang Lanqing avoided Zhang Fan's fingers and stood up, folded his hands together and raised them over his head to stretch his waist. He looked up at the sun above his head and asked Zhang Fan, "Do you like me first or like her first?"
"You are the first girl I fell in love with in my life."
Although he knew that Jiang Lanqing, who was facing away from him, could not see his expression at this moment, Zhang Fan still answered with a very serious expression.
"Forehead......"
Jiang Lanqing deliberately delayed his voice and never said any extra words.
The world is quiet like this, and time is passing silently.
After a while, Jiang Lanqing put his hands on his back, leaned his upper body forward, and gently tiptoed on the floor tiles under her feet.
Walk forward without any regularity, stop and stop.
Zhang Fan looked at her like this and couldn't help but smile.
“If possible…”
But his lips were slightly opened and he couldn't say the rest.
However, this sentence stopped Jiang Lanqing's steps away, and suddenly turned around and said to Zhang Fan: "As long as you have severed your relationship with the girl named Bai Xue from now on, I will think that nothing has happened today. If you have not betrayed me, I don't have to forgive you. We are still parents, teachers and classmates, born a couple."
Jiang Lanqing finished saying this in one breath because she was afraid that she would not have the courage to continue saying it if she paused.
Her pride will make her continue without hesitation.
Zhang Fan looked at Jiang Lanqing who was crying and shook his head gently. "She told me the same way, and I refused."
"Ha...ha..." Jiang Lanqing showed a sarcastic smile on his face and looked at Zhang Fan with a complicated expression.
After a while, he pretended to show his sudden enlightenment and asked Zhang Fan with a narrow face: "Who says the eldest wife? Who is the young wife? And who is the young wife in the future?"
Zhang Fan also smiled. "I will love you all the same."
"Bah, Zhang Fan, what you said is like no one likes me, Jiang Lanqing." Jiang Lanqing vomited a very unlady.
Then he wiped his nose with the back of his hand and said loudly: "Zhang Fan, you are just dreaming. Even if she promised me, I, Jiang Lanqing, are not so unloved."
"I'm just dreaming. The first dream is broken, and I have expectations for the second dream." Zhang Fan whispered, and then added. "She has not agreed yet."
"Oh, it seems that she knows a little shame." Jiang Lanqing smiled again, and stopped and began to move forward. "Zhang Fan, I know you won't continue to lie to me, but do you think I should be happy or sad?"
"Happy." Zhang Fan felt extremely shameless after answering.
Jiang Lanqing stopped again, looked back at Zhang Fan, took a deep breath and asked, "If I break up with you, would you be together with her?"
Zhang Fan did not rush to answer, but walked to Jiang Lanqing's side, took a deep breath, then hugged her hard in his arms, and said in her ear.
"If possible, I can... go back to the past, I will give up the regrets in my heart, and I may not look for you again, just wait for the passage of time, and appear in front of another girl one day, no matter what, I will not have the first unrealistic dream."
Jiang Lanqing pushed Zhang Fan's body hard, and after finding that he was still tightly hugged by him, he gave up. After a few seconds, he hugged Zhang Fan's waist with force, and said with his head lying on his shoulder.
"But you did it, not only did you make me look like this, but you still refuse to admit your mistakes now."
"I'm sorry." Zhang Fan said in a low voice.
"I don't want you to say sorry. I just need to make up your mind to leave that girl behind and quietly and sweetly walk through the rest of this life. If you live up to time, I will not let you down."
Jiang Lanqing never thought that he would say the most stingy and humble words under such circumstances.
After saying that, she raised her chin and looked at Zhang Fan with tears in her eyes and asked sadly: "Is that okay? I have accommodated you like this, can't you think about it for me? How could I agree to share you with others?"
Zhang Fan looked at her, his lips moved, and he couldn't give up after all. "I'm sorry, I can't look back, unless she hates me."
Jiang Lanqing asked in a low voice: "Then should I beg her to let go now?"
"She asked me this way, and I said you won't let go, and I won't let you leave me."
"Zhang Fan, how can you be so despicable? You are trampling and tarnishing my love for you. How can I love you in the future if you let me do this?"
Jiang Lanqing finally let go of the hand that hugged Zhang Fan, closed his eyes and thought for a while, and finally a bitter smile appeared on his face.
"Zhang Fan, are you sure you will be sure to be me?"
Without waiting for Zhang Fan to answer, Jiang Lanqing hugged Zhang Fan's neck again, bit his lips hard, and then released it after feeling the warmth from the tip of his tongue.
Then he wiped the blood on his lips with his fingers and said proudly: "I said, if you dare to bully me, I will bite you and do what I say."
Zhang Fan didn't want to explain that he wasn't crying because of this. He was silent for a few seconds and asked softly: "Are we finished?"
Jiang Lanqing shook her head. "No, I'll wait for her to give up."
Then he said casually: "If she doesn't give up, the three of us will be alone for a lifetime. Don't let me leave you and her to enjoy happiness."
"No, I..."
Before Zhang Fan could finish his words, his lips were kissed by Jiang Lanqing again. This time she kissed her extremely softly, and she whispered softly: "Let's do the last step today, otherwise you probably won't have a chance in the future."
"No." Zhang Fan refused.
Jiang Lanqing smiled, opened her eyes and stared at Zhang Fan's eyes, raised her hand and gently brushed her cheeks, and then bit his lips hard.
After loosening his teeth, he said slowly: "Even if I promise you this absurd request in the future, I will never love you like today, nor will I give you countless opportunities like this, or even let go of my pride and beg you. Do you really hope this is the case?"
"This is something that can't be done."
"I might empathize with others and let others take my first time away. Don't you care?"
"I won't let this happen."
"I'm not the puppet manipulator, how can you guarantee this?" Jiang Lanqing smiled.
"Because I believe you won't do this." Zhang Fan said in her eyes.
"But I no longer believe in love. Zhang Fan, I am really a bold girl. You know me about this."
"Well, I know, but I still believe in you."
Jiang Lanqing didn't say anything else. After sucking his nose, he said, "If you want to believe it, believe it. Anyway, I won't treat you as well as in the past, because you have made me so mean."
"I'm sorry, I really regret it."
Jiang Lanqing reached out and wiped Zhang Fan's cheek, and said sadly: "Actually, do you love me more, right? You just feel guilty towards her, at least she hasn't bitten your mouth, and I often do this."
"Maybe that's the case." Zhang Fan himself didn't know the answer.
After hearing his answer, Jiang Lanqing suddenly felt a little better.
While sniffing, he wiped his tears with his fingers and said, "There is a bathroom there. Let's wash our faces and go to your house for dinner. Your mother made braised pork ribs that I like to eat, so they can't tell that we are quarreling."
"I'm sorry." Zhang Fan once again hugged Jiang Lanqing in his arms.
"You don't need to say these three words. I just don't want my parents and your parents to be sad. After all, they all think we will fall in love for the rest of our lives. When we were having hot pot yesterday, we fought for who will take care of the children in the future."
Jiang Lanqing said while sniffing, and she found that her vision became blurred again.
Then he pushed Zhang Fan away and walked towards the sink alone.
The tap water in late winter is very cold, but Jiang Lanqing washes it very carefully.
After washing his face, he asked Zhang Fan: "Can you still see that I'm crying?"
"You can see it." Zhang Fan replied.
"Oh." Jiang Lan nodded.
Then he bit his mouth hard and then said to Zhang Fan: "That's all, I'll say I was bitten by you and I'll cry."
Zhang Fan looked at the blood coming out of her lips. What could he say at this moment?
Nothing can be said.
"Li Junhong warned me this time that I didn't want to believe it at the time. It seems so ridiculous now."
Lu Jing looked at Zhang Fan and Jiang Lanqing eating slowly, couldn't help but glared at them, and said angrily: "If you have nothing to do, don't learn from the couples on TV. If you kiss, you deliberately bite your mouth. Now you know you regret it, right?"
"I understand, mom." Zhang Fan quickly agreed.
After a little bite of the meal, Jiang Lanqing smiled at Lu Jing and said, "Auntie, Zhang Fan had a great time with his classmates in the morning. He built two very beautiful snowmen. I also want to build snowmen in the afternoon."
"If you want it, I'll help you cut two carrots for your nose later." Lu Jing said with a smile.
"Thank you aunt."
The sky in the afternoon was brighter than in the morning. When Zhang Fan and Jiang Lanqing came back to the dam behind Qingjing Temple, a group of very cute snowmen snuggling tightly were piled up on the snow.
Jiang Lanqing looked at the name above and chanted it softly.
To be continued...