"Do you still remember the edict that I found with you?"

As soon as he opened his mouth, he suddenly went back to more than ten years ago. I was also a little dazed, but what happened that year and that day were still clearly imprinted in my mind.

Maybe it's because it has had a deep and far-reaching impact on my future life.

I said, "Remember."

Pei Yuanxiu looked at me and said softly: "At that time, do you know what I was thinking?"

I shook my head.

He said: "I'm thinking, why not just forget it."

“…”

"I had known for a long time that I was not the orthodox royal family. The edict of the throne made me know that I had no hope. I just wanted to be abandoned in your eyes, not to flee in a panic, but to calmly accept that fact and leave. I hope I am such a person in your eyes."

“…”

"I hope you can go with me."

I lowered my eyes.

But he still looked at me without any relaxation and said, "Actually, at that time, I knew that you and the third brother had already had feelings. You went to Yangzhou together - I had thought of it for a long time and wanted to stop you from following him to Yangzhou, but in the end, the father still leaned towards him."

“…”

"So, you rejected me."

I said lightly: "I rejected you, not to be by his side."

He looked into my eyes: "But you followed him in the end."

“…”

This time, I have nothing to say.

Yes, after all, I followed Pei Yuanhao.

Even at that time, I refused to follow him and stayed in the imperial city to wait for a fair amnesty day, all in order to one day be able to get rid of that false identity openly and leave the palace to pursue the life I wanted, but at that time I did everything, but I did not count what happened later.

Now, I understand a little bit what Yan Qingchen said just now.

Nothing is controllable.

The best ability of a person is not control, but can be solved one by one when problems arise. Unfortunately, at that time, I was too convinced that Pei Yuanhao would let me go and did not have the ability to fight against the emperor.

So, a crushing defeat.

I said blankly: "Yes, I followed him after all."

He said, "Do you know what I thought at that time?"

I shook my head.

"I have known that you have feelings for him and that with his heart, I will not let you go easily. So I have expected this result, and I also thought that I could accept everything calmly."

“…”

"But I found that I couldn't accept it."

“…”

"I can't even be calm."

I was silent for a moment, and then said, "It's not just me."

He did not deny it, and a hint of heat appeared in his eyes, staring at me tightly: "Do you know that a person who was originally the prince, and his country was at his fingertips for him. He lost everything overnight, and he was no one anymore. His identity, status, power, and even the proof of his existence disappeared. Does that feel?"

“…”

I didn't say anything.

But in fact, I understand that feeling.

Just like when I left Xichuan and went north to Beijing.

I was uprooted, and everything that once belonged to Yan Qingying suddenly had nothing to do with me. After I changed myself to the identity of "Yue Qingying", I became a completely stranger in the past. When I saw people in the palace, I had to bow to the emperor, prince, and concubines. This was nothing wrong with those ordinary girls... it was too.

In addition to every night, I dreamed that when I was still living in the Yan family's home.

I will also remember that even in poverty-stricken days, my mother still lives with me calm and dignified.

So, I used the money I carried with me to bribe the nanny and the others and transferred me to the inner cabinet, not only to hide myself better, but also to avoid being humble to others every day.

I think I am not a person who can't take it and let it go, but that kind of gap is not something that everyone can accept so easily. Liu Qinghan would say that it is easy to go from frugality to extravagance, but naturally, it is difficult to go from extravagance to frugality.

I said softly, "I understand."

Pei Yuanxiu said: "You may not understand everything."

“…”

I glanced at him and nodded.

Yes, he is the prince, and he is different from the eldest daughter of the Yan family after all.

Moreover, men's obsession with power and status is also different from women.

He said: "I thought I could not care about all that, but it turns out that I can't."

“…”

"I thought I could let you go, but it turns out that I can't."

“…”

"I know what life you lived in the palace, I know Pei Yuanhao forced you to commit suicide. Do you know what I thought at that time?"

When I heard his last few words, my teeth were grinding and the sound made me tremble.

Of course I know.

During the time when he was caught by Butu and brought to Seungkyung by Losch, he told me everything.

He was almost going crazy.

At this moment, I clearly heard his heavy breathing. Each sound was like several heavy impacts, hitting my heart hard. When I raised my head to look at him, I could even feel the pain in his eyes.

I immediately lowered my head, avoided his gaze, and said, "I know, Loch told me everything."

His heavy breathing finally relieved a little at this moment.

But his eyes were not relaxed at all, and he still looked at me with a burning look: "At that time, I made up my mind to take back everything that belonged to me."

“…”

"No matter this country or you!"

“…”

"But that night after the imperial city, I also understood one thing: he thought more deeply than me and did more ruthlessly than me, so he won, won the world, and won you. If you want to regain everything that originally belonged to me, it will not be a matter of one day or one night. I need to think more than him and do more ruthlessly than him."

This chapter is not finished yet, please click on the next page to continue reading the exciting content behind! When he said these words, his voice was still very calm, even with a little indifferentness, but I know that every word in these words is stained with a strong smell of blood. Even after so many years, those scenes are still surging in my mind.

I said, "So, after you failed in Dongzhou, you immediately went south to Jinling; and in Jinling, you have been dormant for so long and planning for so many years, and have been secretly manipulating Shen Gongyi. It was not until the emperor took down their group in the Juma River Valley that you took the opportunity to seize Jiangnan."

He said: "Yes."

In fact, I have known these for a long time, and even if there are some that I don’t know, I can guess some of them.

But this is the first time. He clearly told me about the years when the clouds and mountains were surrounded by mist, and the years that Huang Tianba once said, this person who had been hidden in the fog and was like a mystery finally made me see clearly at this moment.

I was silent for a while, and then said, "What are you doing now?"

He looked into my eyes and said, "I want you to know that I do all that for a reason."

I also looked at him and nodded: "Yes, of course there is a reason. It is for these reasons that you killed the real Yue Qingying and instructed Gu Ping to kill her on Pei Yuanzhen's wedding night; I took advantage of the opportunity of going out to sea to find Miaoyan to find Folang Ji cannons, and even sent someone to intercept Qinghan on the execution ground..."

“Light,”

After calling my name, he did not speak anymore, but looked at me deeply. After looking at me for a long time, he finally said in a low voice, "A general succeeded and thousands of bones were woven."

One general succeeds and thousands of bones are woven...

This is the sentence again.

All this sentence has always been the best explanation. All conspiracies, those means that cannot be declared, and those bloody killings seem so righteous behind this sentence. Perhaps for men, this sentence can cover everything up.

There is nothing that cannot be sacrificed before success.

I couldn't help but chuckled.

His expression seemed very solemn, especially when he heard my laughter, his whole body seemed to tremble for a moment. He subconsciously extended his hand to me: "Little--"

Just when his fingers were about to touch me, I immediately shrank my hand on the table.

His hand froze in front of me.

I raised my head, met his somewhat injured eyes, and said lightly: "You'd better not move around, Uncle Wuwei is outside."

The lights in the room projected my shadow and him on the doors and windows. People outside could clearly see every movement of the two of us. He hesitated for a moment, but in the end he slowly retracted his hand.

And I put my hand back on the table.

The two of them seemed to have broken a moment. When he raised his head and looked at me again, his eyes finally calmed down. He said, "Can't you forgive me?"

I couldn't help but curl up the corners of my lips again and showed a faint smile: "Yuan Xiu, let's be fair."

“…”

"You just said that you convinced yourself before doing everything, and before doing it, you should think clearly what would happen if I knew the truth."

“…”

"You killed my friend, and used the people I care about to kill Pei Yuanzhen, and used my concern for Miaoyan to find the Folang Ji cannon..." When I said the last time, my voice was trembling slightly: "You can't ask me to be aware of nothing after doing all of that, and you want me to return to you obediently."

“…”

"You can't want everything."
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