Chapter 2

The next day I woke up, it was already noon. Because the boss had been in trouble for a week, I allowed me to rest for a day. My stomach was so hungry that I felt a little painful. I got up and got some food, and started to clean the room.

To be honest, I especially want to learn to be as pretentious as in TV dramas, such as "throwing everything from him so that the room will no longer have his breath". But in fact, what I threw out is just what I bought him and never used. For him, I am just a free hotel I stayed in occasionally. He never thought it was home, and he had no nostalgia for this place, so how could he leave his breath?

All I really need to clean up is the bedroom. The room still looks like yesterday, but the rest is just a mess on the bed. I resisted the desire to vomit and reached out to flip the sheets and quilts. Finally, I didn't see that thing stuck on it, otherwise I would probably vomit on the bed on the spot.

Actually, I really wanted to drag the bed out and throw it away, but the bedroom door really didn't allow it, so I had to try my best to replace it. The quilt cover, sheets and pillowcase were washed. I was going to wait until they were dry and joined by the quilt core to collect garbage downstairs. Then I cleaned the house thoroughly and lay on the sofa and looked at the clean and neat room. I felt a little more comfortable. It was almost time to have dinner at this time, so I was ready to reward myself and go out for a good meal.

Qinxiangyuan’s hot pot has always been my favorite.

In fact, the hot pot picture is just a bustle. A group of people sit around, the soup is boiling, and the steam is steaming makes people's faces red. Everyone, one chopstick, one chopstick, and one snatch, making a mess, and laughter almost overturned the roof.

It’s a pity that I don’t have a small group that accommodates me, nor do I have a friend who can come out to drink with me by phone. So I only sit in the hall alone.

One person takes up a table, and one person faces a hot pot.

Now is the best time for business, and the hall is full of people. I looked up and glanced around. The only table was my only one. I was a little ashamed, so I could only look down at my phone frequently and look like I was waiting for someone to come. Actually, I knew that I was so stupid, such a big place, so lively and joyful, who would pay attention to a stranger in the corner?

Sitting next to me was a young couple. The girl muttered that the soup base was spicy and couldn't eat it. The boy asked the waiter to call a bowl of clear soup, picked out the dishes and rinse the red oil and spicy food in the clear soup, and then put it into the girl's bowl. He said helplessly: "Everyone said you can't eat spicy food, you just want it to be spicy." The girl pouted, "I wanted to eat spicy food just now." The boy pinched her nose dotingly.

I was stunned when I looked at the boiling soup in front of me. When I was having dinner, I always only cared about him and ignored him. What he liked or what I thought was delicious, I put them in his bowl and didn't leave any of them for myself. Once he was sick and said he wanted to drink porridge. When I cooked it, he was already asleep. At that time, he didn't eat anything for a day. I woke him up and thought about coaxing him to eat some. As soon as he took the porridge over, he slapped it over. The bowl was overturned, and all the porridge that had just been out of the pot fell on my leg, and it was immediately blistered. Every time he took that step, the trouser material rubbed against the scalded skin, which was very painful and burnt.

Suddenly someone grabbed the corner of my clothes, and I came to my senses. When I turned my head, I saw a little boy about three years old looking at me with his big eyes open. Maybe the hall was a little hot, and the baby's red face was like a big apple.

I bent my mouth and teased him: "Is there anything wrong with the baby looking for uncle?"

The baby frowned and thought, thinking that he wanted to come up with something "thing is wrong".

A woman behind me came over with a bowl. When I saw me, I quickly apologized: "Sorry, sorry, the naughty child didn't cause trouble for you, right?"

I smiled and shook my head, "The baby is very cute."

The woman smiled at me, and her face was filled with pride of being a mother.

The baby saw his mother coming and ran away with his calf. The woman chased after him helplessly and coaxed her: "Would Hao Hao have another bite? If you don't eat it, your mother will eat it. 'Aowu' Mom really ate your meal!"

I looked at the back of the young mother and listened to her childish and cute words to coax the child, and felt inexplicably sore and ache. I gritted my teeth and suppressed the wetness in my eyes. It was so embarrassing and sad. Why did I even envy a child of a few years old?

I didn't have a happy meal, so I finally left the place almost like a escaping.

After getting on the bus, there were only a few people in the bus. Looking at the people who seemed to be as lonely as me in the single seat, I let out a heavy sigh and felt a little comfort in my heart.

I was unlucky, so I hope that everyone in the world would struggle in pain, and when I saw the happiness and perfection of others, I felt jealous and unwilling to accept it. Such an ugly self made me feel very disgusted.

I leaned my head against the car window, and the neon lights flashed outside. The streets were still bustling, but my heart was deserted, as silent as if it was stagnant.

When we arrived at a certain stop, the bus stopped and a girl in her 20s came up. She held the phone in her hand and was talking. She looked around and sat behind me.

"Dad! I heard from my mom that you had drunk another drink, right?!" The girl's voice was not loud, but it seemed very clear in the empty bus, and someone looked at her sideways.

The girl didn't care about other people's sight and continued talking on the phone, "What does it mean to complain! I'm not doing it for your own good!"

"If I hear you drinking, I won't come back during the holidays, and I won't come back in the future! Go find another daughter!" Someone in the car laughed. Although the girl was a little spoiled and rude, she could hear that she was a very filial daughter.

"Hmph, this is still the same! Dad... I miss the dishes you cook so much... Well, I want to eat potatoes and beef! Braised eggplant! Salt shrimp and cola chicken wings!... Well, I will cook them for me when I go back! Dad, I love you!!" I was still training people a minute ago, but immediately became the little daughter who acted coquettishly towards her father. Everyone in the car casts envious eyes. It can be seen that this must be a child who has been held in the palm of his hand to care for him since childhood.

I opened my eyes wide and looked out the window, for some reason why my vision was getting blurry. I didn't dare to blink, but in the end I burst into tears. I gritted my teeth hard, and finally couldn't help crying.

I, what I have sought in my life, is nothing but that.

I also think that when I go home, my parents cooked a table of food waiting for me. When I am sick, my mother was worried that I couldn’t sleep when I was sick. I wanted to climb mountains with my father and watch football games together and chat about life together. I thought that during the holidays, there were a whole family sitting around, grandparents holding my hands and younger brothers and sisters who pestered me to take them to play.

I love Yitian. Because he is so outstanding, because he has parents who love him, because he has a group of good brothers, because he has all my yearning and longings.

I just want to think that if a person like this is a happy person, if he works hard to get close, can he be infected with his happiness? Can he also give me hope for my unfortunate life again?

The car was so quiet that I could only hear my cry.

I know it's really embarrassing to cry like this.

But I felt so uncomfortable that all the indifference and strength that stood up high collapsed in the warmth of others. Because I saw their happiness and smiles, I became more and more aware of the fact that I was the only one who had no one to rely on and was not needed.
Chapter completed!